Dag 778 – Am I originally / inherently good or do ‘I within’ need self-direction as well?

In a blog-serie last year I have written a lot about my walk through the years of fertility and what I have faced and found during this period. I have also described how I have diminished myself in a decision where in I did not give myself the time to consider all dimensions within myself and so not without as well, which has lead to consequences. Not persé that the decision in itself was ‘a bad decision’ but more the not considering was what I see that I have hurted myself with (and others as an outflow of this).

I am now walking through a phase where in I for the first time, start pushing through my ‘natural’ protection-mechanism as a ‘barriére’ so to speak. And I am quite surprised to see how strong the self-sabotage is coming up in this. Self-sabotage meaning, in several moments coming up a strong idea that I ‘need to get out of this’ and go back to my well-known confortable area in and as myself and so, in and as my life. Also here to say that this is not ‘bad’ or something and it served me very well to keep myself stable and strengthening myself in my tasks and responsibilities, but more that I see that there is an unknown area waiting from which I do not know the outcome and so actually, from which I do need to let go of the control of ‘already knowing where to go’ more or less and walking day by day and creating along the way with the opportunities opening up in this time-frame.

And this is exactly what I have been avoiding, for example in the example of decision making in the years of fertility, where in the new area felt so completely unsafe and me not yet having the skills and (self)-support to walk into it and so, I backed of, I pulled back. It very well possible, may have been the right decision in that moment, in which I have prevented myself and others, for a real ‘loosing of control’ or direction so to speak – I will never know,  but more based on what I see how much I lack in and as self-direction in this specific area of relationships and fertility and only by now, starting to opening up to be able to start to apply myself more directed.

I would like to give this as an example and these series that I have written and spoken as well, of how strong a self-limitation can come up and how realistic it may present itself, with all kind of reasonings that may be valid or not and even if the reasonings are ‘catched’ and made invalid within myself, still I surprisingly find ‘myself as a reason’ to not move forward and beyond the old, to stay in my well-known area of who I have been all these years before and probably many life-times before. So ‘the me within’ is not already shaped and done and developped as my utmost potential so as in so many spiritual trends is stated, as if inside we are already ‘good’. I find now that this is not the case; also ‘the me within’ is very much influenced and programmed and protective based.

What does very well support me in this is looking at the practical situation, the stability and possibilities and the effect of my decisions on others as well and with what decision I can stand in eternity, no matter what the final outcome is. So basicely, to keep standing within principle and integrity, is what is of support for myself to not go off track and to keep standing and moving and following up on what I have initiated and walked so far. Also when doubts, hesitations, reasons, preferences, emotions and even physical manifestations are coming up, then I have my point of cross-reference in/as myself: with what can I stand in eternity for and as myself in what is here in this moment and situation? Not as an absolute outcome for allways but as what is best right now and from here, walking from moment to moment and in consideration of how the mind can or may present itself (and so I within and as, because it is me in the end who decides) almost turned around, as a turned around projection of what is best; as a negative of a picture that needs to be developped with chemicals.

Considering all aspects that I see involved, within and without,putting a guard for my mouth to not speak in a way that create unneccessary consequences and to first seeing what is needed to forgive and correct within myself and what is real and practical and physical possible and from here, carefully moving forward into the direction that is physically opening up.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to somehow think and believe that if my intentions are good, that I am then ‘good’ as well, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that good intentions alone can give the opposite outcome in physical reality if and when I do not fully understand the functioning and programming of myself in/and/as my mind and within and as my beingness as well and how this is then actually me creating or participating in an evil outcome in and as this physical reality and if and when I am not willing to really look at this, I disable myself to forgive and correct my inherent evil nature that I am hiding within and behind good intentions.

I commit myself to discover, forgive and correct my good intentions and the ‘evil’ that is hiding behind it, in and as myself as the opposite of ‘life’ (as for example in self-interest, judgements and fears) and I commit myself in this way to enable myself to consider the physical, practical circumstances as well as the principles and integrity of Life itself as for example ‘do unto others as you would have them do unto you’, as a guideline to create an outcome that is aligned with my potential to be and become a considering and trustable, living human being.

