Dag 359 – Porn – What is the Question we should ask?

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In the discussion about the porn-scene, there is often spoken about the ‘line’ of what is abusive and what not. How rough the sex is, if the woman did agree on it, and within this if the woman was informed about what would happen before she agreed on it and if she had a possibility to stop if it was not what she expected and she could not handle it. So actually the questions that are asked within this, are all about what is allowed and what not Within the total allowance of Pornography.

The point in this is: aren’t we asking the wrong question? The question is manipulating the outcome as the answer.

We have to see beyond the balance of this ‘thin line’ of acceptances and allowances Within pornography. What should be questioned, is the existence of Pornography as a Whole. We are so ‘used to’ the existence of porn, that we do not even look anymore why it exist in the first place, what it is in this world that caused us to Watch Other People Having Sex, from soft ways to the most horrific ways we can imagine. Isn’t this The question in itself?

What causes us to watch porn as other people having sex? Because, the demand determines the product, so the question why porn exist is simple: because there is a demand so it is a way to make money. So, if you are watching porn:  you are contributing to and keeping in place the whole porn-industry in relation to money.  You really think the porn ‘stars’ would do this job if there was no money involved? Get real. Would you do this?

So this is the first thing to realise, porn is here because people are making money of it and we are all dependent on money to live,  and money is not equally distributed so we are all living in and as a survival mode. Sex as how it is used in the porn-scene is a way of surviving, to earn money. The porn-industry is making advantage of this. Within this, the point of ‘free choice’ in participating in the porn-industry is seen from a totally different perspective, which shows: there is No free choice in this, there is only need for survival.

Second thing is the act of sex in itself.

Why are we watching to other people having sex? Isn’t sex just a physical act, firstly implanted to reproduce, just as animals do, and secondly usefull as a support to become more physical, to enjoy physical touch and interaction, if and when it is applied in a way that is supportive to the physical body and where in people that are involved agree equally, without any manipulation applied, which means they should be totally aware of what they are doing. To be totally aware of what we are doing before we make the decision to have sex, we should be educated in this. And who in the world is Really educated in the principles of having sex in a pleasurely and respective way? Are you? Who did teach you this? The porn movie that you watched, which is produced to make money and where there is ‘free choise’ of how abusive one like to watch it?

The point is, we don’t know what we are doing while we are having sex. We actually have no idea. Most just start doing this because the whole world is making a lot of noise about this, combined with hormonal changes inside our body around the age of 14, which are activated and making us feeling restless. Within this, first thing we ‘learn’ in this world, is that we have to ‘do’ something with these activated hormones, and if we don’t, we are ‘missing out’ on something. This something means ‘sex’. We learn that we miss something if we do not have sex. So, in essence, we learn to have sex to make us ‘feel better’ than who we are without having sex. This in itself implies that sex is Used, so abused to ‘reach something’, which is a ‘better feeling’ about ourselves. This is called Self-interest.

Did we need sex when we were a young child? No. It is activated. I am not saying that we should not have sex. I am saying, that we have to really investigate what sex contains, that we have to be educated in this and educate the ones that come after us. That we are not ‘more or less’ when having sex or not having sex. There is no ‘free choise’ in this, we are all addicted to this search for ‘feeling better’ about ourselves.

And porn is made to feed this, and at the same time making money out of it, which makes the ones who make money out of it, ‘feel better’ or ‘more powerfull’, and within this using the ones who ‘choose’ to involve because they need the money to survive.

It is not ‘normal’ to watch other people having sex, just because we like it. If you could choose, would you choose to watch other people having sex or would you choose to do it yourself? Are you watching at movies that you know are really abusive if you would act this movie out in reality? So you choose to ‘watch this’ other people doing on a screan? Why are these people doing this? Because of your demand for it; you buy it, they get money for it. So actually, porn stars are acting out on all the hidden fantasies of human beings who are willing to pay money for it.

If we donot watch porn, but have imagines in our head during masturbation or having sex, this is exactly the same. It is all connected to each other in the same Mind Consiousness System. And we are all contributing to this. We ‘think’ it is harmless to make pictures in our head, but it is not. And this is what we should seriously be educated in. Only this education can make us see how we All are equally responsible for the large abuse that happen in this world, which is all related to the area of money and sex. And deep down, we know this, otherwise we would not hide it. We only don’t understand How it is related. If you deny, you are not self-honest and you want to move on only for and within your self-interest. Which is a serious problem.

