Dag 412 – Reacting to reactions

The shoulder muscles starting the headaches coming up from the intenstines – indicating a lot of emotional reactions that you’re reacting to, so there’s things in your mind that come up that you still react to, “reacting to reactions” if you will. Thus, have a look at what things come up in your mind that you fear / resist / become angry about – forgive those reactions that come up towards the mind first and then take on the points in writing (Sunette)

Some writing out of self-forgiveness related to this point:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to reactions inside myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become angry when and as I react inside myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel inferior towards my reactions inside myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel inferior when and as I am in reaction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not understand how to stop reacting to my reactions, as it seems that it goes on and on, unstoppable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be impatience with myself within and as reacting to my reactions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to do as if my reactions are not about me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to physically feel like walking a marathon inside myself in and as reacting to my reactions which gives a brewsed kind of feeling inside my intestines.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be careful with and as myself in and as reacting to my reactions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my reactions inside myself when somebody is around, where in I have become ‘over sensitive’  as easily triggered because of accumulated reactions inside myself which I judge so suppress inside myself, where this judging of reacting gives tenstion within my body/my large intestine, judging the thoughts as judgements which give reactions so to speak.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to see anybody seeing me reacting and so, I suppress my expression in and as reaction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have followed the example that I have had when growing up, of not showing my reactions, because I wanted to be just like him and not like her, and he did not showed reactions and she did more openly, and I choose ‘to be like him’, and so, I do not show my reactions, which gives inside myself a reaction/judgement towards my own reactions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to train myself to not show my reactions as this would mean that I am weak’ and give in and show my face, which would mean that I am just like her, and I don’t want to, because I already have made the decision to ‘blame her’ (see previous blog).

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to thing, believe and perceive, that not showing my reactions meand having control of and within the situation, where in I feel safe in and as control in and as the mind, within a situation that I experience as ‘emotional unsafe’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I can be hurt emotionally, and so I suppress my emotions as reactions inside myself, not seeing, realizing and understanding that in this way, I hide myself within and as emotions in and as the mind, keeping myself locked in, generating energy in and as a perceived control in and as the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to have my reactions, and so reject my reactions/myself in and as reaction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my reactions because I have only learned and seen from the example that I choose to follow, to not show reactions and/or having difficulties inside self with reactions, from which I made up that reactions are ‘something bad’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to learn to become angry at myself when I did something wrong, and within this, show an angry reaction about/toward myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become angry at myself in and as reaction when I do something ‘wrong’ like by accident putting a hammer on my finger for example.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to reject myself when I do something that I perceive as ‘wrong’, wherein I react inside myself to myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to reject myself and so my reactions when I react, because I perceive reactions as ‘doing something wrong’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that ‘this is who I am’ and always will be instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that I copied a pattern of an elder who I choose to follow and learn from and from an elder who I choose to reject to follow and learn from, which gave friction and conflict inside myself upon this patterns in and as this rejection of an elder and so, of the pattern that I copied.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to reject myself in and as reaction and so create a layer of rejection upon reaction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create another layer of friction and conflict by ‘choosing’ between two elders and stepping into polarity within this.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create an experience of ‘I don’t want to’ and ‘I want to’ inside myself by choosing in and as polarity.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a layer of rejection of myself in and as the pattern of reaction, existing as a thought ‘I don’t want to be like her’ and so automatically choose to ‘want to be like him’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to ‘be like him’, the one who is not reacting, while within myself, I suppress myself in and as ‘being like her’, the one who is reacting inside.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to reactions from myself and others in and as a state of separation in and as polarity, in and as the mind, as this reactions, trigger the conflict as polarity inside myself, and so, gives an experience of separation, which is existing in a layer of dissatisfaction with and as myself existing in and as reaction underneath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide my dissatisfaction with and as myself, existing in and as reaction underneath, by a layer of conflict in and as polarity, in and as the illusion of ‘having a choice’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create an illusion of choice to hide the experience of desperation and dissatisfaction that I exist in and as in relation to my own reactions inside myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fight against myself in and as reacting to my own reactions and within this, lock myself in, into the mind consiousness system.

When and as I see myself participating in and as a reaction towards a reaction, from myself and/or another, I stop, I breathe. I forgive myself the experience as reaction that is coming up, as I realise that within this, I am creating a conflict as polarity to hide what is laying/lying underneath and I do this every time again to become more stable within myself in and as breath and when I am still reacting towards reactions, I forgive msyelf, I investigate specific what is going on, I write it out when needed and move on, as I realize it takes time to see, investigate, self-forgive and correct this point in all the layers and dimensions coming up.

I commit myself to investigate the reactions and experiences underneath, of dissatisfaction and desperation within myself, to forgive myself what I see, realise and understand, in writing out the points one by one as how they are coming up in daily life.

