Dag 799 – Self-support on the experience of “being tired of everything”

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There is something underneath within me for a long time; an experience of ‘being tired of everything’. I wanted to change it into ‘feeling tired’ but how I experience it is like ‘being tired’. Which I do see as not so favorable because my being is in this as ‘being tired’ and I have developed related physical symptoms so I see it actually becoming a ‘manifestation’.

It is getting less than it was years before, where I almost was consumed by this experience. However I still see, feel and experience it within me, almost as a ‘second skin’ but also as a memory; meaning it is always here and with me.

What I am most tired of and by is of my own physical struggles, cramps, pains, discomforts. Also seeing things that I would like to accomplish but that I then look up to like a mountain, because of the physical labour that needs to be done and especially my own experience of tiredness and discomfort within it or, a fear of this on forehand.

I do experience it within my organs and I have the information (for context read the blog) – via an individualized interview through the portal – that my mind consciousness energy is ‘traveling’ through my organs and not through the muscle energy highways as how is most common. My muscles feel indeed fine and from the perspective of my muscles, I can even look forward to the labour; I like the movements and effect on my muscles. When I look at my organs and especially my large intestine, I feel an incredible tiredness in it from myself and a giving up; like ‘I don’t have it in me anymore, I cannot find the strength within me to push through’.

I am sitting here on the first day of my menstruation, which is something that I am also tired of. I am 45 – almost 46 – and I find it enough.

I still do not know how to ‘relax’ within these organs, mostly my large intestine, ovaries and uterus but also bladder and I feel a sadness on my heart. My liver is still ‘motivated’ and like ‘pushing the others’ to keep going. There is an ongoing tension in it from my own mind consciousness energy as a pressure on my organs.

This is not okay and I would like to change this. I own it to my organs, I own it to myself and so to others as life as well, as I do have a reasonable ‘good life’ so to speak with opportunities that relatively very little people have at the moment here on earth. My organs did adapt to the way my mcs is set up within my physical body, however I find I let too much ‘on them’ to take care of, as if I am not fully here to support and direct myself. I know this is not a job done in a moment. I will open it up with self-forgiveness on the experiences within and as me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rely on energy instead of on myself and let energy get the best of me within emotions and feelings letting direct myself on a subtle level.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let my organs do the work, ‘catch me’ in a way to signal me that I am slipping off too much, not catching myself soon enough in the small moments, subtle thoughts and allowing of the lingering in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow myself to linger in the mind even when I notice that I am doing it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I can give up, that it does make sense to give up, instead of supporting myself in that moment, to stop the lingering within my mind and slow down, to release the energy and look for a solution.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel ‘wrongly endowed’ by having this specific set up where my mind consciousness energy moves through my organs instead of my muscles, where in I know and even am aware, that it is a gift in disguise because of my early awareness of my emotions and the effect of it within me however, I still linger in a form of victimization in it that I see now as an excuse for myself to not take the next step in pushing myself towards self-direction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear taking the next step towards self-direction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel ‘wrongly judged’ as how I firstly translated ‘wrongly endowed’ for myself; which is so in a way because of me not clearly expressing myself and not having been able to do so in the past, which indeed gives a misjudgement of myself, by myself and by others as well, following that what I express myself in and as.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to express myself in an incomplete way and for this, following up on myself in this incomplete, incompetent way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand how my incomplete and limited expression gives an incomplete presence of myself in who I potentially am able to be and by bringing it into reality in this way, my environment respons to this in the same incomplete way and so I ‘set up’ myself in a constricted and incomplete reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to then manifest this constricted expression and reality into my organs and especially my large intestine who is constricting and wanting to hold on information that is not yet fully expressed as what is best for myself but that I wanted to release already and so, I am creating a conflict within and as myself, reflecting within my organs and visible for myself in my large intestine as an ongoing cramping.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to completely and unlimited express myself as what is best for myself (and so in consideration of the effect being best for all).

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I cannot find the strength in myself to push through, that I do not have it in me anymore.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up in small moments and to not even want to start, at whatever, at very small physical tasks and movements.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to just want to sit and rest but I do not rest in this, as I even more find ‘rest’ inside in a slow and consistent movement of doing what needs to be done.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ‘be tired’ as if I as my being am tired myself, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that I have channeled my being into this experience, into all the emotions and feelings to generate an energetic experience, thinking and believing that these experience are ‘making myself feeling alive’ and so loosing myself as life as ‘beingness’ within this, wherein I am not really lost or gone, but more channeled (by myself) within energy and so wasting or ‘burning the best of me’ so to speak.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be ‘tired of myself’ in a way as a tiredness of what I am doing to myself and by myself on a daily base.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to already want to give up on my self-commitment and experience a fear of ‘not committing’ and so, thinking and believing that I better not write the commitment, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that this is exactly the lack of expression, the incomplete expression within and as myself as a ‘loop’ where in I hold myself constricted, of not starting because of fearing that I will not commit to my own commitments and so instead ‘committing as a ‘holding on’ to a fear of failure.

