Dag 700 – The body-being-mind relationship – Embracing the physical as point of support

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Through my life since a long time, my large intestine has functioned as my ‘guardian’ in a way. What I mean, is that I could not go too much or too long beyond my ‘limits’ as my intestine would then give symptoms of obstipation/spasmen more than normal. I felt uncomfortable in that and merely noticed it like ‘okay I have to stop here and stay with myself again’.

For example, within my last relationship, I tend to compromise myself, coming forward out of an ‘understanding what another goes through’ and me adapting to this and then trying to via this way, eventually bringing in what I stand for in principle so that I did not have to go through an experience of loosing the other. Deep within me this compromising was very subtile noticable but because I was in the middle and involved within the situation, I actually had very quick suppressed it and not even given it an chance to investigate within myself, if I actually and really would move on in this way. There was a vulnerable ‘building of trust’ happening between the two of us but not from a starting-point of openess and self-honest communication from both sides and because of not wanting to ‘break’ this subtile trust,  I was accepting and allowing things that I ‘normally’ would not consider to accept/allow and certainly not from myself as behaviour. But from moment to moment and every time a step further, I did accept/allow it from another, longer than I had expected from myself. It wasn’t a ‘bad thing’ persé as within this I did everything that was within my reach to make it work, however there did come a moment that I needed to take a stand.

This moment, became visible for me through the weakening of my bowel-function. What I did notice during that periond and what moved me to open up things, was the change within my large intestine. The functioning of my bowel slowly weakened again, up to this point where it clearly showed a compromised physical functioning. This physical dysfunctioning of my bowel-movement, is the one thing through my life that I could not accept from myself. Merely because there is not a direct physical cause for it as I have widely investigated (and physically supported) myself/my body through all the years. So also here, it was a sign for me to re-assess my decision and look what was actually going on within myself and the relationship I was in.

I have often ‘cursed’ this dysfunctioning from my large intestine as in my experience, I have so often felt limited by the dysfunctioning (spastic colon with obstipation and dyscomfort/dysfunctioning coming forward out of this on a long term). I knew that it was related to my own ‘dysfunctioning’ with regards to being unable to direct myself effectively within thoughts, emotions, feelings and expressing myself from a clear starting-point, however I automatically projected the blame on my physical/intestine, although I self-honestly knew better. But I kept blaming, out of an experience of being unable to really change it by changing myself within.

Though, through all the years, I also have seen how the symptoms from my large intestine were – and still are – ‘protecting’ me, to bring myself back here and look where I compromise myself in my expression. I often think, “oh, why can I not do it ‘by myself’ without creating these physical consequenses again and again within my own body. I should be aware enough by now to stop doing this”. However what I do see more and more clearly, is how this is a stand from a point of superiority, so from a mind-perspective from/within myself, as if I would and should already be able to stand without compromising myself and my physical body. Because, the whole mind-consciousness system is consisting as a compromising implemented and integrated system, within and without –  so actually, we have existed and only ‘know how to exist’, in a compromising way towards life/the physical (as how my own physical body is showing me through all these years) – and it is really a process to walk through all dimensions and layers that I created within/as myself, to come to a way of living in consideration of life/the physical/myself as being within.

So it is actually because of my physical body and it’s specific set up of the mind-structures within, that I am here where I am now walking, as I in/as the mind, has wished many times to be able to ‘do it different’ in which I perhaps or probably – I actually do not know – would not so much have supported myself to do what is best for myself as life within/as the physical. I did this and I have learned this because my physical was asking for it.

What I can trust within myself – as what I have proven to myself while walking – is the awareness within this all, as me within who is listening to my physical body and the direction within me to find the necessary ways to support myself and my physical body and to keep on pushing this point for as long as it takes and until it is done. And from here and while walking, being able to stand as point of support for others within the capacity I have.

I can say this now because I slowly make some progress in directing myself and slowly build some self-trust in this physical situation, walking with myself, instead of fighting against myself.

