Dag 672 – My body-being-mind awareness speaking

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I have asked for an individualised interview through the Portal with my physical body and especially with my large intestine, so that I can understand more what is going on within my physical body and use symptoms as support for myself to walk through certain patterns within the mind consciousness system in/as myself.

“My large intestine is speaking in the fore-ground but my whole mind-being-body awareness on a very deep level comes through to explain how this interrelated connection is set up within/as me. All my organs are under pressure in different ways and this has been so for most of my life because of the emotional suppressed transferences.”

“Each time I access an emotion or feeling this gets discharged, channeled, layered, stored in the physical body. Within most people, the emotional and feeling energy gets channeled through the ‘muscle energy highways’ through the muscles and through the veins of the physical body. So for most people the mind consciousness energy moves through the muscles. This is so because the muscle tissue is strong and more absorbant, detailed and specific in its structure and geomatry to absorb, channel, discharge, layer, move the mind-consciousness energy as one access it in real time moments. Like networks and train-tracks in the muscle tissue group of the physical body.”

“Within my physical body, my mind did not set up my emotional and feeling energy bodies movements and channeling and networking and absorbtion through the muscle groups but through the organs. The heart, intestines, stomach, bladder, kidneys, liver are doing the work that the rest of my body should actually be doing. It is a generational thing, meaning that there are some people within my past generations who have also had this problem. It is not life threathening and it allowed me to on an early age have an awareness of my emotional and feeling energy and where in I do get emotional but not allow myself to be too much overwhelmed or pulled into emotions and feelings, but am quickly able to slow myself down and look at things with clarity.  So this one could call a ‘gift in disguise’.”

“The physical consequense of this ‘set up’ is that my organs have been most of my life a bit under pressure –  but throughout my life, my body reasonably adapted; it strengthened my intestines, heart, organs. As explained has my muscle tissue not been used as a ‘muscle energy highway’ and because of not being used for this, the muscle tissue deteriorated to some degree; this because a lot of muscle development has been preprogrammed to be in line with the development and evolution of the mind where the muscles are normally be used by the mind consciousness system (and so ‘strengthening’ in a way). This is causing for the rest of my muscles and physical body to be and feel more ‘weak’ or less strong.”

This first part of the interview is clarifying a lot of what I am walking from about the age of 16 (I am 42, almost 43 at the moment). I have taken on everything I could to investigate and support my organs, all related within the area of natural medicine and I am still working in this environment. I did not know of this set up as how it is described within the interview. But I did notice that ‘something was not as how it should be’ when I looked at my physical condition and this in relation to my life in general. I did find out pretty early that certain organ manifestations were related to emotional experiences and I noticed in some degree the suppression there of within myself; I also found out later in life that feeling experiences influenced me physically very much so I could not allow myself to really dive into feelings as for example are coming up in a so called ‘love relationship’ as I could phycically not handle the energy within my body for let’s say more than a week. So I often was within situations where I or the other stopped this relationship-process somehow. Which in itself I saw as a pattern and that bothered me a lot, because I did not really nor completely understand how I could support myself through.

With the natural medicine and food alignments I have through the years found ways to support, strengthen and stabilize my organs more or less (where in my physical condition and some organs had been weakened pretty much in my late twenties and begin thirties) but during this I noticed that there was a mind-influence that I could not get a hold on and so, the physical support is only ‘working’ to some degree. I did see a direct relation with symptoms within my organs and what I did not understood, is how I could have so much physical influence of my mind and others not, while of course I have my emotional patterns as everyone else, but I did not see them as so much more extensive than others, but sometimes started to believe that they are in someway. So this is all creating extra energy again of reacting to what happens within my body without really understanding how it works. Which is influencing my organs again, etc.

I do see now why I saw the mind-body relationship direclty within myself. I did not understand how it could not be recognized by many others because within myself, it was obvious existing. I do now understand how this can be set up differently. Standing up and finding solutions for what we sense in a way, is however another story. I can describe it now as that I need my own beingness-direction here and I can only find myself within and while walking through the mind and learn how I have manifested this within my physical body. We all have things within ourselves that we do ‘sense’ but cannot see completely by ourself alone. The information given within this interview is one example of this. I do need support in this and so has everyone points where support from others is needed.

When I started walking the Desteni I Process, I noticed to have finally found a structure and support to really get to know and support myself within this trinity of the mind-being-body relationship and I continue walking this until it is done, for myself and others. But only now with the information of my mind-being-body awareness itself on a very deep level through the Portal, I do understand why I physically experience myself as how I do. It supports me to accept the physical consequenses and I do no longer need to ‘blame’ myself for it – something that I could not really forgive myself for because I did not really understand the set up within my body and how it is related to my physical condition and mind patterns.

