After writing the last blog about the need for specifity, I saw how this not applying at first, is related to hope. I saw this when I read the text of the Life Review ‘What if…’ and how this is related to hope.
Hope that it is possible in another way, hope that I do not need to do so; to apply this specifity with regards to food, hope that ‘for me it is different’, hope that there will be a miracle in some way, as how I hear sometimes from others as in ‘I took out the dairy and my intestine-problems are solved’.
Here I will apply self-forgiveness on the experience of hope within myself in relation to the condition of my large intestine.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in an experience of hope that it is possible in another way to ‘solve’ the problem, other than being consequent and specific within my application of taking responsibility for and as myself as who I am, because when and as I look at others, I see that they do not have the same complaints and that they are not so specific and/or, that others do – from my perspective – only need to make one adjustment or only adjustments in their food, to improve a physical condition.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself to others/what I see in others without realising that I only see one dimension and also, through my own interpretation in/as the mind which does not give a map of the whole situation.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be totally specific but only roughly and so, I can not come to specifity as how is needed to really support myself within the mind-body relationship, as I see that I need to be specific on one area as a start, to be able to go into a deeper level within me, through the layers that are build specificly.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I can do everything ‘roughly’ and following the basic, without going into specifity, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that I will be able to go from basic more into depth specificly.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I am not specific, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that the application specifies through time by walking constant and consistently into more detail.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to be specific as this ‘costs’ me a lot of effort.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ‘want to be at first line for 10 cents’ as how in Dutch one says as a proverb which means so much as wanting to have the best result without putting in the effort to attain this potential within and as me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame myself for not being specific enough, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that I can learn to be/become specific and that specifity is build through time.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel useless because of not having a ‘specialization’ in the area of natural medicine where I work and connect this with not being specific, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that I am walking myself into more specifity day by day into this new area of the mind-body relationship that has not so much been explored in total specifity thus far.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself in walking this process specific enough to get into clarity for and as myself because I did not see anyone in the area of natural medicine walk the mind-body relationship specifically, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that with putting everything together that I have walked and that I walk/will walk, I will be able to be/become more and more specific in relation to my own physical body and the function of the large intestine.
When and as I see myself participating in an experience of hope, I stop and breathe.
I realize that I am waiting for something ‘as a miracle’ that solves the problem, instead of walking what is needed specifically in relation to the mind-body relationship, in who I have become in/as the mind within and as my physical body in and as the application of self-forgiveness and self-corrective statements on my acceptances and allowances in participation in thoughts, emotions and feelings through which I seperate myself from a direct seeing into and as myself and my physical body.
I commit myself to walk day by day and to forgive and correct myself in the mistakes and misunderstandings that are causing a consequence on my physical body and so, on this physical as a whole until I am able to prevent myself from going into reaction as a ‘mistake or misunderstanding’.
I commit myself (to learn) to prevent myself from creating consequenses on my own physical body and on this physical existance as a whole until I am walking in and as breathe as prevention, by taking responsibility for and as myself by preventing, so stopping myself from going into reaction.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe, because I have already gone in reaction, I have to go on and on without seeing where to go, instead of realizing, seeing and understanding that the further I go, the further I have to walk it back and walk through consequenses in and as my own physical body.
When and as I see myself going on and on in reaction, I stop and breathe. I realize that I need to stop anyway and so, I stop, I breathe, I let go and apply self-forgiveness on the mistake that I have already made by stepping into a reaction. I realize that only when and as I stop myself from following this energy, I am able to see what thought has triggered the reaction within and as me and from here, I will be able to apply self-forgiveness effectively and so, specifically. I realize that I am still speaking from a starting-point of fear when and as I am going and speaking in reaction as a fear of not going to be heard when I do not speak up now, where in I am creating that what I fear as ‘not being heard’ because I speak in reaction which is causing reaction through which one cannot hear. I realize that this is not necessary, that this fear is not needed and I have already seen and realized in a more surfaced dimension how to walk into a more stable situation when and as I am stable in and as myself, taking responsibility for the whole situation in and as my ability and so, I commit myself to see what it is that I do not want to take responsibility for, what it is that I judge/fear in a deeper layer/dimension and to take time to walk this through, to see, realize and understand what it is and apply self-forgiveness on the thoughts as fear while walking into more self-trust in real time application.
When and as I see myself participating in a thought that I do not have a ‘specialization’ in the area of natural medicine, I stop and breathe. I realize that I am specifying myself in understanding myself within the mind-body relationship and the influence on the large intestine and that the ‘specialization’ is existing in and as myself in my own application of self-forgiveness and self-correction into physical equality and oneness and so, I commit myself to walk from ‘specialization’ in/as the mind into specifity and detailled application in/as the physical, using the condition, the changes and level of stability of my own physical body as a point of cross-reference.
I commit myself to make it an effort to really stop myself from going into reaction and speaking in/as this reaction to prevent creating more consequenses in and as my physical body and so, within this physical existence.
So, I realize that a miracle or ‘one moment’ is not coming or solving anything as I need to walk breathe by breathe, moment by moment and within this, take responsibility for and as myself within this physical condition in every related area including the food I take and my living situation – the who I am within – is as a guideline for the points that I need to forgive, correct and change within and as myself.
I commit myself to bring and keep my focus on myself in who I am within a condition and situation, instead of focussing on the situation and/or condition.
This blog does in no way contain a medical advise. With unclarity about a condition – physically or mentally – always contact a practioner/specialist/doctor in the related area to get the support you need and from here, see how you can additionally walk your own process to get to know and support yourself in relation to your own body and mind.
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