There is a very cool interview where in I recognize as how I do not actually know who I am within a specific situation unless I am/have walked it in reality, as I often think and believe from a mind-perspective that ‘I would do much better/I would be much stronger’ than I actually am in real time/in self-honesty. And by accessing this point in self-honesty, so through and within embracing my own weaknesses and approaching it from a starting-point of self-honesty, I see how I can slowly become more stable and stronger within. Then from here it is interesting to realize and investigate how this then probably also exist as a polarity within myself, so thinking and believing that ‘I would do less better/I would be less stronger’ than I actually am in real time/in self-honesty.

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This blog does in no way contain a medical advise. With unclarity about a condition – physically or mentally – always contact a practioner/specialist/doctor in the related area to get the support you need and from here, see how you can additionally walk your own process to get to know and support yourself in relation to your own body and mind.


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Dag 379 – Sexual Desire

I see in myself how I keep myself believing in illusions, just to keep myself satisfied, out of a fear that I will become overwhelmed with desire. In this case, sexual desire, related to the fear of ‘staying alone my whole life’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to keep myself believing in the illusion of already having met the perfect sexual partner, and having experienced the perfect sexual interaction, and for this, being satisfied, eventual for my whole life, just in case that I will stay alone for my whole life, which by the way, is that one calls a sign of having met your soulmate, where in you will be ready to stay alone the rest fo your life, even if the ‘soulmate’ is not ready to live with you.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to protect myself in and as a believe of having already met the perfect sexual partner and have been physical intimate with him, to keep myself satisfied, not seeing, realizing and understanding that within and as this believe, I suppress myself in and as my own potential and will to physically share with a real partner and not one in a memory and within this, I suppress my potential and will to explore my physical sexuality equal as the physical, in and as a mutual physical support.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that within this suppression, I suppress and compromise my whole physical expression in and as myself, no matter if there is a partner or not.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to become overwhelmed by sexual desire and not having a physical partner to explore this with.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel to stay alone my whole life and within this, having no chance to explore the physical intimicy with a partner.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place physical intimicy with a partner above self-intimicy in and as my own physical, standing alone with and as myself no matter what.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compromise life in and as myself, and within this, compromising the life of others as life in general, just because of fear of staying alone my whole life and not being able to be physical intimate with a male as a partner.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I would be able to be physical intimate without standing in and as myself as self-support, and within this, standing in and as an eventual support for the partner.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate sexuality from being self-intimate in and as my own physical, and so within this, make sexuality an energetic experience, separated from my own physicality in and as myself in self-intimicy, and so within this, create my own desire for fulfillment in and as this energetic experience of sexuality.

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When and as I see myself going into a memory as believe in having already been physical intimate with the perfect sexual partner, I stop, I breathe.

I realize that I supress as protect myself from an experience as believe inside myself of missing out on something in and as a sexual desire.

I commit myself to in the moment, investigate what it and why it is that in that specific moment, I want to protect myself for in and as a memory of sexual satisfaction, to see, self-forgive and self-correct the believe in the illusion that exists in me.

When and as I see myself going into an overwhelming sexual desire of being physical with a male as a partner, I stop, I breathe.

I realize that I desire an energy in and as myself as fulfillment, and so, there is a seperation inside myself that I need to fulfill with energy.

I commit myself to investigate what seperation exist in me in and as the mind, in and as a believe of what should be, related to relationships and sexuality.

When and as I see myself going into fear of being alone my while life, I stop, I breathe.

I realize I go into future projection in and as the mind.

I realize I might participate in and as a startingpoint of being alone as loneliness in and as the mind, and so I need to investigate what startingpoint as assumption or believe I participate in, with regards to the illusions as desires of relationships and sexual fulfillment.

I realize that if I fear to stay alone for the rest of my life, it also means that I fear the opposite as to stay together and give up myself as I know myself in this in and as self-interest, and for fearing this, I decide to stay alone as lonely, so actually I might fear my own misinterpretations as protection mechanism as control in and as the mind, to keep me prison in and as isolation, in and as the mind.

