Dag 267 – Wie ben ik? personal economic background

Dag 266 – Wie ben ik?

I grew up in a middle-class environment.
There was always money enough to eat, and always ‘little money left at the end of the month’, but never lead to any serious money problems.

I have been supported for education by my parents and by government, as how this was arranged in those days. I studied 2 years on the school of Art (photography) and after these 2 years, I decided to stop and switch to an education of Natural Medicine, which is a HBO-level of education (one level below university).

Here the investigation of how the body works really started. And this has never stopped; I am still investigating this within using my own body as a reference.

During studytime I had to work for my own living; only education was payed for and I lived by myself. So I studied and worked at the same time for 6 years.

I still have this balance:
I work for money to live from in an area close to my education, at the Vitaminstore; a store with vitamins and other ‘health supporting products’ where is a lot of room for personal advise and communication. Within this job I have just enough money to live from with the support of some extra allowance from the government and the municipality for house and medical care, as it is arranged in The Netherlands at the moment for people who have minimum income.

At the same time I walk the Journey to Life with the people from Desteni, and as long as I am able to, I will pay for the education and support I receive within this, just as I pay for any other education that I receive. I really do not see why this is suddenly such a big issue as we simply all need money to live from in the world how it exist at the moment. Money in itself is not the problem, it is who we are related to money, that makes it a problem. And money will and has to be (part of) the way to solve the problem in totality in this world, because we are all related to money.

I have started 2 times my own business: one time a practise of natural medicine, one time a store with foodsupplements. And 2 times I was not able to stand in this so I stopped it. I found out that I was still not standing in what I want: to support other people in maintaining and/or reaching stability within the physical body.
I can only be a support for others if I am a living example in this by myself, and I was not, I was not able to be stable within my own physical body. And here I started the Desteni-I-Process. And the Whole World opened op.

The whole world of how we exist in inequality, related to money and survive. Me seperating myself from my neighbour, out of fear of being attacked in some way, in every way. And within this, me seperating myself from my own physical body, living in fear.

As as long as I live in fear, I am not living in and as the flesh of my body but instead of this, hiding within fear in/as the mind. So what is this, the mind, who is the mind, who am I as the mind, why am I as the mind not working together with myself as the physical body? Why am I as the mind not working together with my neighbour? Who am I as the mind not working together with myself as the physical body and with the neighbour as the physical body as myself? How is this related to the environment I live in, to the family I grew up in, to the whole world I live in? Who created the world and who creates the world? How is the mind related to money and within this, how am I related to money?

All these questions are related to how the world exist at the moment: total inequality and immense suffering. And if I donot investigate and change myself, than who is gonna change the world? The neighbour?

So, I started this process out of seeing for a long time in my own life: there is defenitely something wrong – altough it seems like everything is okay – and nobody is speaking about it. My own body as substance is reflecting to me, there is something wrong.

And the physical world as Earth as a Body as substance is a reflection of who I am/who we are, and there is defenitely something wrong – and actually it doesnot even seem okay anymore – but still almost no-body is really speaking about it. And if you Do speak about it and work together for a solution, you will be attacked. Now that is a strange thing, isn’t it?
Will I keep on living in fear of being attacked and in fear of loosing my comfort, or will I stand up and speak for myself and/as others who are not able to speak?

I am and keep on walking this Journey, to get myself stable within my own physical body, and eventually be an example for others to become stable within their physical body. Which starts with food, water, house and education for All.

What is best for All, is best for me, because All includes me.

Day 15: Who am I? Prisoner of the Mind?



Proces van zelfverandering:
www.lite.desteniiprocess.com  GRATIS ONLINE CURSUS MET BUDDY
Mogelijkheid tot wereldverandering met gelijke kansen voor ieder-een:
Proces van relatie naar agreement:
Zelfeducatie waarin financiele ondersteuning voor een wereld in gelijkheid:
Zelfeducatie free:
Journey to Life:
7 jaar dagelijks schrijven
7 jaar dagelijks schrijven – Dag 1 – Van ziel naar Leven
video: 2012: Nothingness – The 7 year process Birthing Self as Life
De Desteni Boodschap – Wat doen we ermee?