Dag 777 – Future projections and what I find behind it

Here I am sitting behind my computer on writing day 777 and I do not have a subject to write about. I do see how my mind goes into future-projections almost automaticely and me following up on this and only when I bring myself here with clear words of common sense, like ‘hey, this has all nothing to do with what I am doing in this moment and where I am’. So let’s do some self-forgiveness on this fenomene of future-projections, as I see myself often going into this in several ways.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into future projections as scenario’s that may take place in the future, as well in positive scenario’s as in negative scenario’s, where in I see that I do it as a way to distract myself from where I am at the moment, in time and space.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use future projections as a way to experience something inside myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to keep myself occupied within creating experiences inside myself, connected to future-projections that I make up in my mind, that may be realistic, however,  it doesnot make sense to use it different or more or other than as a practical guideline for myself and my life in what I would like to live and create and what is realistic and practical within this and for the rest, it only functions as a distraction in/as the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use future projections to not admit that I am actually participating in a fear of that what I want or prefer to happen in the future, to not take place.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make myself feeling better than who I am and what I do in the moment, right now, by going into future projections that I would like to take place or happen in my life, as if where I am, who I am and what I do right now, is ‘not enough’ or not good enough.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to never really be with my body and what happens within it because of going and being into all kind of scenario’s in and as my mind, related to the future or past, on long term or on short term, however, never really and fully being here in and as my physical body, as if this is not already enough to be with and as, as if the whole universum is not already taking place within and as all the organic functional processes in and as the universum of my physical body and myself within.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and have separated myself from myself in and as my physical body and actually let my body do the constant working, without really seeing and understanding what and how my body do this.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel or have felt so much alone because I have separated myself from myself as life in and as my physical body and so, separated from the life in and as my physical body itself, by always wanting more and looking for more and somewhere else outside, in and as the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to speak about projections, without really seeing, realizing and understanding how much I participate in future projections in and as myself.

When and as I see myself going into a future projection, I stop and breathe. I realize that I am going out of the moment and out of my body and shifting in and as the mind into a place where I assume that it may be better, in which I only make it impossible for myself to calm myself down or to be realistic with and as myself, because I do not see what it is that I shift away from and what makes me do so. I commit myself to take an inbreathe and stop, breathe out and bring myself here and look into and define what emotions I try to get away from and what I prefer to shift towards and from here, find a word that I can support myself with to live this ‘what I try to shift towards’ as an expression, right here and now, in and as myself as where I am at the moment in space, time and process.

In this way I will enable myself to make peace with myself in who I am and where I am in every moment of the process I walk and only in this way, enable myself to forgive and change myself into an expression in and as self-support and without the need to think or believe that ‘I miss out‘ on something ‘out there’ as where the mind is trying to distract me towards and away from myself.


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Dag 716 – 4. Understanding the obsession

This blog is related to record 4: Understanding the obsession

For context and playlist see: Dag 710 – Reflection on the years of fertility

The self-forgiveness are written as if it is happening in current time, however it are self-forgiveness on a pattern that I am reflecting back on and now taking responsibility for.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not really see realize and understand how ‘a biological clock ticking’ consists of an obsession but more believe that it is real and that it is okay to live this out because it is part of myself (as a biological programming as a human in/as a female body but that I was not aware of during that time).

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow myself to live out a part of my biological programming without considering that this programming is not who I really am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to excuse my obsessive behaviour with the fact that the ‘biological clock’ – as a limited period of time where in reproduction is possible – is part of how the human physical body is functioning in it’s part of reproduction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow myself to become obsessive because of not taking responsibility for my thoughts, emotions and feelings that are related coming up to relationships and reproduction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to because of my thoughts, emotions and feelings coming up within me, related to relationships and reproduction, to actually ‘follow up’ these thoughts, emotions and feelings with actions without considering that what I am following up on in myself, is not really who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to completely scare myself and create panic within believing that I should have a child and for having a child, I need a relationship and if I cannot find a relationship, then I should look for other ways to have and raise a child of myself and so within this belief, not taking responsibility for this belief in itself and for who I am within and thus, creating and participating in, living in and as this obsession.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make an obsession of myself and my life without really, seeing, realizingnand understanding what I am doing to myself as life and life as a whole.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not have seen the reproduction cycle clearly for what it is as a  practical and physical system of bringing forward life which brings a huge responsibility to educate and walk with this new life until it is able to stand in and as itself as a responsible, living being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have approached the bringing forward of a new life without seeing the total responsibility in it but more have experienced it as ‘something that I would like to experience’ and so, from a starting-point of self-interest to feed myself from with experiences, which in itself is what an obsession is: longing for an experience with the purpose of wanting to experience the fulfillment of the experience itself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that the cycle of reprodution is what ‘life’ is about and what ‘life’ is, instead of realizing, seeing and understanding that the reproduction system and the cycle that it is functioning in and as, is the system that brings forward new life but it is not ‘life’ itself.