Bernard gave me the subject of ‘Paranoia in and as the intention of the New Age Movement‘ to write some blogs about in 2012 and I took this on (written in Dutch), however only by now, I start seeing it within myself and how I was/am holding on onto good intentions (and/as paranoia) within and as myself and keeping a backdoor open within this. During those time, he has assisted me with a few points that I am still walking and that I will write about more in time to come, as it is fascinating to see how his support (representing Life itself) stretches out over years and this to fully grasp what he was pointing out, to take on and walk through the programming within and as myself.

So far for now; thanks for reading.


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Dag 777 – Future projections and what I find behind it

Here I am sitting behind my computer on writing day 777 and I do not have a subject to write about. I do see how my mind goes into future-projections almost automaticely and me following up on this and only when I bring myself here with clear words of common sense, like ‘hey, this has all nothing to do with what I am doing in this moment and where I am’. So let’s do some self-forgiveness on this fenomene of future-projections, as I see myself often going into this in several ways.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into future projections as scenario’s that may take place in the future, as well in positive scenario’s as in negative scenario’s, where in I see that I do it as a way to distract myself from where I am at the moment, in time and space.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use future projections as a way to experience something inside myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to keep myself occupied within creating experiences inside myself, connected to future-projections that I make up in my mind, that may be realistic, however,  it doesnot make sense to use it different or more or other than as a practical guideline for myself and my life in what I would like to live and create and what is realistic and practical within this and for the rest, it only functions as a distraction in/as the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use future projections to not admit that I am actually participating in a fear of that what I want or prefer to happen in the future, to not take place.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make myself feeling better than who I am and what I do in the moment, right now, by going into future projections that I would like to take place or happen in my life, as if where I am, who I am and what I do right now, is ‘not enough’ or not good enough.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to never really be with my body and what happens within it because of going and being into all kind of scenario’s in and as my mind, related to the future or past, on long term or on short term, however, never really and fully being here in and as my physical body, as if this is not already enough to be with and as, as if the whole universum is not already taking place within and as all the organic functional processes in and as the universum of my physical body and myself within.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and have separated myself from myself in and as my physical body and actually let my body do the constant working, without really seeing and understanding what and how my body do this.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel or have felt so much alone because I have separated myself from myself as life in and as my physical body and so, separated from the life in and as my physical body itself, by always wanting more and looking for more and somewhere else outside, in and as the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to speak about projections, without really seeing, realizing and understanding how much I participate in future projections in and as myself.

When and as I see myself going into a future projection, I stop and breathe. I realize that I am going out of the moment and out of my body and shifting in and as the mind into a place where I assume that it may be better, in which I only make it impossible for myself to calm myself down or to be realistic with and as myself, because I do not see what it is that I shift away from and what makes me do so. I commit myself to take an inbreathe and stop, breathe out and bring myself here and look into and define what emotions I try to get away from and what I prefer to shift towards and from here, find a word that I can support myself with to live this ‘what I try to shift towards’ as an expression, right here and now, in and as myself as where I am at the moment in space, time and process.

In this way I will enable myself to make peace with myself in who I am and where I am in every moment of the process I walk and only in this way, enable myself to forgive and change myself into an expression in and as self-support and without the need to think or believe that ‘I miss out‘ on something ‘out there’ as where the mind is trying to distract me towards and away from myself.


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Dag 776 – Self-trust and fuzzyness

When is self-trust coming? In the previous blog I wrote about building self-trust within the living of principles.  I mean here especially the living of it and having the certainty within and as myself that I will live by a certain principle.

This mean that I have tested out this principle in physical reality and that I have been stable in this in directing myself towards an outcome that is best for me as life, in and as this physical reality and so, it is best for life in and as this physical reality as a whole. Before I come to this point in area’s that I do not yet have developped a self-direction, I first will find myself for example going into the opposite ‘state’ or direction of what is best for myself and/as life and it is very well possible that I do not even really see that I am doing this because I am already doing it for so long. So this means that I have followed an ineffective mind-programming within and as myself.