As a start for myself for coming week:

When and as I see myself lingering in my mind and thinking about all the things that need to be done, I stop and breath. I realize that I generate energy in this as for example an experience of ‘giving up’ and so weakening my physical body and putting pressure on my organs because of the emotional energy that I generate within this on a subtle level and I realize that I accumulate the experience in all these small moments of lingering. I commit myself to ‘catch’ myself in the small moments of not wanting to pick up on things, to stop, to breathe for a moment and then moving myself in the small physical action that needs to be done and so move myself from action to action and within this, accumulate the physical action and satisfaction within and as myself.

A process of self-expression and physical action to be continued.

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Dag 722 – 10. The fruit isn’t really gone

This blog is related to record 10: The fruit isn’t really gone

For context and playlist see: Dag 710 – Reflection on the years of fertility

The self-forgiveness are written as if it is happening in current time, however it are self-forgiveness on a pattern that I am reflecting back on and now taking responsibility for.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think ‘I cannot believe what I have done to myself’ by doing this curettage to take out the fruit from my uterus.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to do something that I did not really/deeply want.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand how I was taking away a beginning of life out of my body and by not really realizing what I was doing, I gave my power, my self-directive power, so my ‘lifeforce’ so to speak, away to reasons, excuses and justifications in/as my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to channel myself more into my mind by giving away my selfdirective power as ‘this is what I want and who I am and what is best for me’ and so for life as a whole, by making decisions that are not considering all dimensions that I am aware of.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ignore a glimpse of my awareness and within this, give away my strength and my ability to act according to what I am aware of.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to misunderstand my control, my ‘power’ to enforce a decision in/as the mind, to misunderstand and mix this up with ‘what I want’ and ‘what is best for me’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take control over myself in situations where in I feel like loosing control, meaning like loosing sight because things come forward that I have never walked before.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the possibility of taking direction over myself and how I would like to develop a relationship with my child, different than how the relationship between me and my mother had developped and so, because I feared repeating this same pattern again, I could not allow myself to ‘loose control’ so to speak and continue with this pregnancy and so, the best thing that I saw for myself to do was taking control over this situation and stop that what I had initiated.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to first be content with this decision to stop what I had initiated and to later on, got stuck within this initiation of what I deeply wanted but without considering all dimensions, and after this, stopping what I had initiated because of again, not having considered all dimensions that now came forward within this initiation and so,

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get stuck within the control in/as my mind in moving forward and holding back at the same time, not being able to effectively move myself through this encryption in/as the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being able to move through this encryption so to speak and take direction within and as myself within a situation that I have initiated.

When and as I see myself deeply wanting something, I stop and breathe.

I realize that I need to investigate all dimensions that I can see are involved so that I can move myself effectively within a direction to create what I deeply want, this in a way of considering all and everything that I can see that is involved.

I commit myself to no longer ignore what I deeply want/would like to create but instead, investigate all the dimensions that I see that are involved and opening up and from here, walk into this creation in a way that is best for all and everyrhing that I can see that is involved and to adapt along the way, when and as I see that this is needed.

I commit myself to allow myself to initiate that what I deeply want in a way of considering the life within, in what is or will be involved, including myself and my own capacity on a physical, mind and beingness level so that I am sure that I am able to stand and keep standing in that what I initiate.

When and as I see or experience myself as ‘being stuck’, within the experience itself or already reflected within and as my physical body in my large intestine, I stop and breathe.

I realize that my physical body, my large intestine is bringing this experience forward, however it doesnot mean that I ‘should stop’ what I have initiated because it can be bringing up old, related memories of fear that I have not yet walked through effectively and so, my mind consciousness system, integrated within my physical body, is bringing up it’s way of control as fear to ‘make myself stop’ as how I have programmed myself in the past. I realize that my mind doesnot say ‘that I should stop’ but it does more point out that I have to look at certain memories that are stored within my physical body.

I commit myself to relook at my initiation and if and when I see that I am sure in it, to look at the physical experience of ‘being stuck’ and see what equation I have created in the past that I need to forgive and change, this because this equation is no longer serving me in and as life  – as how it had served me in a way of ‘protection’ in/as the mind, which is actually a way of control but still, during that time, it served as protection  that is now no longer needed because I have developped more awareness, support and strength within and as myself.

I realize that a change in the outcome, will ask for a change in the equation, otherwise I become ‘stuck again’ within a polarity, within giving myself contradictory messages and so, I commit myself to forgive the old equation that have protected me in the past and from here, change it in a way that it serves myself as life in the outcome that is best for myself and others involved.

When and as I see myself participating in an experience of ‘undefined’ fear that I can not really point out, I stop and breathe.

I realize that my mind is bringing forward an equation that it now fears to loose, as something that has served as ‘protection’ in the past and so, a part of myself that is channeled and participating in/as the mind, is trying to keep control and protecting itself in this point.

I commit myself to hold myself and to find the equation that is no longer serving me, to name the experience and to forgive myself and to ask for support when I do not really see what equation is coming up so that from here, I can move myself through this accumulated experiences from memories that I have recreated over and over again in the past and from here, change the equation towards principles that support the outcome that is best for all which means principles that support an outcome that is best for myself and others involved, working together in and as life.

