There started a serie interviews through the Portal within the series of The Atlanteans about Heaviness and also in a chat in the physical health group of Desteni, the experience of heaviness is mentioned by several participants in having an influence on the physical condition. For myself as well I see the experience of heaviness related to physical conditions and here I decided to start to open this up within writing.
I do not have a clear overview from how this experience of heaviness is related to my physical condition so I start with the things that I do see, I start with what is here.
What I do notice is that when my body and especially my large intestine is not having an optimum movement, I experience myself within my body as very heavy and almost not able to move myself. Each step is an effort and I prefer laying down instead of standing or walking and breathing is more difficult. Which is not so when I feel physically ‘good’, I then enjoy standing, walking, breathing.
I see here how this is already a consequence of what has happened before within my mind, that I did not effectively direct within and as myself but more suppressed it and so, I actually make my body literally heavy by suppressing the emotional energy, putting it on my body and in this case, on my large intestine where I store the energy. This I experience as a ‘cramp’ in the muscle fiber of the large intestine, well this is how I see it this far. Then when there is bowel-movement, it passes this area, this cramped muscle fiber where the energy is stored; the movement pushes the waste through this narrowed area which gives experiences of physical pain (because the passage is too narrow for a comfortable bowel-movement in several places at such moment) and also, each time the waste is passing this area, it ‘touches’ the emotional energy that is stored there.
Here I tend to not want to move physically to prevent myself from experiencing the physical pain/discomfort and emotional energy stored within my body and so the ‘delay’ enlarges and eventually, becomes worse. This is giving an overal experience of heaviness on a physical level that eventually gives an experience of dullness and ‘sleepiness’ in/as the mind. When I then sleep more than physically needed, I suppress myself/my beingness within/as the mind and so, it becomes more difficult for myself to access the suppressed emotions. It is suppressed within my body and ‘hidden behind’ the mind-body defense mechanism.
Actually the whole body is interconnected so if this situation stays too long, it will influence other body-functions as well. In this way it becomes a circle in itself which needs to be accessed to create some movement somewhere to be able to open up the mind-related points and suppressed emotions. It needs a constant pushing through to not stay in this physical heavy experiences, that in itself can create a fear again and a ‘constant moving out of fear’ that then in itself contributes to the constriction on a physical level.
In the next blog I will start with some self-forgiveness on the overal experience of heaviness to release the emotional energy as how is suggested in this interview to start with as part of the solution. Here in I will also start to investigate the suppresion of emotions as negative energetic experiences stored in the body and the polarity with the feelings as positive energetic experiences in/as the mind.
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This blog does in no way contain a medical advise. With unclarity about a condition – physically or mentally – always contact a practioner/specialist/doctor in the related area to get the support you need and from here, see how you can additionally walk your own process to get to know and support yourself in relation to your own body and mind.
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