When and as I see myself having a desire and see myself ‘longing for an experiemce, I stop and breathe.

I realize that I have channeled a part of myself in this desire in and as the furure as something that I need to reach and ‘reach out for’ and because of channeling myself in this desire (in the future, because a desire is projected in the future), I am not completely here within and as myself and so, I am missing a part of myself where in I actually ‘desire’ this part of myself in a way to become whole with, or I am ‘longing for’ this part of myself to unite myself with and as and because it is channeled in a particular thought or experience, created as an projected idea in the future, I follow this desire.

I commit myself to forgive myself for misunderstanding my motivation for my ‘desire’ and the energetic experiences that I generate out of this projected idea as desire.

I commit myself to stop the ‘obsession of longing for an experience of wanting to experience the fulfillment of the experience itself. I commit myself to take responsibility for what I desire and to see what I have projected that is real as ‘me’ within this desire and bring myself back here.

I commit myself to support myself with bringing myself back here with the support of finding a word that I can live here as myself in the moment.

I commit myself to redefine the word desire and make it a word that contains a practical self-support.

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Dag 714 – 3. Obsession

This blog is related to record 3: Obsession

For context and playlist see: Dag 710 – Reflection on the years of fertility

The self-forgiveness are written as if it is happening in current time, however it are self-forgiveness on a pattern that I am reflecting back on and now taking responsibility for.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to become become pregnant without considering everything that it entails, what it entails to guide a child and walk with it through the system and thinking and believing that I would walk this when it is here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to play with the possibility to become pregnant and to ‘let it be decided’ through creating situations with a ‘risk’ as possibility to become pregnant instead of making a clear decision within and as myself of how to walk this and take direction and responsibility in this, for and as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, through not taking responsibility for myself within my thoughts, feelings and emotions, let a ‘desire’ become an obsession in which I allow myself to ‘follow’ this obsession and bring it into reality through living and following up on my thoughts, feelings and emotions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be aware of me living an obsession.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to see that I live an obsession because I do not want to let go of the desire and because I fear that my desire will not become a reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that my desire will not become a reality and so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge it if and when my desire will not become a reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like not being able to direct myself when and as I have to let go of my desire and so, use the desire as a direction of, within and as my life and so, making a living obsession of it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I make it so much harder for myself to let go of the desire because I have used it as direction in/as my life and so, it feels like not having any direction if and when I am not living/following this desire and so, feeling like ‘I would die’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like I would die if and when I let go of my desire, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that I am not living at all within following my desire but instead, following my mind as thoughts, feelings and emotions that brings me further and further away from who I am, here as breath as a living being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to slowly let myself ‘die’ and loose my capacity of breathing and being here, by following my desire that I build up in thoughts, feelings and emotions and believing them to be real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like not being able to think within and as my mind that I should ‘take this possibility’ that is laying within the years of fertility and if I would not, feel like I would miss out on something and through this, making an obsession of it and not being able anymore to see with common sense what my real possibilities are within the physical stae and situation that I live in.

When and as I see a desire coming up within myself, I stop and breathe. I realize that this desire can entail a possibility, however for this to become real, I have to consider and investigate all dimensions and participants (including myself) that are involved and only from here, see through time what direction does suite best for myself as a physical living being and from her, will suite other phyisical living beings in the best possible way because in essence, we are connected and one as life and one life considering life, will consider all life in essence and if we all learen to do the same, no one will be left behind. I commit myself to slow myself down and look at all the aspects that are involved and take time to do so, to investigate every aspect and participant that I see included within my ‘desire’ and here, forgive myself for emotional and feeling attachements and investigate where these are coming from, what believes I have ‘taken on as real’ in this that I also forgive as a thought existing within me and from here, find a word for myself that I can ‘breathe in’ and follow, redefine and live this as a guideline to live what is best for me, for the aspects involved and for possible other participants, representing ‘life as a whole’.