Now, Understand that – the Creation of this Reality, in the Form that it now Exist, as Living Words / Living Pictures: took Billions of Years. In those years – the Creator Gods obviously Protected their Trademarks. That means, ‘the How’ they Programmed this. And they Encrypted it, not with 256-bit Encryption – but say with 256 Trillion-bit Encryption on Each Point. They left only One Point open that they couldn’t Encrypt – there was only ONE thing they couldn’t Encrypt, which was: Equality and Oneness as what is Best for all Life. Everything else – they Encrypted.

From: Day 300: The Encryption of Systems (Part One)

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Dag 672 – My body-being-mind awareness speaking

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I have asked for an individualised interview through the Portal with my physical body and especially with my large intestine, so that I can understand more what is going on within my physical body and use symptoms as support for myself to walk through certain patterns within the mind consciousness system in/as myself.

“My large intestine is speaking in the fore-ground but my whole mind-being-body awareness on a very deep level comes through to explain how this interrelated connection is set up within/as me. All my organs are under pressure in different ways and this has been so for most of my life because of the emotional suppressed transferences.”

“Each time I access an emotion or feeling this gets discharged, channeled, layered, stored in the physical body. Within most people, the emotional and feeling energy gets channeled through the ‘muscle energy highways’ through the muscles and through the veins of the physical body. So for most people the mind consciousness energy moves through the muscles. This is so because the muscle tissue is strong and more absorbant, detailed and specific in its structure and geomatry to absorb, channel, discharge, layer, move the mind-consciousness energy as one access it in real time moments. Like networks and train-tracks in the muscle tissue group of the physical body.”

“Within my physical body, my mind did not set up my emotional and feeling energy bodies movements and channeling and networking and absorbtion through the muscle groups but through the organs. The heart, intestines, stomach, bladder, kidneys, liver are doing the work that the rest of my body should actually be doing. It is a generational thing, meaning that there are some people within my past generations who have also had this problem. It is not life threathening and it allowed me to on an early age have an awareness of my emotional and feeling energy and where in I do get emotional but not allow myself to be too much overwhelmed or pulled into emotions and feelings, but am quickly able to slow myself down and look at things with clarity.  So this one could call a ‘gift in disguise’.”

“The physical consequense of this ‘set up’ is that my organs have been most of my life a bit under pressure –  but throughout my life, my body reasonably adapted; it strengthened my intestines, heart, organs. As explained has my muscle tissue not been used as a ‘muscle energy highway’ and because of not being used for this, the muscle tissue deteriorated to some degree; this because a lot of muscle development has been preprogrammed to be in line with the development and evolution of the mind where the muscles are normally be used by the mind consciousness system (and so ‘strengthening’ in a way). This is causing for the rest of my muscles and physical body to be and feel more ‘weak’ or less strong.”

This first part of the interview is clarifying a lot of what I am walking from about the age of 16 (I am 42, almost 43 at the moment). I have taken on everything I could to investigate and support my organs, all related within the area of natural medicine and I am still working in this environment. I did not know of this set up as how it is described within the interview. But I did notice that ‘something was not as how it should be’ when I looked at my physical condition and this in relation to my life in general. I did find out pretty early that certain organ manifestations were related to emotional experiences and I noticed in some degree the suppression there of within myself; I also found out later in life that feeling experiences influenced me physically very much so I could not allow myself to really dive into feelings as for example are coming up in a so called ‘love relationship’ as I could phycically not handle the energy within my body for let’s say more than a week. So I often was within situations where I or the other stopped this relationship-process somehow. Which in itself I saw as a pattern and that bothered me a lot, because I did not really nor completely understand how I could support myself through.

With the natural medicine and food alignments I have through the years found ways to support, strengthen and stabilize my organs more or less (where in my physical condition and some organs had been weakened pretty much in my late twenties and begin thirties) but during this I noticed that there was a mind-influence that I could not get a hold on and so, the physical support is only ‘working’ to some degree. I did see a direct relation with symptoms within my organs and what I did not understood, is how I could have so much physical influence of my mind and others not, while of course I have my emotional patterns as everyone else, but I did not see them as so much more extensive than others, but sometimes started to believe that they are in someway. So this is all creating extra energy again of reacting to what happens within my body without really understanding how it works. Which is influencing my organs again, etc.

I do see now why I saw the mind-body relationship direclty within myself. I did not understand how it could not be recognized by many others because within myself, it was obvious existing. I do now understand how this can be set up differently. Standing up and finding solutions for what we sense in a way, is however another story. I can describe it now as that I need my own beingness-direction here and I can only find myself within and while walking through the mind and learn how I have manifested this within my physical body. We all have things within ourselves that we do ‘sense’ but cannot see completely by ourself alone. The information given within this interview is one example of this. I do need support in this and so has everyone points where support from others is needed.

When I started walking the Desteni I Process, I noticed to have finally found a structure and support to really get to know and support myself within this trinity of the mind-being-body relationship and I continue walking this until it is done, for myself and others. But only now with the information of my mind-being-body awareness itself on a very deep level through the Portal, I do understand why I physically experience myself as how I do. It supports me to accept the physical consequenses and I do no longer need to ‘blame’ myself for it – something that I could not really forgive myself for because I did not really understand the set up within my body and how it is related to my physical condition and mind patterns.

