Dag 772 – Equality within principle

What is coming forward in this world is how ‘intelligent’ one is for example and how we within this, are feeling ‘better’ or ‘less’ than each other and all kind of gradations and related experiences within this. I was looking at the years now walking and working together with people from the group Desteni, that within living by principle and the application of the tools to support ourself to ‘honour’ the life within each living being and align ourself with this starting-point in thought, word and deed, there is an equality coming with and within this where in ‘intelligence’ is not important and not even so much visible; actually because every one is expressing oneself at best ability at this moment, pushing oneself to live by principle and honour the life within oneself and each other.

The same I have seen within for example an education that I have followed of natural medicine. This took six years and within this six years, I have slowly get to know all the students a little more, where I was more ‘in contact’ with a few and becoming ‘friends’ with them, however in weeks we spend together to practise the natural medicine for example, each of the same class, is coming more closer together and the differences or ‘likes and dislikes’ are slowly moving to the background and the appreciation and respect for each other walking this same path, is coming through, which is a uniting force.

We can ofcourse understand that everyone is made and part of the flesh – meaning we all have a physical body – and so in this we are equal and also every human being has a mind consciousness system so in this, we are all equal in this – common sense. However, in this walking by principle within a group, it becomes really visible how this equality is coming through within the interaction and expression of each one walking alone, yet together.

In this, the principle of ‘equality and oneness’ is becoming visible in what it means in the reality of this life on earth in each of our daily lives. It is like slowly starting to see ‘through’ all the veils of separation and comparison and differences within capacity and ‘intelligence’ and moving self towards this equality, that we all do know and understand in theory, but that has never before become a living reality here on earth.

What is possible in a small group of ‘students’ or ‘co-workers’ or ‘participants’ as I have described here, is possible in a large group as well – large as in ‘humanity as a whole’. But ofcourse, there are many challenges to find solutions for, because the separation that we all experience inside (within our participation in thoughts, emotions and feelings) we have created outside as well and manifested in a system that is based on separation and inequelity as well. So there is much that needs to be taken on and this will take time and some generations to implement. But this doesnot mean that it is impossible, altough it seems like there are ‘too many problems to overcome’.

The question in this for each of us is eventually: do we want to participate? Do we want to be part of the solution and stand and work together in this – coming from a starting-point of equality and oneness, in and as life and merely, are we willing to learn what this actually means and to ‘unlearn’ that what is not effective and supportive anymore for this life to come through in each of us?

Many on earth do not have the possibility and are too much busy with surviving and ‘getting some food on the table’ (where many do not have a table to put the food on), but those who have a computer and who are able to read this, mostly have the opportunity to start investigating who we are in thought, word and deed and how to change and align oneself in this to equality and oneness, to at least start to participate and doing our best to be part of the solution, firstly inside ourself.

Within the Desteni I Process it will become more clear what this process towards ‘Life’ means and what Equality and Oneness means and can mean in our daily life. It is a free course to start with.

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Dag 611 – Cat Punching – How can we see it as a wake up call?

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#CatPunching is not an easy subject to discuss. With cat punching the abuse is so direct and clear, from a human against an animal that has no chance to get away from the physical, horrible pain of being punched on the head while being holded. Most of us humans are strongly reacting to this injustice. It has to stop.

Ofcourse it has to stop. Together with so much other abuse that takes places in this world. Abuse that we do not react to anymore. Which is quite strange actually. The hunger in many countries, the horrible conditions that animals are existing in for the meat-industry from which we buy daily in the supermarket, the wars, the killing in wars, child abuse, the destroyment of the earth; but also the small abusive moments that we accept and allow within our near relationships as manipulation, lying, gossiping, ignoring each other in the small needs and questions and so much more. It is uncountable, the abuse that we participate in on a daily base. And what most of us do not realize – because we have never been educated in this – is that within this emotional reacting inside ourselves,  activated by the pictures of the catpunching that we judge – here what happens is that we generate energy within our own mind and this generating energy is…….. a form of abuse in itself, towards our own physical body.