When and as I see myself participating in a desire that I project in the future, I stop and breathe. I realize that I am think and believe that what I desire and project, should be better than what I live here in the moment within my physical reality where in I actually think and believe that me following thoughts, feelings and emotions is better than me breathing here in my physical body and take on the tasks that are in front of me. I also realize that I ‘fear’ that I will not ever ‘reach’ that what I desire where in I actually judge if and when I would not ever ‘reach’ that what I desire. I commit myself to bring myself back here and to put a hold on me following a desire and forgive the judgements in not ‘reaching’ this, to breathe and pick up what needs to be done today and to create a timeline with that what I would like to create for myself within consideration of my physical situation, condition and abilities and I commit myself to make peace with the facts that are not within my physical reality or even possibilities and to focus on that what I see that I am able to live and create, step by step, day by day, one with me as what I stand for in principle and at the same time, being open for adaptations and changes in direction that may come forward as a best way to move on for myself and others in this life as this physical reality.

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Dag 633 – Migration – Is there a long-term and lasting solution?

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There are many aspects of migration from human beings from one country to another that can be investigated. A situation that most takes place is that in countries where there are more opportunities to build a decent life; people will migrate to these countries from other countries where there is less to none opportunity to build a decent life for oneself and their family.

Within the countries that are more opportunities, many people react more or less to migrants coming in. Here it is already a flag-point for oneself, that if one react to people coming to the country one lives in, there is fear involved as how the reaction is showing. Why fear?

Basicely we fear for ourselves that we do not have enough money (to buy food and water, housing, health-care, education) to live from. Basicely we fear that we physically will not be able to live and if more people are coming in, there is less to divide, as a simple calculation that we have learned at school.

What we did not learn at school is to see into solutions of how to live with limited resources here on earth and how to co-operate within this from a point of what is best for all, which can be applied within the principle of ‘give as you would like to receive’. It is teached to some of us from a religious point, however there are important missing links in the religious teachings of Jesus as how it is brought into this world and so, many turn their back on the basic living principles that are mentioned within but that are not of any count on long term as what is best for all, as long as there is not a total insight in ourselves and the world-system in who we are and how we are living under the influence of the religious illusion of God/The Mind/Self-Interest in relation to Money.

So, we can state here that we have learned what the problem is (limited recources that when devided with more people, one will have less) without being educated to find and apply solutions that are best for all. So we are educated from a point of fear because a problem without solution, gives and/or confirms the experience of fear within ourselves.

Fear is not a good adviser. But we all believe that we have to live from this starting-point of fear because that is how we are educated from a very young age, from birth. And this is how we are controled within ourselves, by ourselves in/as fear and by the money-system that is build from this point of fear, to create friction and conflict that is obviously coming forward when one has to divide limited recources from a point of fear that ‘one has less when things have to be divided with more’ without being teached how to live within equality and oneness, meaning to divide all that we have from a point of co-operation in consideration and support of all live on earth.

We can discuss this very widely, however everyone knows that this is the situation that we are living in at the moment. And it is only getting worse. So we all do see the problem.

From here, when we look into this question: is it a long-term solution that is best for all living beings here on earth, to react to migration and become angry at the ones who try to move to another country because there might be some better circumstances to build a life there? Here we do neither need to discuss the answer widely because here also everyone can answer this very quickly for oneself: no it is not a long term solution that is best for all life here on earth. It is based on fear of having too little and actually based on fear of others (projected on the migrants) taking everything and ‘taking over’, as this is how we have learned what will happen from a starting-point of fear.

Here we come back to the basic-line that we are not well educated from birth of how to live practically on earth with limited recourses in a way that is best for all. We only learned how to ‘get what you can get and/or protect what one has because there is not enough and otherwise others will take it’. Where we know that the ‘others’ are also teached to get what you can get and/or protect what one has because otherwise others will take it. And this is deeply ingrained within ourselves, within and as the mind consciousness system and it is deeply ingrained in how the world-system/money-system is set up.