I commit myself to be and become gentle with and as myself and my physical body with regards to reactions from myself and others , in, as and bringing myself towards real (self)-forgiveness, in and as breath, before, during and/or afterwards every event that is coming up in relation to this point.

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Dag 356 – Lead by the eggleaders (ovaria)

EierstokkenIn Dutch language, the ovaria is called ‘eggleaders’ (eileiders). It leads the egg to the uterus. Well, it does not only lead the egg to the uterus, it leads the whole life of a woman, and indirectly of men. So the eggleaders lead humanity. It lead humanity to give birth to another ‘person’ and we direct our whole life – directly or indirectly – into this purpose, or we resist this purpose which is enlarging this same purpose in general. However, it is directed by this system of reproduction, which is still a system, and we are giving birth to ‘new life’ as a system, because we have become one and equal as our mind consciousness system and we pass this through into the ‘new life’, so the new life becomes equal and one as a ‘new’ mind consciousness system, and this we call ‘new life’. mmmmmmm……….

We do not know what it is to birth life, to birth ourselves as life in/as/through the physical. Many woman have problems around the area of the ovaria, related to menstruation. Menstruation is described as many things, from ‘a problem’ to ‘something sacred’. During my study of natural medicine I wrote my whole paper about the cycle of menstruation. lol we were looking for a translation of the word ‘timeloop’ into Dutch, and the word cycle was also mentioned, which I actually see as a ‘wide or large timeloop’. So, the menstruationcycle is actually keeping us in a timeloop of fertility which repeats over and over again. mmmmmmm……..

Marilyn Monroe: The Human Design – Menstruation

Then should we not give life anymore to new children? It is not precisely like that. I would say, we first have to support ourselves to become able to give life towards/as ourselves, and within this give life on earth, before we are ready to give life to another human being through our body. Because we have to guide this new human being, we have to educate and support this new human being, to be able to become as life itself, life as being responsible, responsible for self as life, for life as self. And if we all do that – first educate ourselves and then pass on this education to the next generation, after a few generations, life on earth will change into a life-worthy existance for every one and every thing.

So, if we did already have given birth to another human being before we as ourselves were as life, then what should we do? Do we have to judge and blame ourselves for this? No, sure not. This is what we already have done for a long time, although we are not really aware of it. We start the same process; we start walking this process of taking responsibility for ourselves in/as the mind and giving birth to life in/as ourselves through the physical. We write, we apply self-forgiveness and self-corrective application, and we change in and as the physical, as only when we change in and as the physical for real, this physical existence will start changing. With or without kids, the process is exactly the same, for every one.

We have given our authority to the eggleaders and made this a point of self-interest. Listen to the butterfly, listen to the bee. The butterflies allign reproduction to and as life, as what is best for all, for all butterflies, in co-operation with the earth. The bees work together with the plants and the earth, they take care of each other in a way that they will not take and take and take to survive. They give and receive equally. They live in and as their utmost potential, and if this is no longer possible in any way, than they decide to pull back, to stop reproduction, as living less than their utmost potential what sense does this make? We call them ‘lower species’. mmmmmmm……….

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We as humanity are not so smart. Self-interest does not make us very smart and is very short-sighted, it makes people blind. Blind for the potential that is existing in humanity as life, If and when we are willing to work together with and take care of everything and everyone; human, nature, earth, plants, animals, as what is best for all. Giving and taking equally. At the moment, we are not even able to take care of our own species as humanity; we do Not take care, we only take, and take and take.

Where is my authority? Oh my god, it is “lying in” my eggleaders! And I gave it away to men in/as the mind, indirectly, not directing myself but in my perception and belief, ‘lying’ all day to myself, so actually and of course,  I gave it away to my mind (consciousness system), to lead me over the edge. I gave it away to lead me over the edge so that I do not need to take self-responsibility, for who I am as have become, for what I have done, for all the consequenses I have created and/or accepted and allowed to exist, within me and without me.

Only I can stop the limitations as the edge, existing in/as the mind consciousness system, to be and become the potential existing within me, in co-operation with all living species existing in and as earth. because in this, in earth, in the flesh, we are all Equal, so if I become One with and as the flesh, in and as the physical, I become equal to all that is existing, including myself. We are all made of clay.

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Authority is That which Life Grants Each One Equally, the Authority as Life.
There is One Authority on Earth now, which Stands Above all, that Dictates, which is Death. Death is the Point where Life is Authorized or Not, and to Get Authorized as Life – you Must, before Death comes: Be the Physical Evidence as the Living Flesh, as the Living Word – that you Understand the Authority as Life, as Equal, as What is Best for All – or You Will Not Pass Death (Bernard Poolman).

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