If you see the common sense in this article and you find yourself addicted to for example watching porn-movies – also the so called ‘innocent’ ones – know that there is support to understand and stop this addiction. Know that honesty seeing into self in this, and saying, hey, I see I have a problem here, I only don’t know what to do about it, this is self-honest and it takes courage to do this and to do something about it.

There is a lot of free material available to start educating yourself. It is a lot, so just start and take on one by one. Allow yourself to free yourself from this addiction, as any addiction is only making us feel better for a very short time and it makes us feeling worse afterwards, and this feeling worse will enlarge. This is how addiction works, and we know it.

If you have the chance – meaning if you have acces to internet, which you have, otherwise you would not be able to read this article – educate yourself, and within this, stand up for a world that is free from all sorts of abuse, related to sex and money.

To all people who are just having ‘innocent’ pictures in the head of wanting to have sex with the lovely neighbour or handsome colleague, and for the rest having a ‘stable’ life with enough money to live from and for example a happy marriage and kids; also: educate yourself.  You, We, are the ones that are able in the first place to stand up. Exactly just because of being relative ‘stable’, it is possible to start with the self-support Right Now. Stand up for Life on Earth, stop the allowance of abuse related to money and sex and be a part of the solution. If we all do so, this world will be a total different place, as a place where we all are willing to live and contribute; if we all give as we would like to receive.

Investigate:

Porn Addicts Journey to Life:

http://pornaddictsjourneytolife.wordpress.com/

Desteni Forum for support:

http://forum.desteni.org./

Free interviews:

What is Sex:

https://eqafe.com/p/what-is-sex-overview

https://eqafe.com/p/what-is-sex-introduction

https://eqafe.com/p/what-is-sex-part-seven

https://eqafe.com/p/what-is-sex-part-eight

https://eqafe.com/p/what-is-sex-part-9

Shocking Secrets of Masturbation:

https://eqafe.com/series/7-shocking-secrets-of-masturbation

The Metaphysical Sectrets of Imagination:

https://eqafe.com/p/the-metaphysical-secrets-of-imagination-introduction

https://eqafe.com/p/the-metaphysical-secrets-of-imagination-self-image-and-imagination-part-1

https://eqafe.com/p/the-metaphysical-secrets-of-imagination-self-image-and-imagination-practical-support-part-2

https://eqafe.com/p/the-metaphysical-secrets-of-imagination-comparing-images-and-imagination-part-3

https://eqafe.com/p/the-metaphysical-secrets-of-imagination-comparing-images-and-imagination-practical-support-part-4

The Soul of Money:

https://eqafe.com/p/the-infinity-secret-consciousness-as-the-light-and-the-dark

https://eqafe.com/p/the-heart-of-love

https://eqafe.com/p/the-inequality-of-resource-distribution-within-all-bodies-of-existence

https://eqafe.com/p/divide-and-conquer-the-majority-enslaved-by-the-minority

https://eqafe.com/p/the-interconnection-between-thoughts-energy-and-light

Parenting: Perfecting the Human Race:

https://eqafe.com/p/parenting-perfecting-the-human-race-part-1

https://eqafe.com/p/parenting-perfecting-the-human-race-part-2

https://eqafe.com/p/parenting-perfecting-the-human-race-part-3

https://eqafe.com/p/parenting-perfecting-the-human-race-part-4

https://eqafe.com/p/parenting-perfecting-the-human-race-part-5

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Proces van relatie naar agreement:
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Zelfeducatie free:
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www.desteni.net
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Journey to Life:
7 jaar dagelijks schrijven
7 jaar dagelijks schrijven – Dag 1 – Van ziel naar Leven
http://www.facebook.com/groups/journeytolife/
video: 2012: Nothingness – The 7 year process Birthing Self as Life
De Desteni Boodschap – Wat doen we ermee?:
https://ingridschaefer1.wordpress.com/2013/02/13/dag-235-de-desteni-boodschap-wat-doen-we-ermee/
Zelfvergeving als Toegift aan jeZelf:
https://ingridschaefer1.wordpress.com/2013/05/20/dag-299-zelfvergeving-als-toegift-aan-jezelf/

Dag 296 – Expressie en de Darm – How do I contribute to the most horrific events in the world

Dag 292 – Expressie en de Darm – Decision Making, Free Choice and Money

Dag 294 – Expressie en de Darm – Judgements on Living Alone

Dag 295 – Expressie en de Darm – Money, Survival and Limitation

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I was watching the documentary of a Dutch woman Toos who is used and abused extensively for sexual rituals where in high members of royalty and church are named as involved.