So yes, we can state that we do have a problem. But that does not mean that there is no solution possible that is long-term and best for all.

The solution is not to be find instantly. As we see how we are educated over years and this for generations long, one can imagine that it also takes years to change this within ourselves and within the world. And the first step in this can be to see in our own reactions of fear towards people coming to your country – ‘your country’ as the country that one is born in/living in’ as it is not ‘your ownership’ that no other has access to. It is a strange thing actually that people have to move from one country to another because it is not livible in the country that one is born/living in. It is unacceptable.

So a solution that is long-term and best for all, will be to make it livible for all inhabitants in every country and to exchange recourses with other countries to come to the best possible basic-needs to create a dignified life for all on earth. Here, again, every one can see in common sense that this is the only long-term and lasting solution that is best for all and that in the end, will stop the fear of ‘not having enough and/or having less than others/others taking over the access to the recourses’. A long term solution will be to give as we would like to receive and this applied by all/most of us.

We do all see this but most do not see how to come to a long-term and lasting solution that is best for all and so we give up before we even start to investigate and apply the very small steps that are needed to eventually, make a change in this world in how we exist. And true, there is so much hold in control within the world-system as how it is set up and from here, accepted and allowed to exist by every human being, that it seems impossible to change. In fact the control of the resources has been taken over long time ago. And from here, it seems better to ‘make the best of it’ with what one have and protect this the best possible way for oneself and ones siblings and some others nearby, under this state of control.

Here I suggest to start with stopping the fear, the resistance, the reactions in oneself and to investigate where these reactions are actually coming from. This is the ‘control’ that one can start investigating, within oneself.  From a starting-point of fear we will not be able to find solutions. There is a part of the fear that is reality-based – as we do live with limited recourses and how the world exists today, we can be sure that we will not receive our ‘equal share’ so to speak. There is also a non-realistic-part and/or a part based on future-projections and “what-if statements” where we only take ourselves in consideration in a lot of things that we actually do not directly need physically but that we do not want to ‘loose’ and share with others. And so here, we are ‘to be feared by others’ because we are not/no longer willing to live as what is best for all and give what we would like to receive ourselves. So self-honest self-introspection, self-forgiveness and self-change is definitely needed here.

If we all do what is within our ability in this, within ourselves and/or without in the system, in the positions that we are living in and within the area that we do have an influence on, this will already support with creating a ripple-effect to stand up for a world that does no longer need migration from a point of survival and where eventually, migration can become an expansion and sharing of different cultures where we will be welcomed in another country. Wouldn’t that be a great way to exist, live and share?

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Dag 379 – Sexual Desire

I see in myself how I keep myself believing in illusions, just to keep myself satisfied, out of a fear that I will become overwhelmed with desire. In this case, sexual desire, related to the fear of ‘staying alone my whole life’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to keep myself believing in the illusion of already having met the perfect sexual partner, and having experienced the perfect sexual interaction, and for this, being satisfied, eventual for my whole life, just in case that I will stay alone for my whole life, which by the way, is that one calls a sign of having met your soulmate, where in you will be ready to stay alone the rest fo your life, even if the ‘soulmate’ is not ready to live with you.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to protect myself in and as a believe of having already met the perfect sexual partner and have been physical intimate with him, to keep myself satisfied, not seeing, realizing and understanding that within and as this believe, I suppress myself in and as my own potential and will to physically share with a real partner and not one in a memory and within this, I suppress my potential and will to explore my physical sexuality equal as the physical, in and as a mutual physical support.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that within this suppression, I suppress and compromise my whole physical expression in and as myself, no matter if there is a partner or not.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to become overwhelmed by sexual desire and not having a physical partner to explore this with.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel to stay alone my whole life and within this, having no chance to explore the physical intimicy with a partner.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place physical intimicy with a partner above self-intimicy in and as my own physical, standing alone with and as myself no matter what.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compromise life in and as myself, and within this, compromising the life of others as life in general, just because of fear of staying alone my whole life and not being able to be physical intimate with a male as a partner.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I would be able to be physical intimate without standing in and as myself as self-support, and within this, standing in and as an eventual support for the partner.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate sexuality from being self-intimate in and as my own physical, and so within this, make sexuality an energetic experience, separated from my own physicality in and as myself in self-intimicy, and so within this, create my own desire for fulfillment in and as this energetic experience of sexuality.