So, I have a new starting-point to walk from now within this mind-being-body interconnectedness; things that I could not really place into context are opening up and I am grateful for this – where in my organs will be of support to walk through different personality systems. In the second part of the interview, the large intestine is giving more detailed information of personality systems related to this organ, which is something that I need to take on at the moment. I will not expand on this here as it is something that I first need to investigate, forgive and walk through for myself.

At the same time I will move on with the physical support and alignment as how I have learned myself to do throughout the years as a physical basic-platform. I do no longer need to worry about why my muscles are not really building up but will see if I can keep them stable and in form as they are and how I am already doing, to keep on walking my life and process in/as the physical on earth.

So for whomever is having questions that you would like to see clarified as a support to understand (and so forgive) yourself and your physical body, I can really suggest an individualised or private interview through the Portal. This combined with walking the Desteni I Process as self-support to start walking with and through your mind, into the physical body. As a way to start walking towards and standing up in oneness and equality with and as Life as a whole.

And to learn that we are able to support ourselves and each other within this, that we are able to change within and as ourselves to what is best for all, slowly, together yet alone, alone yet together, if we are willing to do so. The ones who are reading this blog, are most likely belonging to the group of people that do have the possibility to already start, this with regards to our position in this world and related to money and basic needs providence.

I find it the greatest gift to learn how to support myself and stand together with others within this. Will it be challenging? Yes. For sure. For myself I can say, it is as challenging as what I had to walk before, alone with myself and only a few others and it is only getting better while I understand more and more of myself and because of walking with already many others around the world who have made the same decission to do so. Within this I am an example that one is able to face oneself within one’s emotions without getting lost in it. I have faced pretty much of it and still need to open up all the things I have suppressed. A process that my organs will support me with.

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Dag 640 – The mind-body relationship – The relationship with my intestine

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In my buddy-chat the point opened up of redefining my relationship with my intestine. I find this not so easy but during chat some points came forwards as an opening to start looking in this. I start here with some self-forgiveness statements.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that it is wrong that my intestines are a point of cross-reference for myself of where and in what extent actually, I have separated myself from myself and my physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I did it all wrong because I have developped/manifested/lived patterns within my intestine where others did not have that.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to find it unfair because there are patterns involved that are passed from generation to generation that are not ‘mine’ from source, however I made them ‘mine’ because I have accepted and allowed them to manifest within myself and lived and manifested and/or integrated them more physically.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe, expect myself to be able to completely walk through this manifested mind-patterns through my life time and life times before, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that I will not know and be sure about me walking through within the ‘finish’ of the intestine-issues being solved completely on a physical level as I do not know to what extend and how deeply it is manifested, however I do see a possibility of getting it better and better and so I walk on and through as what is best and until it is done, although I might not ‘get it done’ in this physical body in the way that I expect this to do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I know the reason why I have to walk through this as thinking and believing that I will solve the manifested physical discomforts, while actually yes there may be a reason for me to walk through all this (without making it ‘spiritually’ as ‘more’ in/as the mind) but it might be different then what I think the reason is because I do not yet see the reason behind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that it does not make sense to walk through this.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that it does not make sense what I do and here, I am making myself less than who I am/can be in/as live.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try to make sense of what I walk through, this to not fall into an experience of hopelessness and uselessness as ‘never getting through’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I will never get through and so, try to make sense of the intestinal discomforts and difficulties as ‘finding reasons for it’ to manifest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to find reasons for my intestine to manifest difficulties and discomfort.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try and fight against defining myself as someone who is having/living with a chronical, physical discomfort as a spastic colon with very uncomfortable symptoms.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not really want to see how deeply physically I have accepted and allowed the thoughts, feelings and emotions to manifest, in and as a fear that if I name myself as someone who has to live with this, I will never come out/come through because I am then in/as a self-definition as physically not alright.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as someone who is physically not alright while I do not know myself like this from birth/childhood and I do see an accumulated pattern in it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to still define myself as someone who is physically alright and strong while I do not feel myself like that physically when and as my intestine is having difficulties to release from the physical waste.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I do see the relationship between the mind and the physical and so, I do expect the physical to be solved at once because I do see it interrelated, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that I have build up patterns within and as myself over time and so it will take time to walk through where I will come to unexplored area’s to explore.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that after walking through my own patterns, I have to walk through the patterns that are past through generations, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that walking through ‘my own’ patterns is walking through the patterns past by generation as I made them my own and so, taking responsibility for and as myself in thought, feelings and emotions is taking responsibility for the generation-line in and as the patterns that I have accepted and allowed to live and manifest myself and only this is my responsibility and that what I did not accept and allow to live and manifest and others did, is the other as ‘the owner of the manifestation’ to take responsibility for, as how it is for myself and everyone to take responsibility for our own mind and acceptances and allowances within.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel less than others who do not have physical difficulties/did not manifested them the way I did, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding – without comparing myself to others and their process as this is not best for anyone but as a point of self-support – that the quicker I get sick, my possibility of change is quicker.