It is a horrific story, and at the same time she is telling nothing new. What happened to her is what I always experience somewhere on the background as the greatest nightmare that could ever happen to me and every human being and so within this a great fear. So she named all the events one by one, that all are build up from physical torturing and sexual abuse from top till toe, where no respect is left. It is a complete abuse of the physical and of the being.

Now how can I be scared for this and how can I recognize everything she is telling? I have not been in situations like this, I have not seen movies about it, actually I didnot even now from direct stories that this is existing. And still, this fear and this experience of total abuse from top till toe is part of me as long as I remember.

Let’s say that from an age of around 6, maybe earlier but not younger than 4, I experience myself somewhere like this. And since watching the documentary I am wondering, isn’t this all triggered because of starting masturbating. Isn’t this the unconsiousness system that is starting loading all this information while masturbating?

I am consious that I have seperated myself from the unconsiousness awareness. As this is something that I donot want to involve with, that I donot want to belong to. Not realising how I probably have activated this all by myself, within an experience of an orgasm that I liked, and that I repeated in my life. Not extensively, but enough to get involved.

I always have accounted this experience to something ouside myself, as there was something outside myself that had abused me (even though I didnot find anything for real, as there have been taken place some abusive events but not so extensively and not really physical; most took place within words or within the lack of words – which is also physical). So I could not find something that is so extensively. However, I didnot consider how I involved myself within this experience, and within this, abuse myself as a being from top till toe, in starting participating in and energetic sexual experience in/as the mind.

I donot say that events in childhood do not have influence on this experience, I only say that I didnot consider my own participation within the unified consiousness field in/as unconsiousness by starting masturbating and uploading energy and information from the unconsiousness of humanity as a whole, and so distributing to this unified field by generating energy within masturbating. And so creating and accumulating thus enlarging my own experience of fear, which is actually my own mind system in/as fear as the mind exist in/as fear. Not knowing how I, witin this, contribute to the situation of this woman Toos, which has lived for 8 years in the most horrific shadow side of the unified consiousness system of humanity, where this total abuse and torturing that we cannot even imagine – and at the same time all do imagine – is physically taking place.

This whole unified consiousness system is interconnected very specific and complicated and this is only one insight form myself, where in I start taking self responsibility for my contribution to the dark side of humanity that physical takes place, although it is ignored and denied by most humans in daily life.

It is also connected to the elite in this world – people in control with money – which has a direct connection to the control that take place and that we as humanity as a whole allow and accept to exist. This control is direct visible in the inequality in this world as the unequal distribution of money and within this the unequal distribution of life-circumstances as food, water, house and education. Which we all take for granted, as this is how it is, without ever really investigating how this horrible events and situations could ever have manifested in this world. Because if we start really investigating the source of the abusive world where we live in, we come to the final point which is the source as the startingpoint of this horror story that we live in, which is:

Ourselves.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to contribute to the most horrific events of sexual abuse and physical torturing and humiliation that we can imagine – and we all know how bad our stories in our imaginantion are – by participating in an activity of energetic masturbation, in which I only experienced a feeling that I liked, and so which I wanted to repeat, without knowing and being aware of the energetic contribution that took place within this to upload the unified consiousness field and within this to the systems of control within this field; without noticing that I was oploading my own consiousness field within this activity of masturbation, loading information that we cannot even imagine but that we do imagine every day,  and accumulating and enlarging my own experience and existence in/as fear in/as the mind as consiousness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that a source outside myself was the cause of my experience of extreme fear for this ‘dark energy’ – like I am hunted by something – without seeing, realising and understanding that the source and cause is manifested within myself and accumulated and enlarged by an activity of energetic masturbation that I found out by coincidence and that I experienced as a nice feeling that I wanted to repeat, and so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to repeat and upload this energetic system within and without myself in/as the mind as the unified consiousness field existing in this world in/as humanity as a whole, where this hunting by the dark side of humanity take place in physical reality within secret parties where they play a game of hunting naked children in the dark as a form of play of sexual abuse and physical torturing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel loaded with this heavyness of/and fear all the time, my whole life at the background, without being able to relate this experience to the physical reality that I live in as this is a pretty stable physical reality from birth till now, and so I am confused by my own experiences of heavyness and fear and searching for causes outside myself and blaming every tiny little thing outside myself which I can find that maybe contribute to this experience of heavyness and fear, not seeing, realizing and understanding that within blaming, I myself contribute to this experience of heavyness and fear within myself and keep myself locked within this experience in/as the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience fear for sexuality as long as I remember, as within sexuality, this experience of this ‘dark energy’ in/as fear, can be triggered and come over me suddenly, where in I devellopped a way to be able to have and really like sexual avtivity, which is when I am excited and so actually participating within this energy, and so experiencing the ‘light’ of this energy as the polarity of the dark side, not seeing, realizing and understanding that within this participating in/as excitement in/as a positive ‘light’ experience of this sexual energy, I automaticly enlarge and reload the ‘dark side’ of this energy and so I enlarge and reload the energy systems in/as the unified consiousness field in/as the mind in/as humanity as a whole, and so I contribute to the state of the horrific situations that many children are secretely involved in within sexual abuse and physical torturing, and at the same time, I enlarge and reload my own experience of fear within sexuality, which again I tend to suppress within a feeling of excitement, which I am aware of and that I no longer can and will allow that myself, and so I experience myself a kind of stuck within and as fear for sexuality and within this, fear for relationships.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seperate myself from humanity as a whole by ignoring, denying, neglecting and suppressing the unconsiousness system within myself, and so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seperate myself from myself in/as consiousness, hiding in positivity, in which I allow and accept myself to be unable to change myself in/as self-responsibility for myself as a whole.

