Dag 682 – The mind-body relationship – Some fears during the flu

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I am having pretty bad flu symptoms at the moment that I write this. It’s been a while ago that I have had this. It started with some slight symptoms and I could move on with my activities. Then at work, I felt the pain going towards my jaw, at the place where within two months, a crown will be placed. It hurted and here, I started to react with fear. That the pain would become worse and that the crown needed to be placed earlier, things like that. Since then the symptoms of the flu got worse (not especially with this tooth – it is like it was ‘passing by’ this area and because it is a ‘weak’ place, it hurted there more ) and I really need to stay at home and take some time to recover. I will write out some self-forgiveness on thoughts/experiences coming up during these days, related to the symptoms.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let fear come in within myself within thoughts about the place in my jaw where a crown is going to be placed, where before this, I had no thoughts of fear about having some slight ‘flu’-symptoms as a bit of a rough throat for example.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be in conflict with myself during the days at home about wanting to use the time effectively but actually not being able to do anything constructive besides making some food and taking care for myself and the cats.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that my house will become dirty with lots of hair from the cats and me not being able to clean up.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that it will become ‘too much’ to clean up, where actually the cleaning up will be the same as before, only with some more hair now.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to feel myself like this from now on, not being able to do anything constructively.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the virus/bacteria to take over within me, which is actually the same as fearing my mind/the thoughts to take over within and as me, consisting as/related to memories within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to not being able anymore to take care for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to not being able to direct all things in my life as combining work, projects, house-tasks and self-care/animal-care.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel impatience towards the flu-symptoms,

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like wasting time when I am not able to do anything constructively because of feeling physically not well.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold on towards thoughts and emotions and within this, hurting my body/letting this ‘eat’ on my physical body within the tissue and let it become irritated.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react towards the flu-symptoms very slightly within myself so that I do not directly notice this, and within this irritate myself/my physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have thought that I would not be sensitive to a flu because I haven’t had this for a long time and so, did not build up fear towards this, where I do see now that there is a fear existing within me when and as it is happening and it also can be existing within me through family-memories where having a cold or getting a flu is accepted as that one should not kiss each other on the cheek for example when one is having a cold, because of ‘a risk’ of transmitting the cold/flu towards each other.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I would not get the cold or flu and not wanting to participate in and as the thoughts/believes of transmitting a virus just by kissing another on the cheek.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wonder if the fear about my jaw has opened up towards the flu getting worse or that it would have got worse anyway.

I remember here having a chat with Sunette about me coughing after having some food, where she mainly advised me to slow down and not judge the coughing (I will write about this in a separate blog) and I noticed that this was the main point that caused the coughing/how I kept it continuing. I saw a related point with the flu-symptoms, that I was reacting to it, having difficulties with slowing down myself. So I see now that this is a point to consider in general: slowing down within myself and not judging what is physically happening but rather look at it and support myself within.

I commit myself to, when and as I see myself reacting to physical symptoms and judging myself for this, to breathe and slow down within myself, meaning, looking at what is really existing within me in such a moment and where my thoughts are going to from here, forgive myself for the pattern within and related emotions coming up.

I commit myself to, when and as I see physical symptoms becoming worse in a moment, to stop and breathe and slow down, to lay down when and as necessary, to embrace myself and see what I am participating in within my mind and what the fear is and from here, forgive myself for what I think and believe and participate in.

I commit myself to investigate and write about the patterns that are coming up more prominent when and as I ‘become ill’ as here my mind shows me what I have not yet sorted out within myself with regards to my physical and physical activities that I am not being able to do in that moment.

I commit myself to, when and as I fear that the virus will take over, to stop and breathe and see what thoughts I participate in as a ‘virus that I allow to take over’ and instead, direct myself within, forgive myself for the fear and bring myself here in physical reality.

I commit myself to be carefull with viruses and bacteria, to support my immune-system where I can and to seek for medical support when and as needed and when not, to trust myself and take care of myself.

I commit myself to, when and as I see myself participating in thoughts about cleaning the house and fear of not being able to do so, to stop, breathe and look with common sense to the hair in the house that I will be able to clean up within an hour, as soon as I feel physically better.

I commit myself to look at a virus with common sense, meaning to not fear it but to also not go into an experience of superiority as in ‘I will not get the flu’ as this is actually also based on fear, as a fear of ‘being caught’ in a mind-pattern that is lived within the family/society and so, existing as a memory within myself.

I commit myself to work constructively with memories as fear as thoughts that I see existing within me in relation to physical symptoms and assumptions about a virus and other dis-eases by looking at the thoughts and related emotions and/or feelings and forgive myself for the energetic attachements within, to create space for/within myself to look at memories and information with common sense.