But I do notice some ‘fuzzyness’ within myself where in I am not really here and present and I also can learn to see it within the outcome that may be different than what I had my focus on as the best way possible and as my potential and especially when this happens more than once or many times, then I know for myself that I am somewhere not living by a principle that is best for me as best for all. I am walking into a default consequence without even really seeing it as a manifested consequence.

This fuzzyness I find a difficult area, because I actually am not really seeing and aware of what I am living out here in reality or, I do not even see or have learned that it is not ‘what is best’, meaning that there is self-interest involved that I am holding on to without really seeing what I am doing or that I am doing this.

I will apply some self-forgiveness on this ‘fuzzyness’ inside myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel sleepy and tired and not wanting to start the day because I am seeing up against what needs to be done that day and/or against a problem I need to find a solution for and develop a self-direction within.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel disappointed within and as myself about myself and who I am in this fuzzy area in my life, thinking and believing that I did have more clarity and direction than I actually have, according to an outcome or situation playing out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I cannot do anything about it or that I will ‘never make it’ because I am in this fuzzy area and not really seeing clear what needs to be done, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that I ‘feel scared’ about what I may find that needs to be done and what I may need to take responsibility for within and as myself and so, I rather keep myself in and as this fuzzy state of mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to on forehand, create an idea about what ‘taking responsibility’ means or what needs to be done and making this idea bigger and more loaded in and as my mind, than the actual directiveness in and as myself consist of and so, I use this as a distraction and excuse of taking the lead and directiveness within and as myself in what will come forward as what needs to be done in a certain moment in the day.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try to on forehand, have a scenario ready in and as my mind, build on thoughts of ‘what needs to be done and how this needs to be done’, instead of focussing on myself and breathing through the thoughts coming up (and when and as needed, writing out certain thought and emotional patterns to free myself from the energy within a default programming) and practising in and as myself to trust the breathing and me within and focus on what needs to be done physically.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel so powerless and abused within and as myself and stored in my physical body, as if I/myself am ‘burried’ very deep within and having lost my voice and will to speak and express and move myself.

I do realize that this is a process where in I ask myself to change certain deep ingrained programmings that are probably uncomfortable to walk and so I commit myself to support myself unconditionally in what comes up, what mistakes I make, what default I may find and the amount of time and consequences that it has given or will give to from here, push myself to the best of my ability to find my will and voice to express myself and start practising my self-directive principle in daily living situations.

To be continued


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Dag 775 – Building self-trust within the living of principles

Isn’t that what we are all looking for eventually? The certainty that we can trust ourself, no matter what happen? Having a self-direction on which we can rely in any given situation? This does not mean that we cannot ask for support when and as needed; this is also part of a self-direction, where we direct ourself towards an asking for assistance, as we do not need to see and ‘know’ everything alone by ourself.

I have noticed for myself that I am most certain when I know what to do and where to go and when and where to look and ask for support, if and when some unexpected issues are coming up. This is for example at work, where I am in an area that I am well educated in and within the activities, there are clear cadres of what needs to happen. Or I notice this for example when I am around with someone who has ‘the lead’ and who knows what to do and where to go and then most optimum if this someone is also taking the participants (and so me) into consideration.

I have noticed the opposite in myself in situations where I am without any cadre or subject to speak about, without anyone that I know, where I become all focussed on my own consciousness and how uncomfortable I experience myself within. So I have no ‘blue-print’ for such situation and also no ‘map’ as clear guidelines layed out.

And what to do then? Here I have noticed that it will be of support to at least, have developped some principled guidelines within me and having developped the ability to ‘fall back’ on myself within and as the awareness of myself in who I am and what I stand for.

What are principles?

Principles I would describe as ‘rules’ that are considering what is best for life as a whole – so the ‘life’ within as well as without. This is such a wide description, because we then first have to look and define what this life actually is and entails and how we exist as human beings within a mind-being-body trinity within and as ourself. Practically seen, it should be a rule that for example when we are with two, you and me, that I can bring in a rule that works for both of us with the focus on our being coming forward within and as our physical body, where in we actively align our mind with this self-expression.