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When and as I see myself going into a memory as believe in having already been physical intimate with the perfect sexual partner, I stop, I breathe.

I realize that I supress as protect myself from an experience as believe inside myself of missing out on something in and as a sexual desire.

I commit myself to in the moment, investigate what it and why it is that in that specific moment, I want to protect myself for in and as a memory of sexual satisfaction, to see, self-forgive and self-correct the believe in the illusion that exists in me.

When and as I see myself going into an overwhelming sexual desire of being physical with a male as a partner, I stop, I breathe.

I realize that I desire an energy in and as myself as fulfillment, and so, there is a seperation inside myself that I need to fulfill with energy.

I commit myself to investigate what seperation exist in me in and as the mind, in and as a believe of what should be, related to relationships and sexuality.

When and as I see myself going into fear of being alone my while life, I stop, I breathe.

I realize I go into future projection in and as the mind.

I realize I might participate in and as a startingpoint of being alone as loneliness in and as the mind, and so I need to investigate what startingpoint as assumption or believe I participate in, with regards to the illusions as desires of relationships and sexual fulfillment.

I realize that if I fear to stay alone for the rest of my life, it also means that I fear the opposite as to stay together and give up myself as I know myself in this in and as self-interest, and for fearing this, I decide to stay alone as lonely, so actually I might fear my own misinterpretations as protection mechanism as control in and as the mind, to keep me prison in and as isolation, in and as the mind.

I commit myself to investigate the starting point of being alone, interpretated as loneliness, in and as assumprion or believe I participate in with regards to the illusions as desires of relationships and sexual fulfillment, which I use as a protectionmechanism.

I commit myself to investigate what it specific is that I protect in and as self-interest, in and as a decision in and as the mind to stay alone as lonely.

I commit myself to everytime bring myself back to reality in and as the realization that I always stay alone in and as myself, no matter if there is a male as a physical partner, and to investigate what it is that I hold on to in and as a systemized fear, in and as a believe, assumption or misinterpretation, that makes me go into separation as illusion within this.

I commit myself to investigate the points where in I am not staying alone in and as self-support, and instead of this wanting to fulfill myself with energy in/as a relationship in and as the mind.

I commit myself to give myself time in this and be patience in this with and as myself, to give myself the chance to really stand up alone, in and as self-intimicy, and walk this point effectively in and as myself, as I realize that I never was able to make a real decision as starting-point in and as self-will to eventual start a partnership, because of not being clear in my stand in and as myself, and within this, creating many relationships and break-ups as distraction in and as the mind, which manifested physically in and as constriction.

I commit myself to be and become comfortable with and as myself as physical equal as sexual and apply this in and as physical masturbation, and within this, stop the eventual sexual desires as energetic experiences that may come up, to be and become here, in and as acceptance of my own physicality.

Related article in Dutch about physicality as sexuality:

Full life review my life of co dependency

Life Review – My life of Co-Dependency

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Dag 374 – How Every Breath Counts

Dag 375 – The gift of Life by Roos – preference and ignorance

Dag 376 – Ignorance and preference – self-corrective statements

Dag 377 – The gift of Life by Roos – knowledge and information

Dag 378 – Loneliness-1

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www.lite.desteniiprocess.com  GRATIS ONLINE CURSUS MET BUDDY
Proces van relatie naar agreement:
www.desteniiprocess.com/courses/relationships
Zelfeducatie free:
www.eqafe.com/free
www.desteni.net
www.desteni.org
Journey to Life:
7 jaar dagelijks schrijven
7 jaar dagelijks schrijven – Dag 1 – Van ziel naar Leven
http://www.facebook.com/groups/journeytolife/
video: 2012: Nothingness – The 7 year process Birthing Self as Life
De Desteni Boodschap – Wat doen we ermee?:
https://ingridschaefer1.wordpress.com/2013/02/13/dag-235-de-desteni-boodschap-wat-doen-we-ermee/
Zelfvergeving als Toegift aan jeZelf:
https://ingridschaefer1.wordpress.com/2013/05/20/dag-299-zelfvergeving-als-toegift-aan-jezelf/