When and as I see and experience some dark energy as fear within and as me, I stop, I breathe. I bring myself back here in the physical through breathing and touching some physical attributes.

I realize that I experience something within myself that is part of me as consiousness system in/as fear that is triggered somewhere within myself which probably is related to sexual energy.

I commit myself to investigate what triggers me to this experience of dark energy in/as fear as the dark side of humanity, related to sexual energy.

I commit myself to stop participating in energetic sexual experiences – which I already stopped for longer time, but from which I still didnot see the real harm that it can cause, and so, I was not completely motivated to stop it in totality, which gives situations of where I could sometimes see participating in this energy ‘through the fingers’, which is actually keeping a backdoor on a narrow opening to eventual be able to participate in positive sexual energetic experiences.

I commit myself to investigate the dutch and family origin, existing within and as myself,  related to this experience of dark energy, in which rigid religic patterns play a large role, to see how this is related to (suppressed) sexual energy and to suppressing physicallity in/as sexuality as a whole.

I commit myself to investigate how the experience of complete abuse from top till toe is created and manifested within myself, which is the relation to the topic of all this blogs that I write with the frontname ‘Expressie en de Darm/Expression and the Intestine’, as this experience of complete abuse from top till toe, I experience physically within the anus and within the muscles of the large intenstine as cramping and irritation, where in I lost my ‘innocence of being’ through the decision of participating in and as energy in/as the mind as consiousness system in a moment that I donot remember by consiousness, but that is of influence on me and humanity as whole, every moment, every day, and only by taking complete self-responsibility for myself within this, I will be able to eventual stand up in/as a human being in/as innocense as life – where in I write eventual as I am not sure if I will be able to recreate a complete healthy functioning physical body as time is limited, but where in I commit myself to walk process till this is done as this is what is best for humanity, for them who are coming and for Life on Earth as a whole, and so within this for myself as a human being.

De serie Expressie en de Darm begint bij Dag 232  – (inclusief Disclaimer)

Investigate:

Shocking Secrets of Masturbation Series

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What is Sex – OverView

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www.desteni.net
Journey to Life:
7 jaar dagelijks schrijven
7 jaar dagelijks schrijven – Dag 1 – Van ziel naar Leven
http://www.facebook.com/groups/journeytolife/
video: 2012: Nothingness – The 7 year process Birthing Self as Life
De Desteni Boodschap – Wat doen we ermee?
https://ingridschaefer1.wordpress.com/2013/02/13/dag-235-de-desteni-boodschap-wat-doen-we-ermee/

Dag 295 – Expressie en de Darm – Money, Survival and Limitation

Dag 292 – Expressie en de Darm – Decision Making, Free Choice and Money

Dag 294 – Expressie en de Darm – Judgements on Living Alone

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The Soul of Money – Part 1

So let’s move on with the point of hesitation that comes up when I have to choose what to buy (see day 292).

What was it about, in the shopping mall.

It was about a plaid that I want to pull over the couch in the living room, and about the color that was not the exact colour that I was looking for, and because it was not the exact colour that I was looking for, I found the amount of money that it costs, too much. Here I lable it as too much when it is not what I am really looking for. When it was exactly what I was looking for, I would not hesitate but immediately buy it. Which shows the luxury that I live in, that I can buy a plaid if I really like it (I am talking about 14,95 euro, and in this area of amount I have luxury to choose at the moment, which is really luxury if we compare it to the large amount of population in the world who do not even have 1 proper meal a day).