Everything is so integrated, suppressed and/or ignored in and as abuse towards this physical life that we do not even see what we are accepting and allowing within ourselves, within our own physical bodies and how this is interconnected to what happens outside here on earth. So we can say that we have a huge problem here in this world that needs to be changed, if we do want to stop this abuse FOR GOOD and all as for example the cat punching.

So in this light, we can see the catpunching as a wake up call. It is so direct and horrible that it is clear defined as abuse. But how does it come that the abuse in general exist on such a large scale in this world without us doing something about it? And if we do notice the abuse, then how is it possible that we are seeing ourselves as unable to stop the abuse in this world where from experiencing this emotion of disempowerment and injustice, we start reacting to it?

We need so many new or actually re-definitions of what we accept and allow and what not in this world. Because at the moment there is so much abuse existing – where we can describe abuse as ‘inequality’, meaning the reality of ‘having more than another who has bearly nothing’ and the believe that from having more, we ‘are of more value’ while such a large part of the population in this world, did not have a chance to make a difference with their lives because they are every day forced to fight for their lifes and for something to eat. With regards to the animals, they are not able to speak for themselves in a language that we as humen clearly understand and so again, because we do not hear them, we do not take care of them and because they do not have money, they cannot ‘buy’ their rights so to speak.

Did you ever had such a horrible picture coming up in your head when carrying a very vulnerable, small animal that is totally dependent on you and that can easily be breaked down and from here, there is this one second with a thought coming up – and from here quickly suppressed – that if you punch it there is nothing that the animal can do?

Isn’t it strange that this seconds/moments of thoughts and pictures are coming up within ourselves, even if in daily life we are a very carefull an gentle person? Where does this thought/picture come from? Why do we for example fear to be hitten, raped, robbed by another? Why are this pictures coming up? Because it happens in this world and we are grown up with stories, movies or even experiences where it did happen. However, we never go back to the source and ask ourselves WHY IT DOES HAPPEN AT ALL and why it is coming up in our head when we have never taken part in such situation.

We really have to go back to the source if we want to stop the abuse as inequality in this world. Of course the cat punching needs to stop. It is so obvious, one cannot ignore or deny this and there is no reason thinkable of why it should be allowed.

To stop the abuse on a large scale, we have to be willing to go back to the source and to see straight and direct into this source, because only if we see what the source is, we will be able to eventually change.

The source of abuse does exist from two major pilars that need to be investigated, forgiven and changed:

We as the human race

The moneysystem that we/the human race created and/or allowed to be created

And from here seeing the connection between these two pilars.

It’s cool to start to do something about an activity as cat punching and being motivated to stop this abusive behaviour. From here it is time to see further than our physical eyes will see at first and to take responsibility for what we have accepted and allowed in this world as abuse on a larger scale, within and without and from here – instead of abusing this physical existance ‘because we can’ – start taking responsibility as real care for this physical existence, including ourselves and our own physical body.

Why?

Because we can. Because it is the only solution. The human race is the only one wo can decide to make a real change in this world. If we are not willing to do so, we will destroy life and with doing so, we are destroying ourselves. So the cat punching is actually a horrible projection of how we as human beings, choose and/or have choosen to (accept and allow) abuse, within and without while we are often not aware of what we are doing and/or allowing as abuse and what is actually happening.

It’s up to each one of us to decide where we will stand.

We can keep on judging the abuse and/or blaming the ones who do so in a partcular situation, however judging or blaming is not making any difference, it is even enlarging the abusive behaviour because it is generating energy, as reaction within ourselves and as reaction within the abusers. Positive and negative energy are coming from the same source, it is nothing more but a polarity and for generating a positive or negative energy as experience in/as the mind within ourselves, we are ‘abusing’ our own physical bodies because we are using this physical substance to generate energy from which gives the positive or negative experience.  It is based on the same mechanism from where we are (ab)using the earth as the physical substance to ‘create’ money from.

One can say that this is an unbelievable scenario. But what if this is in fact the case and we have missed it all the time, only because we were holding onto our ‘believes’ and so not willing to really see and investigate the source?

