Dag 746 – 25. Can a decision be wrong or right?

This blog is related to record 25: Can a decision be wrong or right?

For context and playlist see: Dag 710 – Reflection on the years of fertility

The self-forgiveness are written as if it is happening in current time, however it are self-forgiveness on a pattern that I am reflecting back on and now taking responsibility for.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look at decisions or actually ‘choices’ in the past as if it was ‘wrong or right’ where in I then again go into a polarity where in I see that the whole situation is actually not coming from a starting-point of consideration and care of all aspects within myself and so not ‘best for all participants’ so from here, I create a situation where in I need to make a decision that, whatever I ‘choose’ to do, it will have consequences in some way, because my starting-point was not aligned within and as self-care and care for life as a whole.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a ‘wrong and right’ outcome through already being separated within and as my starting-point when and as I am coming from a point of self-interest, in which I can only exist if and when I have separated myself from myself, from life, from self-care and from care for life as a whole, meaning, when I have separated myself from considering all aspects and participants before moving myself in a certain direction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stand with myself in where I am at a certain moment within my process and instead, start judging my choices and actions in the past as being ‘right or wrong’ and so, keeping myself within a state of judgement for longer than necessary, instead of immediately going into self-forgiveness and so taking responsibility for myself within the separation that I exist in, in and as the mind in a certain moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage myself and keeping myself victimized, within judging my choices and decisions in the past, instead of using the consequences to face myself from a point of self-support and so, immediate and when I am able to, going into the living of self-forgiveness as an understanding of myself and where I come from and within doing so, I take responsibility for myself within the separation that I exist and existed in – separation in thoughts, words and deeds – and within this expansion of self-responsibility, I create a platform for myself to from now on do it different and with more and more consideration for myself in all aspects and for life as a whole in all aspects.

When and as I see myself going into searching for a ‘wrong or right’ for choices I have made in the past, I stop and breathe.

I realize that I here lengthen my own process as it does not make sense to create a polarity (in judging something as ‘wrong or right’) within myself from what I already existed in as a polarity.

I commit myself to find the point within myself that I did not consider myself in all aspects and life as a whole (or all participants) and where in I have influenced my starting-point into a state of separation as well and I commit myself to be self-honest within this, to face the dark aspects of self-interest, of fear, of protection and defence-mechanism that I have created as a way to try to control my environment and from here, to unconditionally forgive myself and embrace the shame and when I have been able to, to then unconditionally let it go so that I can move on within this new and expanded expression of responsibility within and as myself.

When and as I see myself searching for ‘what to do’ within a decision-making and then looking for what is ‘wrong or right’ in this, I stop and breathe.

I realize that I am not totally clear within myself on where I stand or that I am not yet able to stand for what I see that is best for myself in all aspects.

I commit myself to embrace myself within the fear and control-mechanisms that I have created and to forgive myself unconditionally in what I see as a ‘weakness’ within me to from here, move through the experiences of fear and control in every day life, step by step, moment by moment and in every moment again, seeing what is best to do, to say or maybe to not do and say and I commit myself to support myself in this through receiving perspectives from others as well, as a support and cross-reference for myself in where I stand.

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Dag 745 – 24. Expecting another chance

This blog is related to record 24: Expecting another chance

For context and playlist see: Dag 710 – Reflection on the years of fertility

The self-forgiveness are written as if it is happening in current time, however it are self-forgiveness on a pattern that I am reflecting back on and now taking responsibility for.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect another chance and for this, not consider all dimensions as if it was only this moment, this one possibility that I have, to walk this opportunity that arised.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to then actually postpone an opportunity to give birth to life of a child, expecting that I would get another chance in a ‘better’ situation where I was better prepared, where this does not mean that I made the ‘wrong decision’ so to speak but more, that I better could have taken everything into consideration that I was able to at that moment and from here, making a well-considered decision.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to keep on cycling in emotional experiences, related to a decision in the past and from here, wanting to ‘have another chance, to do it over’ so to speak, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that it is all a distraction from myself being here and creating my potential and effect that I can have for myself and others as well in this life, in and as care, from a starting-point of self-care and living this as an example and that this whole experience – it is not so much about the outcome in what I decided but more about what an impact it has had on my life that I can learn from and take with me, to prevent myself making the same ‘mistake’ again as a ‘missing’ of considering myself in all aspects.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to by expecting another chance, not living my life and myself as if it is the one life and moment that I have, here and today and using what is here to support myself and others to learn to live as carefull human beings, no matter if we make mistakes or missing a chance: this one aspect is what I can live in every moment again and again, as a decision of who I am and so,

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use postponement and an expectation of another chance, as an excuse to not consider myself, here and now as a whole and so, to not give myself the opportunity to live and express myself in all aspects of myself in every moment.

When and as I see myself tending to postpone something that I fear to step into or towards, I stop and breathe.

I realize that I need to support myself and walk closer with and as myself so that I do not feel so lost within an emotional experience of fear.

I commit myself to stand closer with and as myself, to stand for what I see as principled living within and to walk with me, as me, slowly but surely forward with the support of breathing, self-forgiveness and living words as tools that I always have with me, in every situation and I commit myself to look more closely within myself what I fear and how to embrace myself in this and at the same time, how to push myself to move with and as the fear and what I fear within.

When and as I see myself repeating myself within emotions about a decision that I made in the past, I stop and breathe.