What can be a practicle example: when you and me are going to share diner together in the evenings, and I have always diner at 1700 and you at 1900; first thing that comes up is to have diner at 1800 – that would be ‘fair’ and ‘in the middle’;  but what if you are only at home at 18.30, then this is practical not possible and I need to align to the hour of 1900 if and when we want to share diner. Then if my bloodsugar level is starting to give problems, meaning that my body needs food earlier to function well, then I can decide to eat a small meal at 1600 and then eat again at 1900 and I need some time to adapt myself and my body to this or, if I really find it difficult to physically adapt to this time, then we can decide to still eat separate.

This is a very simple and practical example and in reality, there is much to consider in all kind of situations. It is mostly working if both are willing to consider all aspects and to place ourself in another’s shoes so to speak but, what is vital in this, is to not feed that what we ‘prefer’ in and as energy in our thoughts, feelings and emotions and that we firstly look at a physical, practical outcome that supports the ‘physical life’, inside and outside ourself.

And this is where we all need to re-educate ourself, because we have been ‘educated’ to focus on ‘how we feel’ emotionally and on ‘what we think and what idea we have about something’; so we mainly have been educated to focus on ‘our own mind’.

Back to the topic of ‘building self-trust’ – within following our thoughts, emotions and feelings, we are not really building the self-trust but more, the ‘trust’ towards our mind in ‘how we feel’. And ‘how I feel’ is mostly different than ‘how you feel‘ and so it is difficult in this to come to an agreement that is supporting both our physical body and beingness-expression coming through in this. And, we also find that our emotions and feelings ‘fluctuate’, so I am not constant and trustable if I follow ‘how I feel’ in a certain moment, also because ‘how I feel’ is many times activated by an outside trigger-point and then a memory is being activated.

So, I need certain ‘guide-lines’ or rules that are based on what is best for myself in and as my physical body and that is taking into consideration how my mind-being-body relationship is set up and then how I need to direct myself in this towards an outcome that is substantial and long-lasting, for myself and/as others and/as this physical life as a whole.

This will then start making me trustable for myself as well as for others and in this, I will be able to build myself in and as self-trust; trusting myself as a living being in consideration of all living beings in and as the physical, starting within the very small within myself and in my direct environment.

Well, a lot to consider here and it is only possible to walk it as a process, breath by breath, day by day and every time expanding in awareness and understanding what principled living actually means in thought, word and deed.

Desteni I Process gives a practical guide-line in learning how we function and how to direct ourself within the mind-being-body relatonship and as example I place here My Declaration of Principle.

Embracing Self by Bernard Poolman


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Dag 774 – Coming to an understanding of a character

For many many years in my life, as long as I am interested in relationships, I have pushed back and forward within myself within the polarity of wanting a relationship and then finding out that I can not (or don’t want) to really keep standing in it or another cannot (or don’t want) to really keep standing in it. And everytime I am looking for reasons within my own mind for why and how and what I can do more. What I see deep within me is that I on some level, start within a point of compromise and then I am not able to bring myself within the relationship, to a point of self-honesty and equality and oneness, in and as myself, while moving together to this point.

Af friend said years ago to me like ‘Ingrid, maybe you first need to find your own strength before you will be in a raltionship that you are satisfied with’ (or something like this). Here I also saw that this is real what she mentions, like this is the key, however I also found it quite daunting because I felt a lot of fear to walk this path – fear of never being able to walk with a partner on long term in and as the believe that ‘nobody wants to be with me if I do that’.

So within me I had always an idea of equality and oneness and that this is needed and what I am looking for in partnership, however I found myself time after time unable to bring this in reality and also to even speak about it from the start in a stable and clear way, also out of fear that another would not step in or would not stay. And so I walked many situations with every time the same pain when it did not go as how I would like it to go.

Within the past 6-7 years walking the Desteni I Process, I have found what I was looking for in standing up within principles that are considering myself, another and life as a whole and even more, how to practically move myself into this stand. Before this, I was not aware of how many layers I have build up within me where in I am actually ‘preventing’ myself from living my utmost potential – layers that I have stored in and as my mind-consciousness system and then integrated within my physical body and so, I am living this out in my physical reality because it has become a part of me.