To be continued

(…) So everything has got Stages of Deliberation. That means, dependency on how much you are Feeding it Energy and obviously in a way when you are Sick it already means you’re at a Point of Change. When you are not Sick and you are Deliberate in your Actions- then you must know: you‘re in Serious Trouble because that means you are very Deceptive, therefore the body will present itself as quite Healthy, and by the Time that you will get Sick, there will be Nothing you can do, because you are very Deceptive and therefore it’ll take a Longer time to Get Sick. The Quicker you get Sick- the Better it means it is for you, because your Possibility of Change is Quicker. The Longer it takes you to get Sick that means, the more Healthy you are, the more Deceptive you are. If you are living in this World, you have a lot of Money, you are very Healthy, very Happy – Big Shit in your Future. (…)

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Dag 630 – The body-being-mind relationship – Physical effect of self-forgiveness

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The application of self-forgiveness is a tool to use to delete the emotional, feeling and thought patterns that we have believed, manifested and lived throughout our lives. In this manifesting, we even condition our own physical body to a state that is physically reflecting the believes that we have taken for granted, in/as the mind. So, from here, it is in common sense to see that the application of self-forgiveness can be used as well as a support to release the body from the falty patterns that we have made up in/as the mind throughout our lives and that have been lived throughout generations before us.

I have created consequenses within my own physical body. Here my own body is a point of cross-reference to see if I am effective in the application of self-forgiveness and to see if I am self-honest in it. Meaning: am I really honest about and towards myself in what I have taken for granted and what I have physically manifested, in how I have spoken, lived and behaved in a way that was not best for myself and so not best for all? So being self-honest means basicely: do I dare to see where I have not taken care of myself and/or another and so, created physical consequenses? Do I dare to face myself in this and admit to myself, okay, I did it wrong, I had no respect, let’s see how to bring forward solutions and better myself here. Self-honesty also means to dare to experience the pain that is caused, towards myself and towards another, from myself and/or from another, by living without respect and care. Here it is to be/become aware to not go into judgements again towards myself and/or another of how I/the other ‘did it all wrong’ and manifested consequenses, but rather see how to support myself within the moment, moving through the experiences and taking responsibility for it in/as myself, as well as for the point of control in it. Step by step, day by day.

Yesterday morning I was having difficulties within my large intestine – as many mornings, which means that I am having cramps within the intestine with the result of not being able to have a releasing stool. Throughout the past weeks, there are emotional reactions coming up while I am walking through points coming up that I see related to a manifested concept of ‘love’ as how it is known in this world and to emotional experiences of ‘neediness‘. This morning I decided to lay down with myself and start speaking self-forgiveness out load.

The moment I started speaking, my intestine started to make noises and I felt movements coming up inside and this kept on going while I was speaking the self-forgiveness. While speaking, emotions were coming up that I released within the words and that I released within an expression of crying. I went on with this until I felt as if a burden had gone, a burden that I was carying with me for already longer. How I do this is actually very simple: I lay down and start with what is coming up within me. I place my hands on places in my body/belly that are tensed or hurted, I push a little when necessary, I speak within a self-forgiveness statement what comes up in me and from here, see what further comes up. This can also be a memory that I have created emotional attachements towards. I do not go into ‘analysing’ what comes up in me but simply release myself from what I experience inside myself. I name it, I forgive myself for it and move on to the next. Here I bring the ‘falty patterns’ within a supportive expression for/as myself. I move myself through the emotional experiences while embracing myself in acceptance, towards and within understanding myself.

An hour or something more later, after this session of self-forgiveness I took a second cup of coffee (I have two in the morning) and I was able to go to the toilet again and release myself from the waste. Here I saw the movement direct related to how I released myself from the emotional burdens that I was holding on to within myself. They often say, when the large intestine is having difficulties to release, one is having difficulties to ‘let go’. Well, that I do recognize myself in for sure. However, how am I able to ‘let go’? As simply saying ‘okay, you have to let go’ is not enough, it has to be more practicle.

The application of self-forgiveness is the tool that I find most supportive in ‘letting go’. Self-forgiveness in itself, means ‘letting go’ of what I am holding on to in/as my mind, within thoughts and beliefs, within emotions, within feelings and within holding on to how I have defined myself in these thoughts, beliefs, emotions and feelings in/as my mind. So if we see how much we participate in thoughts, emotions and feelings during a day, during a week, during a lifetime until now, it is to see with common sense that it is not a solution to say ‘oh you are having difficulties with letting go so you have to let go’. This is not giving a specific tool of How to let go. It is not taken the mind consciousness system into consideration and it is not showing an awareness of how we specificely have created ourselves within and as this mind consciousness system; a system that we have accepted and allowed to manifest within and without ourselves. We have accepted and allowed to manipulate Life, within ourselves and without in this world by participating extensively within the mind consciousness system. So much that we even do not see, realize and understand how we did this, how we have accepted and allowed this and how we are responsible for this, within ourselves and without in this world.

So here I am walking through my own manifested consequenses, within my own body that I mainly experience within a disfunctional large intestine and emotional experiences coming up. The sounding of self-forgiveness is having an effect on this disfunctional pattern, the sounding of self-forgiveness is supporting in releasing the disfunctional beliefs and emotional experiences that I have physically manifested. In doing so, it is giving more room to my physical body to function properly.