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get lost in choises about a plaid and a colour of a plaid, in which I bring myself into the mind and where this choise becomes really important, as I donot want to make the ‘wrong’ choise, as I donot have the money to buy again a plaid if I choose ‘wrong’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel quilty about the luxury that I am worrying about the colour of a plaid for the couch and where I really want to make the perfect choice for a plaid looking as perfect as possible in the house.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get lost in these free choises in so many plaids and colours, and when there is not the right colour, I hesitate to buy it, where in I realize that if I would have only seen 1 plaid and 1 colour within my life with a quality that stays for a long time, I would have been fine and satisfied with buying this one plaid as it is functional for using.

So most of time I do buy things of a quality that I can use for a long time, and I buy often things second hand. I also allow myself to buy a nice colour as I like to make the house looking colourful as an expression that I enjoy to live in, which I buy within a small budget.

The point that I am bringing up here, is the point of having so much free choises where we got lost in, as there is a whole shopping mall with furnish, and there is not 1 shopping mall, there are a lot of shopping malls.

When, as I said, a large amount of the population doesnot have money to buy food to live from.

So what is the consequense of the amount of free choises that we have here living in luxury? Is it what is best for all to be able to choose out of so many furnish, one more expensive that the other, and one person having more money available than the other?

And within this, getting lost within all these free choises, and still not being satisfied when making ‘the wrong choice’. What is happening within this?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get lost in free choises in which I am used to grow up, where if I want something, I really want that specific thing and I manage to get it after searching.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be used to get what I want, which means, that I am used to have some money to spend to get what I want, within a limitation that I made for myself as being reachable, which again, is related to money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not accept a no in the mind – within a limitation that I made for myself as being reachable, which is actually a limitation in/as the mind as a no in general – in which I can say that I am spoiled by free choises in/as the mind, where in I lost myself in free choises which are related to money, and when these free choises cannot be fulfilled, I experience disappointment and lost.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience disappointment and lost when I cannot fulfil my free choises in/as the mind and to stay being busy with this emotions and feelings that I create within chasing after free choises.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to first want to fulfil my free choises to get myself in a safe area in/as fulfilment, and second want to standup for equality , instead of seeing that when living in equality as what is best for All, this includes me, as I belong to All.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to actually experience fear for poverty and for that I want to bring myself in a safe area in survival, which is what we are all doing, first taking care of our own survival without noticing what condition we all as humanity and nature live in.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having money anymore to buy some small things that I like and to do some small things that I like.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to base what I like on having money to do and to buy things.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to relate a system of judgement as liking and not liking within myself on the amount of money that I have without as outside myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not know how to live without money and so, actually to not know how to live at all/to not know what Life is.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself to the amount of money I have, and as I grew up average in this, I limit myself to being average, not even considering the possibilities beyond this limitation, but being busy with survival as getting the best choice within this limitation and within this, trying to feel the best as I can in/as energy in/as the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to keep myself busy within this limitation in/as the mind in/as survival, where I am so busy with survival and getting out the best of it, that I forget to see beyong the limitations of the mind inside msyelf and the limitations of money outside myself, in which I keep myself enslaved forever within this balancing in/as the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that living is about getting the best choise within the balance in/as the mind, not seeing that within this balance, my best is always at the cost of somebody else, instead of standing up, stopping limitations as balancing out opportunities in/as the mind, forgiving myself this balancing as a movement between polarities, to become one and equal with myself as life as what is best for all, as only when I stop polarity as inequality within myself , I can stand up as myself in oneness and equality as what is best for all.

When and as I see myself going into the mind, looking for the perfect choice, I stop, I breathe.

I realize that I go into fear for missing a chance of fulfilling myself, where in I fear the experience of lost of not being able to fulfil myself in/as the mind.

I realize that I am busy with this fulfilment to create energy as survival within the limitation of myself in/as the mind, to at least get the best out of it within the limitation of inequality.

I stop, I breathe, I bring myself here. I see with common sense if I need to buy it and if I am not sure, I see in physical reality what I need and what is the best practical choice in this, and eventual go back to buy what suits best.

I commit myself to investigate the moment that I go into survival and see what I specificaly fear behind the fulfilment, so that I can write out and forgive myself the urge for fulfilment and the fear that exist within, behind and related to this.