So, I have a new starting-point to walk from now within this mind-being-body interconnectedness; things that I could not really place into context are opening up and I am grateful for this – where in my organs will be of support to walk through different personality systems. In the second part of the interview, the large intestine is giving more detailed information of personality systems related to this organ, which is something that I need to take on at the moment. I will not expand on this here as it is something that I first need to investigate, forgive and walk through for myself.

At the same time I will move on with the physical support and alignment as how I have learned myself to do throughout the years as a physical basic-platform. I do no longer need to worry about why my muscles are not really building up but will see if I can keep them stable and in form as they are and how I am already doing, to keep on walking my life and process in/as the physical on earth.

So for whomever is having questions that you would like to see clarified as a support to understand (and so forgive) yourself and your physical body, I can really suggest an individualised or private interview through the Portal. This combined with walking the Desteni I Process as self-support to start walking with and through your mind, into the physical body. As a way to start walking towards and standing up in oneness and equality with and as Life as a whole.

And to learn that we are able to support ourselves and each other within this, that we are able to change within and as ourselves to what is best for all, slowly, together yet alone, alone yet together, if we are willing to do so. The ones who are reading this blog, are most likely belonging to the group of people that do have the possibility to already start, this with regards to our position in this world and related to money and basic needs providence.

I find it the greatest gift to learn how to support myself and stand together with others within this. Will it be challenging? Yes. For sure. For myself I can say, it is as challenging as what I had to walk before, alone with myself and only a few others and it is only getting better while I understand more and more of myself and because of walking with already many others around the world who have made the same decission to do so. Within this I am an example that one is able to face oneself within one’s emotions without getting lost in it. I have faced pretty much of it and still need to open up all the things I have suppressed. A process that my organs will support me with.

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Dag 590 – The mind-body relationship – Self-limitation

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Since a few weeks I am looking into a decision to start a project at work where some coaching of a student is involved, this on request of a young student. It is new so it takes some time to investigate all the possibilities and official requirements. After considering and discussing the possibilities, I still tend to not step in, I have reasons for this and the reasons are subscribed within the conversations with colleques. However, the student does not agree with this stand and actually, when I look deep into myself, I also do not agree with myself on this stand. So I hesitate but still round it off in conversations, however within my head, it is not round off, no matter how much reasonable subscriptions I find within myself.

I recognize this pattern because I have written/am still writing a whole mind-construct about this pattern of ‘subscribing my decisions with reasons and justifications’ and walking the correction on paper and in real time (related to a different subject). So after the final conversation to round it off, I sink within myself and feel very shitty about the situation. The decision that I have made, is not best for everyone and so, also not best for me. It hurts. I hurt myself in this (and perhaps I have hurted another, however that is not to me to conclude). What I do know and experience is that I hurt myself. Not in an emotional way, but in a way of seeing that my decision and action is limiting myself in my expansion and from here, I can be sure it is of influence and limitation on another in their expansion.

To correct this, I have to make phonecalls, first to get some more information and second to discuss if I can reconsider my decision. Within this, I have to admit that I hesitate and that I was not sure about myself in/as my decision and I have to show this to the ones that I call. Here in is the risk that they do not ‘take me serious anymore’ because I hesitate too much, however then the door will yet close. This is not the case. The one who has to make some official arrangements is willing to re-open the case and after this, the situation will be fast arranged. He asks for my motivation, I describe this the best I can and he agrees with me. And that is that.

Here I go immediately to living the correction because I have walked the writing and self-forgiveness of this construct already extensively as I mentioned in writing out a whole mind-construct with the support of a buddy and I basicely/already see the mind-construct playing out within myself in/as the mind; I have taken the time to investigate and discussed the possibilities within this current situation, I have first established a stable situation at work during the last weeks and I have seen within myself that I am able to direct this situation and to (learn to) apply some coaching activities together with a collegue who is also willing to do so.

My physical experiences in this whole event are as follows:

When I finally ‘round off’ in a way where in I did not consider for everyone what is best, I started to sink more and more in my body towards an experience of paralysing. I notice that it is a state that I did not enter for quite some time, which is an indication for me that lately I am pretty much moving myself in agreement with myself in consideration of all members as what is best (which I can check within myself by seeing if I apply that which I am able to at my utmost potential for this moment/in the stage where I am). I directly notice again how limiting it is to not do so and how within not moving myself as what is best, is influencing myself in every area of my life. Because if I am not standing in and as this starting-point of considering all living beings involved and applying that what I am able to, then who am I to ask such a thing from another. And here, I will allow myself to hold back, because otherwise I would not live what I speak. I cannot speak/ask to do what is best/what one is able to and not do it myself. So basicely I bring down myself in every aspect of what I actually decide to stand for and as and within this, feeling unworthy to speak up.

