Dag 681 – Bladder infection with a cat

Snoo Kerstlampjes

For a while I noticed that Snoo the white female cat, was sometimes leaving one or two drops of urine when she steps out of the box after doing a pee. Where in I made a remark for myself that if we go for a yearly check up, this should be investigated too. However yesterday, she was sitting near to me and looking at me for a long time and I sensed that something was going on. She also did sleep very long the night before and I saw some urine around her vulva, but because she has a lot of longer hair, I was not sure how that was before, but I remembered it as always being clean. The signs were futile but it were signs and additional and more prominent was my sense of something that needed to be taken on, now, today.

I ended up with going three times towards the fet. First I called and they said that I could bring some urine so that they could test it. They have a package with plastic litter for this to put in the box and when the cat pees, one can easily take out the urine with an injection needle (without the needle). So I picked that up first time, back at home I went upstairs to empty the box and directly after I had emptied it, Snoo was next to me and stepped into the box to do a pee.

Okay that went fast lol. I took it in the injection needle and into a pipet and went back to the vet. They would call me with the result. The result was that their was a bladder infection, there was a little blood in the urine. I could come for a medicine, but the vet strongly advised me to bring the cat with me for further investigation because she found the symptoms a bit strange and the cat is very young (almost 3 years). I found something strange about it too and she had a place the same afternoon. So, third time to the vet this day. This time my neighbour was at home and she was willing to drive with me with her car so we did not need to go on bike through the cold weather. That was great.

I was nervous, I did not expect something physical going on already with the cats. I also thought about the money as usual in this kind of situations but decided to not worry about that and to do what needed to be done and find a solution and arrange the payment. (I do have put aside some extra for these cases but with large amounts I will need to arrange a montly payment).

The physical investigation went well and nothing other serious seems to be going on than bladder infection. My worry was that it was related to her uterus, as how the situation was with the female rabbit that died 2 years ago, eventually from a uterus carcinoom but also at an age around 9. Here I learned a lot about the differences between rabbits and cats, which is very cool to know.

Cats do not easily have a uterus infection and seldom carcinoom if they are sterilised, because the ovaria are taken away and so the hormons that can activate this symptoms of uterus infection are not being produced anymore. It is something that is often happening with female rabbits but not with female cats, she ensured me and so the uterus is not recommended to be taken out as how they often recommend with female rabbits.

Her worry (of the vet) was if the urethra was narrowed and she wanted to check this. This is seen more often with male cats but can be so with female cats. So the vet and I had a different motivation to directly investigate. The urethra was not narrowed, her bladder felt normal by size but was sensitive for the cat when she touched it. Also a stone would not be likely as there was only one line of blood in the urine sample and with a stone, there are mostly more and there also was no grind find in the urine.

I also learned that with cats, a bladder infection is not coming from a bacteria as how it is with guinea-pigs or rabbits (I forgat why this is so). It is coming from an irritation of the bladder-wall (inside). Interesting. I am glad that I did not test things out with for example colloidal silverwater, as this is working when there are bacteria involved so it would not have maken any difference.

So. How comes then that she has a bladder-infection?

20-02-16 - 3Stress? asked the vet. Well she seems relaxed, I said, where I directly mentioned that it might seem so. As when I looked back, she came often sitting next to me when for example Basha the male cat was chasing her. Perhaps she was not so relaxed as it seems. It is not a nervous cat so to speak but that doesn’t mean that she is not experiencing ‘stress‘ inside.

So I asked about some alternatives to reduce the stress for her as I prefer to work with that additionally (natural medicine). Very nicely she came up with additional solutions. So what I start with now is the following:

A medicine to cure the infection for 5 days, as first ofcourse (it is not anti-biotics becasue there is no bacteria involved so it is something to treat the infection). Then Feliway, first as spray because I have that already and when it goes well, the evaporator. I can try out Rescue or other flower remedies but what I start with is a tiny bit of Valerian (also the Cat Mint called). Snoo was lately more often chewing on a Valerian root that I in the beginning, had placed on the ground in between all the toys. Let’s see if we can get her to some relaxation also with Basha around.