The disfunctional pattern has manifested throughout the years during my life and so it’s not done in a moment and it is not the whole solution. After the letting go of the old, I have to create a new, healty script and live this script for/as myself and of course the body needs to be supported physically with for example suitable food and additional supplements. It’s an ongoing process of self-support. The application of (sounding) self-forgiveness is definitely a part of this support and it is a practical tool that entails a ‘letting go’.

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Dag 594 – The body-being-mind relationship – The need for specifity on a physical level

The-ColonAt the moment, my large intestine is very much cramped. I am investigating what thought-patterns and emotional reactions I find related to and within this, as I see these of influence on the vegetative nerve-system through which I put pressure and constrictions on and within the intestine. I am not yet clear on how and what specific influence is happening here and will keep on investigating this inside myself. What I at the moment want to write about is the food.

Already for a while, I notice that my food is pretty aligned with my body in general, but there are specific influences that I could not get sight on. So every day I notice some small triggers within my food and also a combination of food that is ‘too much’ to digest. Because my intestine had already become stronger through the last few years, my body could more or less handle this. Now, with changing the living situation (from living alone to living together) and I assume, with the mind more integrated within and as the physical and the start of walking the quantum mind / quantum physical, I am coming into a new layer within myself. The layer within my body, within my intestine that I always notice on the background, where in I am feeling so much tiredness. Tiredness of myself and my body within this constriction, deep within myself/my physical body that I notice within the condition of a spastic colon. Deep within myself, I am (mentally and physically manifested) in a state of control, spastic.

So, looking at the necessity of becoming more specific within the application of self-forgiveness on the thoughts, emotions (and feelings), I see that I also need to apply this with the food I take. I did not use a specific guideline in relation to this condition. I am eating pretty much as how it is mentioned within the blood-type diet (blood-type A) and also as how some tests with bio-resonance are showing, where in it seemed that my food was still ‘quite okay’. However, I notice that it is not. It is not specific enough ‘okay’. If I need to be very specific within taking on my mind-system, then I also need at the moment to be very specific with the food I take in because as mentioned in the previous blog, my body/intestine has become sensitive to thoughts and emotions and also to food.

For the last few weeks/months, I saw myself taking in the food in some kind of hurry and I noticed some enslavement involved that I did not want to investigate, meaning I did not want to take a more specific look towards/within the food I take. I have a collegue who is very specific with food and with the care-taking of her body. So, now my condition had become very bad, meaning a very much constricted large intestine and no longer being able to release myself from the waste in an acceptable way, I discussed this with her, as she had already mentioned before a food-approach that is coming from Australia and that is applied within the condition of IBS/Irritable Bowel Syndrome where in the results are quite well.

I investigate this aproach and make the decision to start following this/testing this out. It is not so much different as how I am already eating, it is only more specific and coming from a different approach that is specific related to this sensitive bowel condition. While reading the guidelines, I see confirmed what I already noticed within myself when taking in some food, however I did not understand how and why I should react to this specific food so I kept on taking it in. Here it becomes clear to me every time how important it is and how it is of much support – to have information as a kind of frame to place our own physical investigations within.

Because and as long as I am interfearing in/as the mind within myself, I am not (yet?) able to really see and understand what it is that I experience, I am missing the frame, the context as certainty and so, I am not able to apply it effectively only by myself alone. Here it is clear how it is of so much importance to have much more context with regards to our own health. Context that is already available, but only for a very small group who has money and access within this area of the ‘natural healthcare’. The general public health service is not giving this context, it is very limited at the moment and so, it is very difficult for most human beings to get grip and sight on the health of their own physical body. But this is another subject on itself.

So, I have a context and guideline now to follow and I will start very specific applying this guideline. As specific as I have not yet done before. Until I see now, as mentioned above: if the mind is specificly programmed (in and as the (allowance of) myself) and if my body is sensitive for these specifities, then from a point of common sense I can conclude that my body is also specificely sensitive to food. As confirmed with information and physical test-cases within different physical applications that are used in relation to several bowel conditions.

I notice that I experience fear within myself to do so, which I see related to seeing/walking paste my comfortzone as how I know myself within my own mind-consciousness system, into a new area of/within myself, where it is as if I as my whole mind-consciousness-system is putting it’s ‘heals in the sand’ which gives this very tied constriction within my physical body, from neck to tale, with cramping consequenses for the intestine. I experience a fear of failure: what if this more specific application will not be of support, what if it will not work out? The ‘what if’ fear that I participate very much in, in relation to this physical condition. And that is something to walk within the application of self-forgiveness and self-corrections.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think ‘what if my large intestine is always cramped like this and what if I am not able to release myself anymore?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think ‘what if the poo is not coming out’?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that the situation will always be like in the worst moments/days and within this, I participate in fear instead of supporting myself effectively within these ‘worst’ days.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that the worst days will alway long.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to keep on continuing participating in ‘worst case scenario’s’ in relation to my physical condition because and when I do not see a long term solution in/as the mind, instead of supporting myself physically breath by breathe, moment by moment and focus on who I am within this condition, towards and as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that the small moments of support will not make a difference because I am already so long ‘busy’ with this condition that I expect a ‘miracle change’ in one day or nothing at all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to still expect one big moment of change and if this is not coming, I expect it to ‘not work out’, instead of learning to trust myself in every breath and walk it moment by moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, because I do not see an immediate solution and total understanding of my physical condition, I think and believe that I will ‘never get there’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience panic within and as myself when and as I am not able to release myself effectively from the physical waste.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to focus on the result as ‘being free of crampings and having a comfortable release-pattern of the waste of my physical body’, instead of focussing on who I am in relation to myself within this physical condition.