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Multi-dimensional information about the evolution of viruses:

The Evolution of Viruses – Reptilians – Part 243

The Evolution of Viruses (Part 2) – Reptilians – Part 244

Fighting off Viruses – Reptilians – Part 245

The Virus and the Body – Reptilians – Part 246

Mind + Virus Versus Body – Reptilians – Part 247

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The Evolution of the Common Cold – 2013 – Future of Consciousness – Part 44

Memories in Your Body – Quantum Systemization – Part 63

Disclaimer:

This blog does in no way contain a medical advise. With unclarity about a condition – physically or mentally – always contact a practioner/specialist/doctor in the related area to get the support you need and from here, see how you can additionally walk your own process to get to know and support yourself in relation to your own body and mind.

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Dag 650 – The mind-body relationship – It’s a decision

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One of the most supportive realizations I have found as guideline that is given to me by others while walking this process, is within the words  ‘it’s a decision’. Because this is showing that I can decide to live something instead of me ‘waiting for something to feel or happen or understand’, or whatever I am waiting for. It’s an active direction from myself and if I keep on walking and applying myself, there will come a moment where I bring myself to this point of decision-making.

What I have found here is that there is a process before and towards this moment of this decision-making. I have to come to a certain understanding and to clear myself from ideas, related emotions and feelings and I often first need to walk through some physical consequenses to bring the point here within forgiveness/understanding, from where I at a certain moment stand up within the will and ability as a decision to stop the following of a certain program.

I have seen and walked this process for example in some points of physical discomforts. Not so long ago I became very tired, exhausted. I had a turbulent period from more than six months, after this there were changes with additional responsibility again and I noticed physical aspects that I needed to support within myself and this is what I started with. I supported my intestine with some products to strengthen the mucus-barrier, I supplied some basic-mineral nutriënts and I started with the Co enzym Q10 to support within the process of the production of physical energy. During some weeks, I only focussed on the most important area’s in my life at that moment, I went to bed earlier to rest and to relax and enjoy with a book for example, made some changes within my food-scedule and supported myself to keep on going through the days, slowly, step by step, as I knew that it was something that I needed to walk through. I have experienced and manifested quite some periods within my life where I was within a state of exhaustion, where I more than once needed to stay home. I now (and also earlier during walking the Desteni I Process) saw myself able to move on slowly and able to not allow myself to stay home from work for example (which ofcourse I would have done if this would be really necessary) to not step in a program again.

After a while I noticed that my body was busy rebalancing and I became experiencing myself less ‘on the edge of tiredness’. However I still had the experience of exhaustion within myself. I experience this as if every step, every move, every task is an effort that I look up to as towards a mountain and I dragged and needed to push myself through. I also noticed that ‘there was something’ with this experience. It did not completely make sense with regards to my physical state, as for example I noticed that I could suddenly run and take a sprint to catch a bus and that I actually liked to do this, it felt physically good. But I looked up towards doing things – towards almost everything – on forehand.

After this sprinting to catch the bus, I was at home and within myself I noticed a very small movement. And this movement I recognized as the decision to ‘move on’ and not keep hanging within exhaustion. And from here it went better and in a few days, the experiencing of ‘every move and task being an effort’ went away.

I have had the same ‘movement’ as decision with regards to symptoms of having a could within myself two years ago, where a headache kept on hanging as if a bacteria kept on busy within my body until I decided to stop ‘longing for being ill to take a break, as an excuse to do nothing’. And very lately I also noticed my instable blood-sugar level stabilizing within myself after making the decision that it was not needed anymore. I still need to eat on time (which gives more meals than the ‘normal’ three times a day) but with doing so it is regulating while for about 6-8 weeks, it was as if I kept having low-bloodsugar levels even after having food. (This does not say anything about for example a physical state of diabetic where other, physical aspects are involved that need to be supported physically throughout someone’s live – related blogs are to be found here). So I see a physical aspect and a mind-aspect involved within the physical states and conditions to walk through and stabilize within.

I still need to ‘take it slow’ and support myself a lot physically, as I have to take my physical condition and constitution into consideration and I keep on focussing on the basic-aspects within my live. I am not dragging myself through the day anymore although I do notice this ‘looking up to do things’ as for example with cleaning the house still existing within me so it stays as a point of attention and for further investigation. But I somewhere, very silently within myself, almost as a sight, made this decision to stop participating in this experience of being exhausted all the time. And everytime I make such decision, I notice it is in one moment, very small and silent, almost not noticable but still I am very aware of it and the effect is clear within myself.

In the most challenging times, I know that I need to keep on walking and to not give up, as a ‘walking through’ without in that moment, knowing exactly and directly what I am walking through and this is where in I see my self-trust, in this slowly keeping on walking and not giving up. These processes to walk through, I find them most challenging and at the same time, I experience these decisions and the effect when I have made them, as greatest gifts.

The mind-body relationship – Timeline

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Introduction – Psychological & Physical Disorders

Mind + Virus versus Body – Reptilians

Disclaimer:

This blog does in no way contain a medical advise. With unclarity about a condition – physically or mentally – always contact a practioner/specialist/doctor in the related area to get the support you need and from here, see how you can additionally walk your own process to get to know and support yourself in relation to your own body and mind.

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