20-02-16 - 1In the evening she was going to sleep and I was sitting next to her, giving some hugs. If I trust my communication with her this is what I picked up: she was trying to hold on but she did not manage to do so, of being this ‘tough’ or brave cat (from what I understand towards Basha and/or to hold her stand as the leader and not let it effect her too much), which may be her survival technic (she comes from the street). In fact she is a (physically) little and very gentle cat. I hold her and embodied that she doesnot need to, she is not on the street anymore and Basha is not really doing something (he is challenging her but not hurting). This morning when she looked at me I noticed this as that she ‘warned’ me as needing support.

She is sleeping a lot and it looks like she is more relaxed, which may also be because of the pain being treated as she may have walked with this already for longer. I keep an eye on Basha and he seems to be more gentle. It can be because Snoo is more relaxed herself, it can be because he senses that he needs to be/is asked to be, it can be momentarial for sure and it can also be because of the Feliway!

I bought another cat’s box (well yeah, another one!) as also discussed to place in another space. Let’s see if she will use that and having some rest here for herself, as here Basha can be chasing her now and then. I tried to remove a box I already had but when we were at the vet, Basha did his poo on the ground where the box was normally standing. Maybe he was nervous too because of this new situation where Snoo went out, maybe because his poo was a bit thin this time, or maybe he just wanted the box to keep standing there. So I put it back. Three boxes on a row and one new extra in a different space. (There are at least three recommended for two cats who are having some issues with each other).

Let’s see how we do from here. I learned a lot about cats and diferences with other animals and treatments which I find very interesting. I share them detailed here so that it can be of support for others as well if/when needed.

I have walked self-forgiveness on reactions coming up within me yesterday, as I went into a slide panic inside that I suppressed when I was going to do the practical things. And I did not want to cry at the vet when she explained that with cats it is most likely not related to the uterus. Which was based on a remembrance with the rabbit and me experiencing some relief.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I have done something wrong because Snoo has ‘already a bladder-infection’ and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty for bringing in Basha and wondering if she might have done better alone here, where I did not prefer her to come in alone because I am long days from home for work half time of the week.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that the first cat that I had choosen to be here with her, might have fit better than Basha but he went ill and could not be placed and so, I looked for another and I liked Basha although I saw that he might be challenging (where the first information was that he was a she, until he arrived from Egypt).

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel heavy as if I have done something wrong by putting two cats together that did not know each other, where it may be causing ‘stress’ that may cause physical consequenses as for example a bladder infection.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame myself for putting the cats into this situation, instead of looking practically at the situation as how it is at this moment, that does not look so bad but that needs some direction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that if a situation needs direction, that I have done something wrong before.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that ‘challenges’ are something to better prevent from, instead of seeing them as something to learn from and expand and direct into a solution.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame myself when I did not all see through in the beginning/on forehand and then place myself at where I am now physically, back into the beginning in my mind as if I could have forseen how things will go or work out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel disappointed that in an early stage there are physical things going on with the animals.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that it will cost me a lot or all the money I have available to support them, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that it is a thought projected as fear in the future as a ‘what if…’ situation in/as my mind and so I commit myself to stop participating in this ‘what if...’ situations as thoughts in/as my mind, to breathe and focus on the current situation that I am physically in.

What I do see is that animals are walking their process too, as how Snoo is showing here for example. Which is at the same time reflecting my process, although it is not ‘because of me’ as animals do not carry the ‘load’ of the care-taker since the Portal opened 2006-2007.

I commit myself to, when and as I go into experiences of guilt or blame towards myself, to stop, breathe and bring myself back to the situation as it is and from here, look into the best possible solutions to walk and if and when experiences keep coming up, go back to writing to release some unseen attachements and energy and while doing this, stabilizing myself more and more and so, becoming more and more able to make decisions from a clear starting-point, that will not give a prediction of how things go but that does give an outcome that I can direct within self-trust and self-satisfaction because it will be more and more aligned with who I can and will be in alignment with and as life itself/within awareness.