I commit myself to investigate the starting point of being alone, interpretated as loneliness, in and as assumprion or believe I participate in with regards to the illusions as desires of relationships and sexual fulfillment, which I use as a protectionmechanism.

I commit myself to investigate what it specific is that I protect in and as self-interest, in and as a decision in and as the mind to stay alone as lonely.

I commit myself to everytime bring myself back to reality in and as the realization that I always stay alone in and as myself, no matter if there is a male as a physical partner, and to investigate what it is that I hold on to in and as a systemized fear, in and as a believe, assumption or misinterpretation, that makes me go into separation as illusion within this.

I commit myself to investigate the points where in I am not staying alone in and as self-support, and instead of this wanting to fulfill myself with energy in/as a relationship in and as the mind.

I commit myself to give myself time in this and be patience in this with and as myself, to give myself the chance to really stand up alone, in and as self-intimicy, and walk this point effectively in and as myself, as I realize that I never was able to make a real decision as starting-point in and as self-will to eventual start a partnership, because of not being clear in my stand in and as myself, and within this, creating many relationships and break-ups as distraction in and as the mind, which manifested physically in and as constriction.

I commit myself to be and become comfortable with and as myself as physical equal as sexual and apply this in and as physical masturbation, and within this, stop the eventual sexual desires as energetic experiences that may come up, to be and become here, in and as acceptance of my own physicality.

Related article in Dutch about physicality as sexuality:

Full life review my life of co dependency

Life Review – My life of Co-Dependency

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Dag 374 – How Every Breath Counts

Dag 375 – The gift of Life by Roos – preference and ignorance

Dag 376 – Ignorance and preference – self-corrective statements

Dag 377 – The gift of Life by Roos – knowledge and information

Dag 378 – Loneliness-1

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Dag 376 – Ignorance and preference – self-corrective statements

Dag 374 – How Every Breath Counts

Dag 375 – The gift of Life by Roos – preference and ignorance

When and as I see myself going into ignorance of someone who is asking for my attention, I stop, I breathe.

I realize that I step automatically into a pattern of ignorance, before I have even seen what it is that is asked for.

I realize that I cannot see what is asked for, if I ignore the one that is asking something and/or if I ignore what is asked.

I realize that I fear something within this moment, that I can investigate within myself, but that in this moment, I need to put my awareness to the being that is asking me something, without paying any attention to my own preference in relation towards the being that is asking for attention or to my own preference in relation to activities that I would like to do or not do.

I realize I turn my own attention around and within this, place it into self-interest related to preference within this, instead of placing my attention to the being, tp life, that is asking for it.

I commit myself to breathe, and within breath, turn myself to the being that is asking for attention, within the realization that the being may need something from me in that specific moment. I listen and see what it is that the being asks me, and if I don’t understand the question within, I just stay here and breathe, I eventual apply self-forgiveness on what is coming up inside myself. If I do understand the question within, I see within myself what it is that I can do, what is my potential, what is practical possible, what is my self-will and what is my self-interest, and what is it that I see as best for all.

When and as I see myself going into reaction about poo on the floor or other dirt that I need to clean up, I stop, I breathe.

I realize that I fear to become overwhelmed by dirt, which is actually dirt as energy as energetic reaction in and as the mind, and within this, physically paralyze as not being able to clean it up.

I realize that I have programmed reactions towards poo or dirt that I can stop and investigate inside myself.

I realize that the mind is putting up patterns as ideas as sabotage as control, and that within this, I believe that I need something to protect in and as myself, which is not so, it is just energy that wants to stay alive in and as a compromise of life in and as the physical substance, as this is the only way that energy can exist because of it’s dependency on the physical, on substance.

So I realize that I compromise life when I listen to the call for protection in and as the mind.