When and as I see myself participating in the thought ‘what if my intestine is always cramped?’, I stop and breathe. I realize that this is not effective in and as support for myself and/as physical body and it doesnot make any sense as it only brings more pressure/constrictions in/as the mind, in and on myself. I commit myself to stop participating in the thought ‘what if my intestine is always cramped’. If and when I do not know what to do in such moment, I focus on my breathing and see how I can make it as comfortable as possible within that moment in a physical position where in I do not feel the pressure all the time and so, do not stress myself out but instead, focus on the relaxation position that I place myself in. If this is not an option because of being for example at work, I will support myself to  focus on stopping the participation in thoughts about the condition and slow down physically while I continue with my work.

When and as I see myself participating in the thought ‘what if I am not able to release myself anymore?’, I stop and breathe. I realize that it is unlikely that I wil not be able to release myself anymore and I realize that I have build a constriction over time and so, it takes time to walk through the consequence/walk it back to where it started. I commit myself to stop participating in the thought ‘what if I am not able to release myself anymore’ and to focus on my breathing until the experience of panic becomes less, which is most of time related to a specific point/place within my intestine where I stored some experiences that I experience/recall over and over again when the poo is pushing against these fibers/muscles that are constricted. I commit myself to keep on looking into specific thought-patterns and stored emotions that lead to this build up constriction through time and support myself to release myself from the related energy with sounding self-forgiveness.

I realize that I have placed so much guilt on myself because of this condition where in I lost sight on my own responsibility within this condition. I commit myself to stop participating in an experience of guilt related to my physical condition. I commit myself to investigate/release myself from the pressure of expectations within and as myself in relation to my physical condition and who I think that I am supposed to be/become.

When and as I see myself focussing on a result in and as being free of crampings and having a comfortable release of waste, I stop and breathe. I realize that I am participating in a future-projection in polarity of the fear of ‘that I will never get there’ and so, create that I will never get there. I realize that I expect a miracle-solution in/as the mind in ‘one moment’ and if not so I believe I will never get there, instead of walking the solution physical, day by day, breathe by breathe where in I learn to focus on who I am in every breathe. I commit myself to stop focussing on a result of being free of cramping and having a comfortable release of waste and instead, focus on learning to release myself from the constricting thought-patterns and related emotions in/as the mind, by applying self-forgiveness and self-corrective application on specific thoughts and patterns that are coming up through the day, related to my physical condition.

I realize that it is a lot of work and so, that it takes time to walk through, where in I realize that I experience the same ‘I will never get there’ as when I started to walk this process by walking the conscious and subconscious layers. I commit myself to keep on walking day by day, moment by moment in and as the realization that I did walk through the layers of the conscious/subconscious system into a more comfortable ‘living’ and so, I have seen and proven for and as myself that it is possible to stand up in equality towards and as my own mind-consciousness system if and when I walk in patience and take very small steps. Not as an end-result to focus on but as a support for and as myself to realize that it will not always be like how it is in the worst/tough moments.

I commit myself to support my physical body / my large intestine to calm down by taking only food specificely as how described that is allowed and not triggering the intestine unnecessary within the guideline of the FODMAP-diet as a physical tested support for the condition of IBS for the next 4-6 weeks as how is described. (One can google FODMAP to see what it contains – I use a Dutch PDF-document that I received).

I commit myself to start cleaning my large intestine with colon hydro-therapy as a physical support to release the physical waste as detoxes that I build up through the years within my intestine, as a support to calm down the vegetative nerve system and as a support for my intestine to find it’s rhythm and peristaltic movements again within the possibilities of my physical state and as a support for myself to release myself from the panic about toxicating myself because of this not optimum physical state of my intestine.

I commit myself to keep on writing and to push myself to do so as I notice that within the writing, I give myself direction and lead myself through this rough/tough physical state in which I release my intestine from the mental waste that I put on and in where in I realize that I need direction and so, I need myself to lead myself through.

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Dag 590 – The mind-body relationship – Self-limitation

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Since a few weeks I am looking into a decision to start a project at work where some coaching of a student is involved, this on request of a young student. It is new so it takes some time to investigate all the possibilities and official requirements. After considering and discussing the possibilities, I still tend to not step in, I have reasons for this and the reasons are subscribed within the conversations with colleques. However, the student does not agree with this stand and actually, when I look deep into myself, I also do not agree with myself on this stand. So I hesitate but still round it off in conversations, however within my head, it is not round off, no matter how much reasonable subscriptions I find within myself.