I commit myself to walk with the animals equally, to receive their support and give it where needed and within my ability and I commit myself to trust myself and investigate my senses in my interaction with animals, as I have proven more than once to myself that I am in the right direction that something is going on, but that I need to go find out what it is exactly so that I can look for practical solutions and physical support.

I realize that there are many consequences that we cannot yet prevent because of already being programmed/designed and developped through time and I commit myself to keep on investigating if there are other things that can cause stress and/or the bladder-infection and to see how to support.

I commit myself to look into my view on death and a fear of death coming up while walking with animals.

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Dag 664 – Subtile rebellious behaviour of the cat?

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I was crawling with Basha the male cat in a specific way that he likes but if I am not doing it with my full attention and be aware of myself in it, he may suddenly hit me with his paw and (softly) put his teeth in my hand. This happened this morning and I did saw where I was divided in doing two things at the same time. I reacted on it that I didnot like it and I suspected there was more in it to investigate. I was already for longer aware of some underlying dimension within myself with regards to his behaviour, but did not yet take the time to really investigate the source, I only solved things practically.

There were some other small signs where I was aware that I should investigate it deeper, like doing his poo a few times directly next to the cat’s box (which I already practically solved with another box) and him trying to climb over a fedge (that is also solved practically – but temporary – by moving a garden bench to another place). And also in his behaviour towards Snoo, the female cat there was something going on. All this signs together made me consider that there was something subtile underneath going on that I needed to take a look at.

What I do here, is that I take my own reactions in consideration, realizing that this has to do with me. But what I also do that supports me to come more to the core and a deeper understanding so that I can really take responsibility for myself in it and from here, support the animal, is applying how I learned to communicate with animals via a picture. Here one ‘connects’ in a way with the animal (after ‘clearing’ oneself as much as possible from one’s own interpretations, to be able to receive that what is being communicated). It is not as how the Portal functions as where one is leaving the body and here, having a complete access to the physical information, so it is a limited way of communication where the mind is still involved, however if one applies it in self-honesty, so in awareness of one’s own mind and participation in it, it can be a supportive tool to have a deeper look into the situation, for and as oneself and from here as support for the animal.

So I did. I walked through the small situations that happened and asked Basha everytime what made him do so. Somewhere along doing so, I saw that it may have to do with, deep down, him being put on the street in the past with an experience/memory as if it had something to do with him (he is coming from the streets in Egypt). And following this, I came back to the point where in the beginning that he lived here (3-4 months ago now), I reacted more to this small ‘rebellious’ behaviour especially with regards to him and Snoo together and them having different food-patterns, to the point of doubting if he could stay.

We did do fine along the way and months passed by, but within this conversation I found that I did not correct this starting-point within myself and so it was still not really clear for him (and myself) if he could stay. Which within myself, was related to a point of self-interest of not wanting to fully commit to this, out of fear that I might in the future have to not be able to move as freely as I might prefer – this with regards to what would be best for the cats, especially Basha and them matching together. So I left a small backdoor open to ‘possibly’ decide that he could not stay, even if I actually already had seen and ‘silently decided’ that he could stay, that we and they will be able to manage together in the house. With Snoo it was clear from the beginning, she was the first and the cat that ‘find me’ so to speak and there was no doubt that she should leave. So if we would not be able to match, Basha should be the one to leave.

This was bothering me from the beginning as I assumed that he should notice/feel this in a way and besides this, I suppressed some enjoyment within myself, for Basha being/living here with me (and Snoo). Along the way we did fine, so it didnot look like a change would be needed, neither now or in the future. But the door was still a chink open. And something in Basha’s behaviour was triggering this small chink open.