From here I become emotional and easily ‘swept away’. I become depressed and feel the pressure of the emotions around the heart-area which influences the left-upper corner of the large intestine, in the area of the spleen and heart. (In the iridology there is a line that they call the ‘splean-heart line’ where in the relation between the spleen/digestion and heart is noticed as of influence on each other). A deep cry comes out of my chest-area and then it becomes more quite inside myself and I decide to place the correction in and as a living action.

After correcting myself in the living action and actually already after making this decision to do so, the depression and paralysing immediately start decreasing and after a while, I notice some warmth and better circulation around the heart-area in a way that I did not have before. This area always feels ‘harmed’ and constricted and now there is coming some warmth in it which feels physically great, as a release. I did not specificely know/see how it was related to this self-limitation of not doing what is best and how not doing what is best, actually is the self-limitation in Itself.

Why did I not do this immediately? Because of fear of not being able to direct the situation; out of fear to take the lead as responsibility for and as this situation and out of fear of it all ‘being too much’ for me together with other responsibilities and fear to physically collaps within this.

I noticed from the beginning that I am the ‘decisioning-factor’ in this, and that I hold and determine the outcome and the direction is my responsibility within the situation that I bring this new element into; I cannot allow to influence this ‘new element’ in a so to speak ‘negative’ way within and as the situation that I work in within the system. So, I have to stand in and as self-trust, meaning enough trust to direct the situation, otherwise it doesn’t make sense to make a decision purely based on knowledge and information ‘as what is best’, as this holds the risk of over-estimating myself which in the end, is not best for all involved but more a ‘risk’ to everyone involved, including myself and the working-area.

It seems such a small example which is of influence on one being and we easily ‘sweep away’ the importance of this influence with reasons and justifications in/as the mind. However, every one needs someone who is reaching out and making some arrangements possible, to learn and expand oneself in. It is not so easy these days to make a living in the system, to find a place to develop oneself. This is the main motivation for me to step in, because what I have seen is that if I am not doing this, this opportunity will close off, for both of us. That doesn’t mean that the life of another and/or myself is dependent on only my/this decision as we all have our own self-responsibility and ability to forgive and correct ourselves and make decisions again and other doors will open, however this one opportunity is here.

There is still a better warming circulation in the left-area which moves on to my left-shoulder and left-arm. The situation has to be directed from now after receiving a respons from the student.

Within this I have to mention that I have some physical support from a ‘remedy’ that is alligned with the current state of my body that is coming from a bio-resonance consult that (together with other symptoms) showed how the heart-area was affected in it’s circulation. This alligned remedy is bringing my body-functions into a state of rebalancing and movement where in it can recorrect itself, so my body in itself is of support at the moment. However I have to see, investigate, forgive, correct and change the mind-constructs in real time, to establish a correction that is lasting for and as myself, in and as my physical body.

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Dag 340 – Een bepaalde toon in de stem – vervolg

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Dag 339 – Een bepaalde toon in de stem

Als ik mezelf zie en voel reageren op een bepaalde toon in de stem van moeder of een ander, dan stop ik, ik adem.

Ik realiseer me dat ik reageer op een bepaalde toon in en als herinnering, in een reactie van verongelijking.

Ik realiseer me dat als ik me in een reactie van verongelijking bevind, ik ongelijk sta als mezelf in gezond verstand, en ik dus niet werkelijk met gezond verstand in de situatie kan zien.

Ik realiseer me dat ik eerst mijn reactie dient te stoppen voordat ik zelf gezond verstand kan toepassen en werkelijk kan zien in welke mate er wel of geen gezond verstand wordt toegepast door moeder/de ander buiten mij en door mijzelf.

Ik zie tevens in mezelf dat ik weerstand ervaar om moeder en/of de ander waarvan ik zie dat er geen gezond verstand wordt toegepast, te ondersteunen. En ik dus een weerstand opgooi en zelf in en als reactie verdwijn, waarin ik mijn zelfverantwoordelijkheid wegleg, ik zelf dus geen verantwoordelijkheid neem voor mezelf in en als reactie waardoor ik geen verantwoordelijkheid hoef te nemen in en als ondersteuning van moeder-een ander wezen buiten mij.

Ik vergeef mezelf dat ik mezelf toegestaan en aanvaard heb geen ondersteuning in gezond verstand te willen toepassen op het moment dat ik een bepaalde toon hoor in de stem, en ik de bepaalde toon in de stem van moeder-een ander buiten mij, laat bepalen – en dus als excuus gebruik van hoe ik me gedraag en wie ik ben, en dus mijn zelfverantwoordelijkheid afdraag, overgeef aan moeder-de ander buiten mij aan wie de stem toebehoort, wat natuurlijk opnieuw reactie met zich mee brengt, in mezelf en in de ander, en er constant conflictcreatie aanwezig is.