I commit myself to approach the dirt as poo on the floor in common sense and see how I can prevent it in common sense without compromising as controling the expression of life within this, and for rest just clean it up.

i commit myself to clean up the energetic dirt in anda smyself as existing energetic reactions, by investigating, stopping, and applying self-forgiveness and self-corrective application.

When and as I see myself, in any situation, going into preference in relation towards living beings, I stop, I breathe.

I realize that this is pre-programmed and based on energy, visible in appearance, looks, smell, noise, taste, feelings, ideas etc.

I realize that I become blind and compromise (myself as) life, when and as I follow my preference, and that this will lead to harm life within it, where life is equal, in and as the other as myself.

I realize that this is automated and so that it will take time to walk through this patterns ans stop and self-forgive the specific patterns of preference.

I realize that, with trusting on preference, I seperate myself, I ignore life, and so, in and as seperation, I isolate myself, and so create my own experience of loneliness.

I commit myself to stop and investigate preference when this is coming up inside myself, in relation towards a living being, and see within this what it is that I seperated myself from.

I commit myself to investigate the experience of loneliness further on and within this, go on listening to the Atlantean video’s about the system and experience of Loneliness, as a support.

When and as I see myself going into preference for activities to do, I stop, I breathe.

I realize that I as the mind prefer specific activities to feed the energy in and as the mind, and feed the energy by creating resistance towards activities that the mind dislike, as for example cleaning up the house.

I commit myself to make each activity as comfortable as possible, which starts with my own approach of and awareness in the activity needs to be done.

I commit myself to investigate my own reactions towards specific activities, to see what it is that gives the resistance, so that I stand up equal to my own control and self-manipulation within the resistance, which harms life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to harm myself in and as life, by controling and manipulating myself in and as a preprogrammed and a developped programmed pattern of preference towards beings and activities, and within this do harm to another life as life in general.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have compromised and harmed my physical body in and as a believe in self-manipulation and self-control, in and as preference in and as the mind, wherein the harm towards my body makes me feel so tired and exhausted that I use this as an excuse to continue with the pattern in and as the mind, in and as preference, wherein I am no longer physical able to do the labour that I do not prefer as dislike in and as the mind, and so keep myself alive in and as preference in and as the mind, and wherein I even experience myself as unable to listen and give attention to someone thats askes for my attention and eventual needs my support, or just simply wants to express as self.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to squeeze myself in and as my physical body and take my own breathe away, by living in and as the preference in and as the mind, just as how we squeeze and take the breath away of the Physical Life on Earth for the benefit of the preference in and as the mind consiousness system existing in each human being.

I commit myself to stand up in and as awareness to educate myself and humanity in how we function as a mind consciousness system in and as preference as self-interest, which is leading to the destruction of life on earth, which is something that we need to stop as soon as possible and change into support of Life in and as the physical in equality and oneness, which starts within ourselves.

I commit myself to move on with writing, investigation, self-forgiveness and self-correction, to see where and how I specificely harm my own physical body towards the state of exhaustion, related to the idea of preference in and as the mind, where in I realize that this is a way to walk during time, through unpleasant experiences of exhaustion where in I will tend to mislead myself in and as the mind, and so I need daily application of and as myself to support myself within this, where it is only in this daily application that I will be able to change, day by day, breath by breath, in and as small steps.

I commit myself to investigate within myself what is self-interest, what is preference, what is self-will and what is best for all, as as long as I do not have a clear perspective on and as myself in this, I am not able to be clear towards life in and as myself, but will start compensating the compromise I have made in myself at first hand existing in and as self-interest, and so mixing up self-will and self-interest and within this not seeing and so not acting as what is best for all life.

I realize that this is what Roos is standing for as Life, as she was always clear in and as herself as who she is and what she wants, without acting differently towards others in and as hiding something, and so she was even more clear when she became bold and walked around through the whole house, small and vulnerable, and at the same time being strong in and as herself as life. Not making compromises towards self as life.

The Gift of Life by Roos.

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