The situation reflects on how I tend to leave a small backdoor for myself to not fully commit to walking my process based on principles, but leaving the door on a chink open to decide to some small room for self-interest. I am closing this door step by step and here I committed with myself and towards Basha that he can stay and communicated this with him. I forgave myself for who I am within this (and for how this would have been for Basha) and saw again how very gentle and gracefull he actually is by triggering this with such small signs. Let’s see how it will develop and how we will do from this point on. What I see is that it might not even be that his behaviour will change but what will change is how I perceive it and this may also have an influence on the intensity of his behaviour and the situation itself.

Within the communication with animals, I often wonder who I am communicating with. As within this, I am able to more clearly connect with my own awareness and self-honesty and so I use it as a support-method to communicate with myself/my own being/awareness as life, which is connected with the awareness of the animal as life. I will continue investigating this for myself until I am clear on myself in/as awareness, my own mind and my body and if and when I find a clear starting-point and cross-reference for myself, I eventually may and will be able to bring it in as support for others.

This communication with the animals we live with, is actually what many who are truly taking care for their animals, already do, where it contains a precise observation of the physical behaviour of the animals, but if we want to really come to a point of equality within living together with the animals, the focus of the observation should be first and foremost……..on ourselves. Animals are of great support in this process from consciousness to awareness.

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Dag 611 – Cat Punching – How can we see it as a wake up call?

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#CatPunching is not an easy subject to discuss. With cat punching the abuse is so direct and clear, from a human against an animal that has no chance to get away from the physical, horrible pain of being punched on the head while being holded. Most of us humans are strongly reacting to this injustice. It has to stop.

Ofcourse it has to stop. Together with so much other abuse that takes places in this world. Abuse that we do not react to anymore. Which is quite strange actually. The hunger in many countries, the horrible conditions that animals are existing in for the meat-industry from which we buy daily in the supermarket, the wars, the killing in wars, child abuse, the destroyment of the earth; but also the small abusive moments that we accept and allow within our near relationships as manipulation, lying, gossiping, ignoring each other in the small needs and questions and so much more. It is uncountable, the abuse that we participate in on a daily base. And what most of us do not realize – because we have never been educated in this – is that within this emotional reacting inside ourselves,  activated by the pictures of the catpunching that we judge – here what happens is that we generate energy within our own mind and this generating energy is…….. a form of abuse in itself, towards our own physical body.

Everything is so integrated, suppressed and/or ignored in and as abuse towards this physical life that we do not even see what we are accepting and allowing within ourselves, within our own physical bodies and how this is interconnected to what happens outside here on earth. So we can say that we have a huge problem here in this world that needs to be changed, if we do want to stop this abuse FOR GOOD and all as for example the cat punching.

So in this light, we can see the catpunching as a wake up call. It is so direct and horrible that it is clear defined as abuse. But how does it come that the abuse in general exist on such a large scale in this world without us doing something about it? And if we do notice the abuse, then how is it possible that we are seeing ourselves as unable to stop the abuse in this world where from experiencing this emotion of disempowerment and injustice, we start reacting to it?

We need so many new or actually re-definitions of what we accept and allow and what not in this world. Because at the moment there is so much abuse existing – where we can describe abuse as ‘inequality’, meaning the reality of ‘having more than another who has bearly nothing’ and the believe that from having more, we ‘are of more value’ while such a large part of the population in this world, did not have a chance to make a difference with their lives because they are every day forced to fight for their lifes and for something to eat. With regards to the animals, they are not able to speak for themselves in a language that we as humen clearly understand and so again, because we do not hear them, we do not take care of them and because they do not have money, they cannot ‘buy’ their rights so to speak.

Did you ever had such a horrible picture coming up in your head when carrying a very vulnerable, small animal that is totally dependent on you and that can easily be breaked down and from here, there is this one second with a thought coming up – and from here quickly suppressed – that if you punch it there is nothing that the animal can do?