When and as I see myself going into fear for poverty and an experience of lost within this, I stop, I breathe.

I realize I go into fear in/as the mind within a framework of survival, to keep myself enslaved within this frameword in/as the mind and to justify this state of mind within an experience of fear.

I do no longer allow myself to use fear as a justification to keep myself enslaved within the framework in/as the mind in/as survival.

I commit myself to take care of myself by taking taking care of the job I work in and by taking care of the daily physical reality that I live in, and at the same time, equally, work and stand up for a life what is best for all life, which starts with equal money for everybody, and within myself , which starts with investigating the inequality within myself in every area, as I realize that as long as I am unequal to and as myself as life – and not even know what life is – and so who I am – without money – I am bringing forward inequality into the world.

So I commit myself to write out and forgive myself the unequal relationships as limitations that exist within myself in/as the mind, one by one, breath by breath, as the points that are coming up each day within myself which require direction, in which I use the experience of fear as a flagpoint of justification that I need to investigate.

I commit myself to give this process my all in this life, within the physical comfortability of daily practical living, as I realize I have only this one life, until a point of nothingness is reached – unlimited in/as life –  as a starting point to bring about life in/as equality as what is best for all.

De serie Expressie en de Darm begint bij Dag 232  – (inclusief Disclaimer)

DAY 1: Who I Am as Money

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Zelfeducatie waarin financiele ondersteuning voor een wereld in gelijkheid:
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Zelfeducatie free:
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www.desteni.net
Journey to Life:
7 jaar dagelijks schrijven
7 jaar dagelijks schrijven – Dag 1 – Van ziel naar Leven
http://www.facebook.com/groups/journeytolife/
video: 2012: Nothingness – The 7 year process Birthing Self as Life
De Desteni Boodschap – Wat doen we ermee?
https://ingridschaefer1.wordpress.com/2013/02/13/dag-235-de-desteni-boodschap-wat-doen-we-ermee/

Dag 294 – Expressie en de Darm – Judgements on living alone

Dag 292 – Expressie en de Darm – Decision Making, Free Choice and Money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for feeling comfortable in living alone and feeling uncomfortable in living together.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to like the idea of living together and not like the idea of living alone.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, in and as the mind, think that I need to be able to live together, without taking into consideration what mind constructs I have build around relationships that have taken place in the house while growing up and/or living together.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as not being able to live together in a house.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for liking and feeling comfortable by living alone in a house.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only be able to physically move comfortable while living alone.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience fear of really being comfortable within myself by living alone and being alone, where in the fear is that I will never start living together again because I feel so comfortable in living alone, where in I note that being comfortable and ‘feeling’ comfortable are two different states of being, as really being comfortable is physical being comfortable as myself, and feeling comfortable is more like being in the comfortzone in/as the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to base the idea of not liking the living alone on how this is brought forward as an image into society.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as pathetic for living alone and being 40.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as strong and independent for living alone most of time, and being able to manage within this.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing strength and independency while living together.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to really like living together with animals – preferable a lot, which is not able because of money and work – more than I like living together with human.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge msyelf for being more comfortable by living together with animals than by living together with human.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get lost within my own reactions as systems while living together with a human and for this, prefer living alone.

When and as I see myself going into judgements on me living alone at the moment, I stop, I breathe.

I realize that I go into judgement again, no matter what the situation is that I live in, me as the mind will find a judgement anyway.

I realize that it doesnot really matter if I live alone or together at the moment, as I have made the decision to live alone at the moment and walk process within this situation, which is a decision that I can only walk if I stand up in this decision.

I realize that living alone at the moment, does not mean that I have to live alone my whole life from now on, and living alone does also not mean that I cannot start a relationship walking towards equality , and starting a relationship walking towards equality does not mean that I cannot live alone anymore.

I realize I need time to walk process and to become more stable within myself to stay stable when being and/or living with other human beings. And this is what I created for myself, time and a place to walk process. If I donot allow myself to be and become comfortable within this situation of living alone, I can also not be and become comfortable while living and/or being together.

I commit myself to allow myself to be and become really comfortable within my own physical body within living alone and standing alone. And this point of comfortability within my physical body while living and standing alone, will be a starting point of seeing as a real decision of what situation I want to live in after several time, with regards to the practical possibilities and life circumstances in that moment.

Animal’s Life Review Series

De serie Expressie en de Darm begint bij Dag 232  – (inclusief Disclaimer)

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