What we tend to forget here, is that at one day, the physical substance is burned and consumed and there is nothing left. Unless we stop this abusive behaviour, within and without. This abusive behaviour within and without is what is really hurting ourselves and/as live in general from where we start reacting and judging in/as the mind. Because we do not really want to see and feel this pain that the abuse is bringing forward on a large scale and investigate how we all contribute(d) to this.

So first thing to do, is to stop judging, blaming and reacting and to start investigating the source from the abuse on earth, within and without and the possibilities to bring Equality for All Life Here.

I invite you to investigate:

Desteni I Process (individual process within – practical application inclusive a free Lite course)

Living Income Quaranteed (world process without – a proposal to investigate and contribute to)

History of Mankind (youtube – detailed background information beyond ‘belief’)

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Related articles:

410: Cat Punching Page Removed from Facebook… It Can’t Stop There:

(…) “What I find most interesting about this is, yes, of course, animal abuse is absolutely atrocious, and yes of course, it should in no way be glorified or accepted for that matter, and so such a page should be removed. But to me what is most interesting is that 20,000 people can rally together, and act as a group, using the collect will and force to inflict awareness and demand a change in relation toward a particular point, yet when it comes to things that happen daily, which includes animal abuse, in the Real World, our group efforts cease to exist.”(…)

Day 634 Cat Punching and a Cup-is-a-Cup:

(…) “Obviously, punishing the form is not the solution. Punching a cat is not the solution. It is no different than punching a cup. Punching the physical does nothing to change what has been informed. If we want to blame the system and punch parts of this physical world, nothing is being done to change  the limitations that created the frustration. The only way to correct is to reform what one is as information.”(…)

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Dag 376 – Ignorance and preference – self-corrective statements

Dag 374 – How Every Breath Counts

Dag 375 – The gift of Life by Roos – preference and ignorance

When and as I see myself going into ignorance of someone who is asking for my attention, I stop, I breathe.

I realize that I step automatically into a pattern of ignorance, before I have even seen what it is that is asked for.

I realize that I cannot see what is asked for, if I ignore the one that is asking something and/or if I ignore what is asked.

I realize that I fear something within this moment, that I can investigate within myself, but that in this moment, I need to put my awareness to the being that is asking me something, without paying any attention to my own preference in relation towards the being that is asking for attention or to my own preference in relation to activities that I would like to do or not do.

I realize I turn my own attention around and within this, place it into self-interest related to preference within this, instead of placing my attention to the being, tp life, that is asking for it.

I commit myself to breathe, and within breath, turn myself to the being that is asking for attention, within the realization that the being may need something from me in that specific moment. I listen and see what it is that the being asks me, and if I don’t understand the question within, I just stay here and breathe, I eventual apply self-forgiveness on what is coming up inside myself. If I do understand the question within, I see within myself what it is that I can do, what is my potential, what is practical possible, what is my self-will and what is my self-interest, and what is it that I see as best for all.

When and as I see myself going into reaction about poo on the floor or other dirt that I need to clean up, I stop, I breathe.

I realize that I fear to become overwhelmed by dirt, which is actually dirt as energy as energetic reaction in and as the mind, and within this, physically paralyze as not being able to clean it up.

I realize that I have programmed reactions towards poo or dirt that I can stop and investigate inside myself.

I realize that the mind is putting up patterns as ideas as sabotage as control, and that within this, I believe that I need something to protect in and as myself, which is not so, it is just energy that wants to stay alive in and as a compromise of life in and as the physical substance, as this is the only way that energy can exist because of it’s dependency on the physical, on substance.

So I realize that I compromise life when I listen to the call for protection in and as the mind.

I commit myself to approach the dirt as poo on the floor in common sense and see how I can prevent it in common sense without compromising as controling the expression of life within this, and for rest just clean it up.

i commit myself to clean up the energetic dirt in anda smyself as existing energetic reactions, by investigating, stopping, and applying self-forgiveness and self-corrective application.

When and as I see myself, in any situation, going into preference in relation towards living beings, I stop, I breathe.