Isn’t it strange that this seconds/moments of thoughts and pictures are coming up within ourselves, even if in daily life we are a very carefull an gentle person? Where does this thought/picture come from? Why do we for example fear to be hitten, raped, robbed by another? Why are this pictures coming up? Because it happens in this world and we are grown up with stories, movies or even experiences where it did happen. However, we never go back to the source and ask ourselves WHY IT DOES HAPPEN AT ALL and why it is coming up in our head when we have never taken part in such situation.

We really have to go back to the source if we want to stop the abuse as inequality in this world. Of course the cat punching needs to stop. It is so obvious, one cannot ignore or deny this and there is no reason thinkable of why it should be allowed.

To stop the abuse on a large scale, we have to be willing to go back to the source and to see straight and direct into this source, because only if we see what the source is, we will be able to eventually change.

The source of abuse does exist from two major pilars that need to be investigated, forgiven and changed:

We as the human race

The moneysystem that we/the human race created and/or allowed to be created

And from here seeing the connection between these two pilars.

It’s cool to start to do something about an activity as cat punching and being motivated to stop this abusive behaviour. From here it is time to see further than our physical eyes will see at first and to take responsibility for what we have accepted and allowed in this world as abuse on a larger scale, within and without and from here – instead of abusing this physical existance ‘because we can’ – start taking responsibility as real care for this physical existence, including ourselves and our own physical body.

Why?

Because we can. Because it is the only solution. The human race is the only one wo can decide to make a real change in this world. If we are not willing to do so, we will destroy life and with doing so, we are destroying ourselves. So the cat punching is actually a horrible projection of how we as human beings, choose and/or have choosen to (accept and allow) abuse, within and without while we are often not aware of what we are doing and/or allowing as abuse and what is actually happening.

It’s up to each one of us to decide where we will stand.

We can keep on judging the abuse and/or blaming the ones who do so in a partcular situation, however judging or blaming is not making any difference, it is even enlarging the abusive behaviour because it is generating energy, as reaction within ourselves and as reaction within the abusers. Positive and negative energy are coming from the same source, it is nothing more but a polarity and for generating a positive or negative energy as experience in/as the mind within ourselves, we are ‘abusing’ our own physical bodies because we are using this physical substance to generate energy from which gives the positive or negative experience.  It is based on the same mechanism from where we are (ab)using the earth as the physical substance to ‘create’ money from.

One can say that this is an unbelievable scenario. But what if this is in fact the case and we have missed it all the time, only because we were holding onto our ‘believes’ and so not willing to really see and investigate the source?

What we tend to forget here, is that at one day, the physical substance is burned and consumed and there is nothing left. Unless we stop this abusive behaviour, within and without. This abusive behaviour within and without is what is really hurting ourselves and/as live in general from where we start reacting and judging in/as the mind. Because we do not really want to see and feel this pain that the abuse is bringing forward on a large scale and investigate how we all contribute(d) to this.

So first thing to do, is to stop judging, blaming and reacting and to start investigating the source from the abuse on earth, within and without and the possibilities to bring Equality for All Life Here.

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410: Cat Punching Page Removed from Facebook… It Can’t Stop There:

(…) “What I find most interesting about this is, yes, of course, animal abuse is absolutely atrocious, and yes of course, it should in no way be glorified or accepted for that matter, and so such a page should be removed. But to me what is most interesting is that 20,000 people can rally together, and act as a group, using the collect will and force to inflict awareness and demand a change in relation toward a particular point, yet when it comes to things that happen daily, which includes animal abuse, in the Real World, our group efforts cease to exist.”(…)

Day 634 Cat Punching and a Cup-is-a-Cup:

(…) “Obviously, punishing the form is not the solution. Punching a cat is not the solution. It is no different than punching a cup. Punching the physical does nothing to change what has been informed. If we want to blame the system and punch parts of this physical world, nothing is being done to change  the limitations that created the frustration. The only way to correct is to reform what one is as information.”(…)

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