This al together – which sounds like common sense and like ‘hey, easy, let’s do this’; which is not because the layers have so much integrated within all that I have become and so it takes time and effort to walk through, in writing, in the application of self-forgiveness and self-correction and then walking the correction in physical reality – this all together brought me to the realization that I do not need to let go of a relationship or to let go of the potential to walk together yet alone, but I need to let go of…………a relationship-character.

I probably have created this as my main character where in I have created the most consequences for myself and indirectly for others as well in this. The consequences for myself have been mainly emotional an then manifesting all the emotional patterns within my physical body and so affecting my physical body and organ-functioning.

At the moment of this realization, that I could come to in a conversation with Sylvie, the intens emotional pain decreased. This is also showing how supportive it can be to speak things through within integrity and especially if both are walking the process of self-realization more actively. This will be of support to understand self and each other and keep standing in finding solutions that are life-supporting on long-term. With this realization I enabled and supported myself to pick myself up and move on. I now mainly need to focus in keeping myself together, focussing on my breathing, moving myself physically and not going again and again in this emotional state in moments that I feel the emotions lingering within me – which is many times a day. Every time realizing like ‘okay I am not loosing anything but a character that is not needed or beneficial for me anymore’. Because it is so easy to fall back or keep falling in believing the emotions and feelings to be real and then following up on them. Strange enough it makes me nervous and it feels like ‘I am doing something that I am not allowed to do’- like stepping out of a ‘code’ or something.

This is actually what I / we are doing in the Desteni I Process – getting to know myself in the characters that I have created and then layer by layer, peeling off the ‘false energetic identities’ that I have taken on through my life for a reason, to enable myself to bring myswelf through in a substantial way, into self-expression. I have hidden within this ‘identities’ and so made myselfkind of ‘stuck and imprisoned’ within this by my own acceptances and allowances and to ‘come to myself’ again, I need / needed to forgive and correct all these layers as identities.

I must say that only by now when writing this out, I start to understand what ‘characters’ are and how the layers in and as my mind, are build up from identities that I have taken on and integrated within/as myself. Because I have become this one main-character, it is not so easy to see what I have build up around and as myself, because I have become it. However this did not stop me from starting my Desteni I Process seven years ago and along the way, I start to see and understand more and more. I have learned through my life the importance to start with what I do see and understand and then walk from here into a deeper awareness that is infinite in a way, because I am expanding in it.

So a ‘not (yet) understanding of everything’ can not be an excuse to not start with what we do understand in that moment.

A walk into understanding to be continued.

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Dag 773 – Sabotaging my own common sense

Common-Sense-Black

I was writing in a mind-construct in a lesson of Desteni I Process and here I started seeing how I sabotage my own common sense within projecting my own experiences that are coming up within me, on my own (words of) common sense and here keeping myself in a circle of self-sabotage and keeping myself ‘imprisoned’ in a way in cycling in my own experiences that I keep on projecting on my own common sense and from here, manifesting these experiences through resonating this within the speeking of the words of common sense. I have copied here the serie of self-forgiveness where in this became clear for myself (related to an every day life example of a situation at work that I used to write out because I noticed that I was not clear and stable in that specific moment). It is giving an example of how effective the writing can support in seeing within myself in what I am doing inside and so creating outside as ‘the reality of myself’.

(…)