I realize that this is pre-programmed and based on energy, visible in appearance, looks, smell, noise, taste, feelings, ideas etc.

I realize that I become blind and compromise (myself as) life, when and as I follow my preference, and that this will lead to harm life within it, where life is equal, in and as the other as myself.

I realize that this is automated and so that it will take time to walk through this patterns ans stop and self-forgive the specific patterns of preference.

I realize that, with trusting on preference, I seperate myself, I ignore life, and so, in and as seperation, I isolate myself, and so create my own experience of loneliness.

I commit myself to stop and investigate preference when this is coming up inside myself, in relation towards a living being, and see within this what it is that I seperated myself from.

I commit myself to investigate the experience of loneliness further on and within this, go on listening to the Atlantean video’s about the system and experience of Loneliness, as a support.

When and as I see myself going into preference for activities to do, I stop, I breathe.

I realize that I as the mind prefer specific activities to feed the energy in and as the mind, and feed the energy by creating resistance towards activities that the mind dislike, as for example cleaning up the house.

I commit myself to make each activity as comfortable as possible, which starts with my own approach of and awareness in the activity needs to be done.

I commit myself to investigate my own reactions towards specific activities, to see what it is that gives the resistance, so that I stand up equal to my own control and self-manipulation within the resistance, which harms life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to harm myself in and as life, by controling and manipulating myself in and as a preprogrammed and a developped programmed pattern of preference towards beings and activities, and within this do harm to another life as life in general.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have compromised and harmed my physical body in and as a believe in self-manipulation and self-control, in and as preference in and as the mind, wherein the harm towards my body makes me feel so tired and exhausted that I use this as an excuse to continue with the pattern in and as the mind, in and as preference, wherein I am no longer physical able to do the labour that I do not prefer as dislike in and as the mind, and so keep myself alive in and as preference in and as the mind, and wherein I even experience myself as unable to listen and give attention to someone thats askes for my attention and eventual needs my support, or just simply wants to express as self.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to squeeze myself in and as my physical body and take my own breathe away, by living in and as the preference in and as the mind, just as how we squeeze and take the breath away of the Physical Life on Earth for the benefit of the preference in and as the mind consiousness system existing in each human being.

I commit myself to stand up in and as awareness to educate myself and humanity in how we function as a mind consciousness system in and as preference as self-interest, which is leading to the destruction of life on earth, which is something that we need to stop as soon as possible and change into support of Life in and as the physical in equality and oneness, which starts within ourselves.

I commit myself to move on with writing, investigation, self-forgiveness and self-correction, to see where and how I specificely harm my own physical body towards the state of exhaustion, related to the idea of preference in and as the mind, where in I realize that this is a way to walk during time, through unpleasant experiences of exhaustion where in I will tend to mislead myself in and as the mind, and so I need daily application of and as myself to support myself within this, where it is only in this daily application that I will be able to change, day by day, breath by breath, in and as small steps.

I commit myself to investigate within myself what is self-interest, what is preference, what is self-will and what is best for all, as as long as I do not have a clear perspective on and as myself in this, I am not able to be clear towards life in and as myself, but will start compensating the compromise I have made in myself at first hand existing in and as self-interest, and so mixing up self-will and self-interest and within this not seeing and so not acting as what is best for all life.

I realize that this is what Roos is standing for as Life, as she was always clear in and as herself as who she is and what she wants, without acting differently towards others in and as hiding something, and so she was even more clear when she became bold and walked around through the whole house, small and vulnerable, and at the same time being strong in and as herself as life. Not making compromises towards self as life.

The Gift of Life by Roos.

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Dag 296 – Expressie en de Darm – How do I contribute to the most horrific events in the world

Dag 292 – Expressie en de Darm – Decision Making, Free Choice and Money

Dag 294 – Expressie en de Darm – Judgements on Living Alone

Dag 295 – Expressie en de Darm – Money, Survival and Limitation

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Picture of a (male) pelvis

I was watching the documentary of a Dutch woman Toos who is used and abused extensively for sexual rituals where in high members of royalty and church are named as involved.