Ik vergeef mezelf dat ik mezelf toegestaan en aanvaard heb te weigeren om moeder te ondersteunen met toepassing van gezond verstand, en haar in plaats hiervan te laten dreinen in de geest, niet ziende, realiserende en begrijpende dat ik op deze manier in gelijke mate mezelf laat dreinen in de geest.

Ik vergeef mezelf dat ik mezelf niet toegestaan en aanvaard heb mezelf als moeder-de ander, moeder-de ander als mezelf te ondersteunen, en nog steeds weerstand te ervaren om dit te doen.

Ik vergeef mezelf dat ik mezelf toegestaan en aanvaard heb het gewoon niet te willen, moeder-de ander ondersteunen, en hierin dus mijn wil bij moeder-de ander te leggen en  me af te vragen ‘wat wil je van me’ als moeder-de ander praat met een bepaalde toon in de stem, in plaats van in te zien dat ik kan doen wat ik zie in en als toepassing als gezond verstand, en ik dus feitelijk iets van mezelf wil wat ik niet toepas in het moment, waarin ik me van mezelf afscheid en mijn gedachten/backchat die hierin ontstaan, ga projecteren op moeder-een ander buiten mij.

Ik vergeef mezelf dat ik mezelf niet toegestaan en aanvaard heb mezelf te geven wat ik wil en hierin tevens nalaat de ander te geven wat die wil, en vice versa, maar in plaats hiervan in en als weerstand in en als de geest te blijven bestaan en zo conflict als frictie te creeren en energie te genereren in en als de geest ter overleving.

Ik vergeef mezelf dat ik mezelf toegestaan en aanvaard heb angst te ervaren te verdwijnen als ik geef wat ik denk dat de ander wil, in plaats van in te zien dat ik kan geven zoals ik zelf zou willen ontvangen, wil ontvangen en dus wil geven, maar waartegen ik weerstand als angst ervaar aangezien ik denk dat ik moet geven wat ik denk dat de ander wil ontvangen, en waarin ik verdwijn in de weerstand als angst als gedachten over een ander, en dus hetgeen ik bang voor
ben als angst om te verdwijnen, zelf creeer, en zo mijn eigen angst als excuus en rechtvaardiging gebruik om zelf in angst als weerstand te blijven bestaan.

Als ik mezelf zie verkeren in angst om te verdwijnen als ik geef zoals ik zou willen ontvangen als wat het beste is in en als gezond verstand, dan stop ik, ik adem.

Ik realiseer me dat ik mezelf als de ander-moeder tekort doe als ik mezelf inhoud.

ik realiseer me dat ik me in een gedachtenpatroon bevind waarin ik denk dat ik moet geven wat de ander wil ontvangen, getriggerd door een bepaalde toon in de stem.

Ik realiseer me dat ik nog een en ander heb uit te schrijven/te onderzoeken ten aanzien van de relatie met moeder in en als herinnering, waardoor ik de weerstand wil vasthouden.

Ik realiseer me dat ik moeder niet zie als ieder ander, waarin ik denk en geloof dat er iets speciaals van mij verwacht wordt, waar ik heel nerveus van word aangezien ik geen idee heb wat voor speciaals dat dan is (en ik dus nerveus wordt van mijn eigen gedachten en geloof hierin). Ik realiseer me dat dit ook niet zo is, dat dit een illusie is die gecreeerd is in de bubble die liefde wordt genoemd, waarin er een ruilhandel plaatsvindt die niet zelfoprecht en niet in gelijkheid bestaat maar welke gebaseerd is op zelfverrijking in de vorm van energie als liefde, seks en geld, in de vorm van een ‘beter voelen‘ of ‘rijker worden‘ door de aanwezigheid van de ander Waardoor ik wel wil geven, zolang ik dit ontvang, en welke zich vervormt tot en resulteert in een geven OM te ontvangen, waarin in gelijke mate een weerstand tot geven en zelfs ontvangen gecreeerd wordt afhankelijk per situatie en persoon, en dus bepaald, welke getriggerd wordt door bijvoorbeeld een bepaalde toon in de stem.

Ik stel mezelf ten doel de bubble van liefde die bestaat in zelfonoprechtheid en ongelijkheid te onderzoeken, uiteen te zetten en zelf te vergeven, adem voor adem, zodat en waarin ik mezelf in staat stel moeder als de ander als ieder ander als mezelf in gelijkheid te benaderen en antwoorden en te geven zoals ik zou willen ontvangen.

Dit is niet in 1 dag gedaan.

Het vergt training, doorzettingsvermogen, zelfinzicht, zelfvergeving en zelfcorrectie.

Het is de Reis naar Leven.

You have to Understand the Law of “Giving as you would like to Receive”, and in this – the First Step is, GIVE. – Bernard Poolman

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