I recognize this pattern because I have written/am still writing a whole mind-construct about this pattern of ‘subscribing my decisions with reasons and justifications’ and walking the correction on paper and in real time (related to a different subject). So after the final conversation to round it off, I sink within myself and feel very shitty about the situation. The decision that I have made, is not best for everyone and so, also not best for me. It hurts. I hurt myself in this (and perhaps I have hurted another, however that is not to me to conclude). What I do know and experience is that I hurt myself. Not in an emotional way, but in a way of seeing that my decision and action is limiting myself in my expansion and from here, I can be sure it is of influence and limitation on another in their expansion.

To correct this, I have to make phonecalls, first to get some more information and second to discuss if I can reconsider my decision. Within this, I have to admit that I hesitate and that I was not sure about myself in/as my decision and I have to show this to the ones that I call. Here in is the risk that they do not ‘take me serious anymore’ because I hesitate too much, however then the door will yet close. This is not the case. The one who has to make some official arrangements is willing to re-open the case and after this, the situation will be fast arranged. He asks for my motivation, I describe this the best I can and he agrees with me. And that is that.

Here I go immediately to living the correction because I have walked the writing and self-forgiveness of this construct already extensively as I mentioned in writing out a whole mind-construct with the support of a buddy and I basicely/already see the mind-construct playing out within myself in/as the mind; I have taken the time to investigate and discussed the possibilities within this current situation, I have first established a stable situation at work during the last weeks and I have seen within myself that I am able to direct this situation and to (learn to) apply some coaching activities together with a collegue who is also willing to do so.

My physical experiences in this whole event are as follows:

When I finally ‘round off’ in a way where in I did not consider for everyone what is best, I started to sink more and more in my body towards an experience of paralysing. I notice that it is a state that I did not enter for quite some time, which is an indication for me that lately I am pretty much moving myself in agreement with myself in consideration of all members as what is best (which I can check within myself by seeing if I apply that which I am able to at my utmost potential for this moment/in the stage where I am). I directly notice again how limiting it is to not do so and how within not moving myself as what is best, is influencing myself in every area of my life. Because if I am not standing in and as this starting-point of considering all living beings involved and applying that what I am able to, then who am I to ask such a thing from another. And here, I will allow myself to hold back, because otherwise I would not live what I speak. I cannot speak/ask to do what is best/what one is able to and not do it myself. So basicely I bring down myself in every aspect of what I actually decide to stand for and as and within this, feeling unworthy to speak up.

From here I become emotional and easily ‘swept away’. I become depressed and feel the pressure of the emotions around the heart-area which influences the left-upper corner of the large intestine, in the area of the spleen and heart. (In the iridology there is a line that they call the ‘splean-heart line’ where in the relation between the spleen/digestion and heart is noticed as of influence on each other). A deep cry comes out of my chest-area and then it becomes more quite inside myself and I decide to place the correction in and as a living action.

After correcting myself in the living action and actually already after making this decision to do so, the depression and paralysing immediately start decreasing and after a while, I notice some warmth and better circulation around the heart-area in a way that I did not have before. This area always feels ‘harmed’ and constricted and now there is coming some warmth in it which feels physically great, as a release. I did not specificely know/see how it was related to this self-limitation of not doing what is best and how not doing what is best, actually is the self-limitation in Itself.

Why did I not do this immediately? Because of fear of not being able to direct the situation; out of fear to take the lead as responsibility for and as this situation and out of fear of it all ‘being too much’ for me together with other responsibilities and fear to physically collaps within this.

I noticed from the beginning that I am the ‘decisioning-factor’ in this, and that I hold and determine the outcome and the direction is my responsibility within the situation that I bring this new element into; I cannot allow to influence this ‘new element’ in a so to speak ‘negative’ way within and as the situation that I work in within the system. So, I have to stand in and as self-trust, meaning enough trust to direct the situation, otherwise it doesn’t make sense to make a decision purely based on knowledge and information ‘as what is best’, as this holds the risk of over-estimating myself which in the end, is not best for all involved but more a ‘risk’ to everyone involved, including myself and the working-area.

It seems such a small example which is of influence on one being and we easily ‘sweep away’ the importance of this influence with reasons and justifications in/as the mind. However, every one needs someone who is reaching out and making some arrangements possible, to learn and expand oneself in. It is not so easy these days to make a living in the system, to find a place to develop oneself. This is the main motivation for me to step in, because what I have seen is that if I am not doing this, this opportunity will close off, for both of us. That doesn’t mean that the life of another and/or myself is dependent on only my/this decision as we all have our own self-responsibility and ability to forgive and correct ourselves and make decisions again and other doors will open, however this one opportunity is here.

There is still a better warming circulation in the left-area which moves on to my left-shoulder and left-arm. The situation has to be directed from now after receiving a respons from the student.

Within this I have to mention that I have some physical support from a ‘remedy’ that is alligned with the current state of my body that is coming from a bio-resonance consult that (together with other symptoms) showed how the heart-area was affected in it’s circulation. This alligned remedy is bringing my body-functions into a state of rebalancing and movement where in it can recorrect itself, so my body in itself is of support at the moment. However I have to see, investigate, forgive, correct and change the mind-constructs in real time, to establish a correction that is lasting for and as myself, in and as my physical body.

The mind-body relationship – Timeline

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