I realize that I am focussing too much on the result, where in I miss myself in who I am and what I have learned in this specific moment and decision making and consequence.

I commit myself to forgive what I see as emotional and feeling attachement towards a desired result and instead, see how I that what I desire, can bring back to myself in my current reality in who I am now and see how I can bring myself here in expression with the support of the living and embodiment of a word and so, bring the desire in and as energy in and as the mind – to bring this back to my physical body into a practical and possible self-expression that is best for myself, my body and from here, for this physical life as a whole.

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Dag 744 – 23. Abusive relationships and dependency

This blog is related to record 23: Abusive relationships and dependency

For context and playlist see: Dag 710 – Reflection on the years of fertility

The self-forgiveness are written as if it is happening in current time, however it are self-forgiveness on a pattern that I am reflecting back on and now taking responsibility for.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make myself dependent on another being that comes through me and/or that I come through and from here, creating consequences for myself as well as for possible others to come.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within dependency, create a consequence for my ability of decision making, that I can not make a decision in common sense anymore but only following up on a consequence in/as the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from this state of dependency by thinking, speaking and acting as if I am ‘independent’ which is actually a form of revenge within and as myself for not finding what I am looking for within my dependency in/as the mind on another being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I am independent and making decisions, while I am actually depending on thoughts, emotions and feelings and following up on this within my decisions, thinking and believing that I make ‘my own decisions’ and not seeing that I am actually following a program in/as the mind consciousness system integrated within and as my physical body and my being following up on this.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ‘be proud of my independency’ instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that it is more an isolation within and as my own mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel dependent on another for my own well being in/as the mind, while my physical well being is even being compromised by my own behaviour and inner experiences to try to ‘not loose’ the one I feel dependent on.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to first stand by and with myself and then if I feel my reactions coming up in/as the mind, starting to doubt myself in what I at first decided.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to start doubting myself in what I decided instead of taking responsibility for the reactions coming up within and as myself and stand equal to and with this and from here, see if I need anything to align as a dimension to consider as well.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that my reactions determine how things will move forward, which they do if I do not take responsibility for it within and as myself so that I can move myself forward towards oneness and equality as what is best for myself as life as all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I will loose something or someone instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that I can only loose that what I have make myself dependent on in/as the mind as an inner relationship that is not best for myself as life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that another will not take care of the inner relationship which creates consequences that are determining the outcome in a negative way up until ‘loosing each other’ and so, I rather tend to stay in a dependent relationship, trying to fill the gaps that I think and believe that another may not be willing to stand in and as.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to here not see how I loose myself within a dependency in/as the mind, projected on another being within a relationship by trying to fill in the gabs and so, the further I loose myself within ‘filling the gabs’ as what I perceive as ‘gabs’ within my own thinking, the further I loose the possibility to clearly communicate with another.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try and find solutions for another, instead of asking another what he/she sees as a possible solution and find solutions for myself in my own experience in/as the mind in a moment of trying to fill a gab as finding a solution for another.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within a relationship with another, tend to ‘step in’ or ‘step out’ when I see that another is not taking responsibility within a specific point and so, creating a dependency within and as myself that I then later on want to ‘break up’ and step back.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hardly be able to breathe within dependency on another or within dependency from another to me and at the same time, being busy creating this dependency myself and so, sufficating myself in and as the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to here become very tired and almost dizzy and fuzzy and clowdy and almost blank in what to forgive in this.

When and as I see myself going into trying to find a solution for another, I stop and breathe.

I realize that I better ask what the other sees for him/herself as solution for that moment and then perhaps add a suggestion or not.

I commit myself to find a solution for myself in stopping and directing myself in a moment of reaction of trying to find a solution for another, by supporting myself to breathe, to step back within and as myself and to first define what I experience and forgive the experience as well.

When and as I see myself participating in an experience of panic when and as I see that another is not taking responsibility in a specific point, I stop and breathe.

I realize that I do not need – or will not be able to take responsibility for another but rather, take responsibility for my own experience as being first and foremost a living example of standing with and as myself.

I commit myself to breathe, step back and ‘catch myself’ so to speak in an experience of panic coming up where I then can and will further define where the panic comes from and why it comes up in this moment, to embrace myself and stand with and as myself within this moment that I may not know what to do or where to go and this is then fine.

When and as I see myself stepping back too far, as a reaction of fear towards what I see as a missing of responsibility in a specific point in another, I stop and breathe.

I realize that I have made myself dependent on the other that I react to in fear and then fear loosing the other when he/she is not taking responsibility within and as self, where I then fear to loose myself or that part of myself that I have made myself dependent in, onto another being.

I realize that I can only react ‘in fear towards what I see as the missing of responsibility in another’ if and when I did not take responsibility for myself in a specific point and so, I react because I am falling within this ‘missing’ of a part of myself.

I commit myself to keep standing within a reaction of fear, to not step forward or to not step back too far  but only stepping back within and as myself and from here, stand a moment within this position of not knowing what to do or where to go.

I commit myself to take on the challenge of stepping into the unknown of myself, while stopping to make myself dependent on another for my emotional well-being and at the same time, being aware and taking care of the inter-dependency that exist within relationships, as making sure that each participant is or will be considered equally in what each may need in that moment, which I can only clearly see when and as I stop reacting to a  fear of loosing something or someone, within and as myself and find that piece within and as myself that I missed and from here, bring it back to myself, in and as self-responsibility.

A process to be continued

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