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel relieved because this situation is almost over and at the same time feeling guilty of what I see that I have created as the other leaving, without using the time effectively, where in I see now that it is merely based on a lack in communication that I actually did ask for as in making an appointment but that I communicated within a reaction inside and so, I merely communicated the resonance of my reaction and not so much the common sense within my words, where in the ‘feeling guilty’ is about my reaction that I communicated, that I then start projecting on my own words in common sense and from here, starting to ‘doubt’ my own words of common sense and project this ‘feeling guilty’ on my words of common sense and then carrying this as a memory with me: feeling guilty about a question of planning an appointment (and perhaps leaving in that moment) and in a then next situation, feeling ‘scared’ to ask this again because I have connected and loaded this question within myself with experiences of guilt and doubt.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage my own common sense within projecting my own energetic experiences coming up within myself, on my own words of common sense and within this, start to doubt my own words and common sense and keeping the experiences of guilt and doubt existing within me and then resonating this with words of common sense.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect my own words of common sense with resonations of experiences as doubt and guilt and fear, and within this, every time that I speak common sense, bring forward a resonation of doubt, guilt and fear and so actually and merely communicate the experiences of doubt, fear and guilt and then triggering this within another as well and at the same time, keeping these experiences of guilt, doubt and fear intact, because I again then feel ‘guilty’ about what I bring forward and about the situation that it creates and here again, start ‘doubting’ myself and ‘fearing’ to bring up anything that I see as words of common sense, but at the same time, not being able to stop myself from speaking these words ‘right now’ because the related experiences are almost like a pressure ‘to speak up now’ and so, I have no direction about my timing in speaking words of common sense.

(…)

What I also find is that this is of influence on the timing of when it is best to speak and when it is best to wait a little and align myself to the situation and the dimensions that I see involved. This timing I have recently started to open up within myself (as well as in a blog here), as I see that within an misalignment within my timing of ‘speaking up’ as a voicing myself, I create most consequences within my communication in relation to others.

To be continued.

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Dag 772 – Equality within principle

What is coming forward in this world is how ‘intelligent’ one is for example and how we within this, are feeling ‘better’ or ‘less’ than each other and all kind of gradations and related experiences within this. I was looking at the years now walking and working together with people from the group Desteni, that within living by principle and the application of the tools to support ourself to ‘honour’ the life within each living being and align ourself with this starting-point in thought, word and deed, there is an equality coming with and within this where in ‘intelligence’ is not important and not even so much visible; actually because every one is expressing oneself at best ability at this moment, pushing oneself to live by principle and honour the life within oneself and each other.

The same I have seen within for example an education that I have followed of natural medicine. This took six years and within this six years, I have slowly get to know all the students a little more, where I was more ‘in contact’ with a few and becoming ‘friends’ with them, however in weeks we spend together to practise the natural medicine for example, each of the same class, is coming more closer together and the differences or ‘likes and dislikes’ are slowly moving to the background and the appreciation and respect for each other walking this same path, is coming through, which is a uniting force.

We can ofcourse understand that everyone is made and part of the flesh – meaning we all have a physical body – and so in this we are equal and also every human being has a mind consciousness system so in this, we are all equal in this – common sense. However, in this walking by principle within a group, it becomes really visible how this equality is coming through within the interaction and expression of each one walking alone, yet together.

In this, the principle of ‘equality and oneness’ is becoming visible in what it means in the reality of this life on earth in each of our daily lives. It is like slowly starting to see ‘through’ all the veils of separation and comparison and differences within capacity and ‘intelligence’ and moving self towards this equality, that we all do know and understand in theory, but that has never before become a living reality here on earth.

What is possible in a small group of ‘students’ or ‘co-workers’ or ‘participants’ as I have described here, is possible in a large group as well – large as in ‘humanity as a whole’. But ofcourse, there are many challenges to find solutions for, because the separation that we all experience inside (within our participation in thoughts, emotions and feelings) we have created outside as well and manifested in a system that is based on separation and inequelity as well. So there is much that needs to be taken on and this will take time and some generations to implement. But this doesnot mean that it is impossible, altough it seems like there are ‘too many problems to overcome’.

The question in this for each of us is eventually: do we want to participate? Do we want to be part of the solution and stand and work together in this – coming from a starting-point of equality and oneness, in and as life and merely, are we willing to learn what this actually means and to ‘unlearn’ that what is not effective and supportive anymore for this life to come through in each of us?

Many on earth do not have the possibility and are too much busy with surviving and ‘getting some food on the table’ (where many do not have a table to put the food on), but those who have a computer and who are able to read this, mostly have the opportunity to start investigating who we are in thought, word and deed and how to change and align oneself in this to equality and oneness, to at least start to participate and doing our best to be part of the solution, firstly inside ourself.

Within the Desteni I Process it will become more clear what this process towards ‘Life’ means and what Equality and Oneness means and can mean in our daily life. It is a free course to start with.

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