It is a horrific story, and at the same time she is telling nothing new. What happened to her is what I always experience somewhere on the background as the greatest nightmare that could ever happen to me and every human being and so within this a great fear. So she named all the events one by one, that all are build up from physical torturing and sexual abuse from top till toe, where no respect is left. It is a complete abuse of the physical and of the being.

Now how can I be scared for this and how can I recognize everything she is telling? I have not been in situations like this, I have not seen movies about it, actually I didnot even now from direct stories that this is existing. And still, this fear and this experience of total abuse from top till toe is part of me as long as I remember.

Let’s say that from an age of around 6, maybe earlier but not younger than 4, I experience myself somewhere like this. And since watching the documentary I am wondering, isn’t this all triggered because of starting masturbating. Isn’t this the unconsiousness system that is starting loading all this information while masturbating?

I am consious that I have seperated myself from the unconsiousness awareness. As this is something that I donot want to involve with, that I donot want to belong to. Not realising how I probably have activated this all by myself, within an experience of an orgasm that I liked, and that I repeated in my life. Not extensively, but enough to get involved.

I always have accounted this experience to something ouside myself, as there was something outside myself that had abused me (even though I didnot find anything for real, as there have been taken place some abusive events but not so extensively and not really physical; most took place within words or within the lack of words – which is also physical). So I could not find something that is so extensively. However, I didnot consider how I involved myself within this experience, and within this, abuse myself as a being from top till toe, in starting participating in and energetic sexual experience in/as the mind.

I donot say that events in childhood do not have influence on this experience, I only say that I didnot consider my own participation within the unified consiousness field in/as unconsiousness by starting masturbating and uploading energy and information from the unconsiousness of humanity as a whole, and so distributing to this unified field by generating energy within masturbating. And so creating and accumulating thus enlarging my own experience of fear, which is actually my own mind system in/as fear as the mind exist in/as fear. Not knowing how I, witin this, contribute to the situation of this woman Toos, which has lived for 8 years in the most horrific shadow side of the unified consiousness system of humanity, where this total abuse and torturing that we cannot even imagine – and at the same time all do imagine – is physically taking place.

This whole unified consiousness system is interconnected very specific and complicated and this is only one insight form myself, where in I start taking self responsibility for my contribution to the dark side of humanity that physical takes place, although it is ignored and denied by most humans in daily life.

It is also connected to the elite in this world – people in control with money – which has a direct connection to the control that take place and that we as humanity as a whole allow and accept to exist. This control is direct visible in the inequality in this world as the unequal distribution of money and within this the unequal distribution of life-circumstances as food, water, house and education. Which we all take for granted, as this is how it is, without ever really investigating how this horrible events and situations could ever have manifested in this world. Because if we start really investigating the source of the abusive world where we live in, we come to the final point which is the source as the startingpoint of this horror story that we live in, which is:

Ourselves.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to contribute to the most horrific events of sexual abuse and physical torturing and humiliation that we can imagine – and we all know how bad our stories in our imaginantion are – by participating in an activity of energetic masturbation, in which I only experienced a feeling that I liked, and so which I wanted to repeat, without knowing and being aware of the energetic contribution that took place within this to upload the unified consiousness field and within this to the systems of control within this field; without noticing that I was oploading my own consiousness field within this activity of masturbation, loading information that we cannot even imagine but that we do imagine every day,  and accumulating and enlarging my own experience and existence in/as fear in/as the mind as consiousness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that a source outside myself was the cause of my experience of extreme fear for this ‘dark energy’ – like I am hunted by something – without seeing, realising and understanding that the source and cause is manifested within myself and accumulated and enlarged by an activity of energetic masturbation that I found out by coincidence and that I experienced as a nice feeling that I wanted to repeat, and so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to repeat and upload this energetic system within and without myself in/as the mind as the unified consiousness field existing in this world in/as humanity as a whole, where this hunting by the dark side of humanity take place in physical reality within secret parties where they play a game of hunting naked children in the dark as a form of play of sexual abuse and physical torturing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel loaded with this heavyness of/and fear all the time, my whole life at the background, without being able to relate this experience to the physical reality that I live in as this is a pretty stable physical reality from birth till now, and so I am confused by my own experiences of heavyness and fear and searching for causes outside myself and blaming every tiny little thing outside myself which I can find that maybe contribute to this experience of heavyness and fear, not seeing, realizing and understanding that within blaming, I myself contribute to this experience of heavyness and fear within myself and keep myself locked within this experience in/as the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience fear for sexuality as long as I remember, as within sexuality, this experience of this ‘dark energy’ in/as fear, can be triggered and come over me suddenly, where in I devellopped a way to be able to have and really like sexual avtivity, which is when I am excited and so actually participating within this energy, and so experiencing the ‘light’ of this energy as the polarity of the dark side, not seeing, realizing and understanding that within this participating in/as excitement in/as a positive ‘light’ experience of this sexual energy, I automaticly enlarge and reload the ‘dark side’ of this energy and so I enlarge and reload the energy systems in/as the unified consiousness field in/as the mind in/as humanity as a whole, and so I contribute to the state of the horrific situations that many children are secretely involved in within sexual abuse and physical torturing, and at the same time, I enlarge and reload my own experience of fear within sexuality, which again I tend to suppress within a feeling of excitement, which I am aware of and that I no longer can and will allow that myself, and so I experience myself a kind of stuck within and as fear for sexuality and within this, fear for relationships.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seperate myself from humanity as a whole by ignoring, denying, neglecting and suppressing the unconsiousness system within myself, and so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seperate myself from myself in/as consiousness, hiding in positivity, in which I allow and accept myself to be unable to change myself in/as self-responsibility for myself as a whole.

When and as I see and experience some dark energy as fear within and as me, I stop, I breathe. I bring myself back here in the physical through breathing and touching some physical attributes.

I realize that I experience something within myself that is part of me as consiousness system in/as fear that is triggered somewhere within myself which probably is related to sexual energy.

I commit myself to investigate what triggers me to this experience of dark energy in/as fear as the dark side of humanity, related to sexual energy.

I commit myself to stop participating in energetic sexual experiences – which I already stopped for longer time, but from which I still didnot see the real harm that it can cause, and so, I was not completely motivated to stop it in totality, which gives situations of where I could sometimes see participating in this energy ‘through the fingers’, which is actually keeping a backdoor on a narrow opening to eventual be able to participate in positive sexual energetic experiences.

I commit myself to investigate the dutch and family origin, existing within and as myself,  related to this experience of dark energy, in which rigid religic patterns play a large role, to see how this is related to (suppressed) sexual energy and to suppressing physicallity in/as sexuality as a whole.

I commit myself to investigate how the experience of complete abuse from top till toe is created and manifested within myself, which is the relation to the topic of all this blogs that I write with the frontname ‘Expressie en de Darm/Expression and the Intestine’, as this experience of complete abuse from top till toe, I experience physically within the anus and within the muscles of the large intenstine as cramping and irritation, where in I lost my ‘innocence of being’ through the decision of participating in and as energy in/as the mind as consiousness system in a moment that I donot remember by consiousness, but that is of influence on me and humanity as whole, every moment, every day, and only by taking complete self-responsibility for myself within this, I will be able to eventual stand up in/as a human being in/as innocense as life – where in I write eventual as I am not sure if I will be able to recreate a complete healthy functioning physical body as time is limited, but where in I commit myself to walk process till this is done as this is what is best for humanity, for them who are coming and for Life on Earth as a whole, and so within this for myself as a human being.

De serie Expressie en de Darm begint bij Dag 232  – (inclusief Disclaimer)

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Shocking Secrets of Masturbation Series

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Journey to Life:
7 jaar dagelijks schrijven
7 jaar dagelijks schrijven – Dag 1 – Van ziel naar Leven
http://www.facebook.com/groups/journeytolife/
video: 2012: Nothingness – The 7 year process Birthing Self as Life
De Desteni Boodschap – Wat doen we ermee?
https://ingridschaefer1.wordpress.com/2013/02/13/dag-235-de-desteni-boodschap-wat-doen-we-ermee/