Dag 799 – Self-support on the experience of “being tired of everything”

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There is something underneath within me for a long time; an experience of ‘being tired of everything’. I wanted to change it into ‘feeling tired’ but how I experience it is like ‘being tired’. Which I do see as not so favorable because my being is in this as ‘being tired’ and I have developed related physical symptoms so I see it actually becoming a ‘manifestation’.

It is getting less than it was years before, where I almost was consumed by this experience. However I still see, feel and experience it within me, almost as a ‘second skin’ but also as a memory; meaning it is always here and with me.

What I am most tired of and by is of my own physical struggles, cramps, pains, discomforts. Also seeing things that I would like to accomplish but that I then look up to like a mountain, because of the physical labour that needs to be done and especially my own experience of tiredness and discomfort within it or, a fear of this on forehand.

I do experience it within my organs and I have the information (for context read the blog) – via an individualized interview through the portal – that my mind consciousness energy is ‘traveling’ through my organs and not through the muscle energy highways as how is most common. My muscles feel indeed fine and from the perspective of my muscles, I can even look forward to the labour; I like the movements and effect on my muscles. When I look at my organs and especially my large intestine, I feel an incredible tiredness in it from myself and a giving up; like ‘I don’t have it in me anymore, I cannot find the strength within me to push through’.

I am sitting here on the first day of my menstruation, which is something that I am also tired of. I am 45 – almost 46 – and I find it enough.

I still do not know how to ‘relax’ within these organs, mostly my large intestine, ovaries and uterus but also bladder and I feel a sadness on my heart. My liver is still ‘motivated’ and like ‘pushing the others’ to keep going. There is an ongoing tension in it from my own mind consciousness energy as a pressure on my organs.

This is not okay and I would like to change this. I own it to my organs, I own it to myself and so to others as life as well, as I do have a reasonable ‘good life’ so to speak with opportunities that relatively very little people have at the moment here on earth. My organs did adapt to the way my mcs is set up within my physical body, however I find I let too much ‘on them’ to take care of, as if I am not fully here to support and direct myself. I know this is not a job done in a moment. I will open it up with self-forgiveness on the experiences within and as me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rely on energy instead of on myself and let energy get the best of me within emotions and feelings letting direct myself on a subtle level.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let my organs do the work, ‘catch me’ in a way to signal me that I am slipping off too much, not catching myself soon enough in the small moments, subtle thoughts and allowing of the lingering in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow myself to linger in the mind even when I notice that I am doing it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I can give up, that it does make sense to give up, instead of supporting myself in that moment, to stop the lingering within my mind and slow down, to release the energy and look for a solution.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel ‘wrongly endowed’ by having this specific set up where my mind consciousness energy moves through my organs instead of my muscles, where in I know and even am aware, that it is a gift in disguise because of my early awareness of my emotions and the effect of it within me however, I still linger in a form of victimization in it that I see now as an excuse for myself to not take the next step in pushing myself towards self-direction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear taking the next step towards self-direction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel ‘wrongly judged’ as how I firstly translated ‘wrongly endowed’ for myself; which is so in a way because of me not clearly expressing myself and not having been able to do so in the past, which indeed gives a misjudgement of myself, by myself and by others as well, following that what I express myself in and as.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to express myself in an incomplete way and for this, following up on myself in this incomplete, incompetent way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand how my incomplete and limited expression gives an incomplete presence of myself in who I potentially am able to be and by bringing it into reality in this way, my environment respons to this in the same incomplete way and so I ‘set up’ myself in a constricted and incomplete reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to then manifest this constricted expression and reality into my organs and especially my large intestine who is constricting and wanting to hold on information that is not yet fully expressed as what is best for myself but that I wanted to release already and so, I am creating a conflict within and as myself, reflecting within my organs and visible for myself in my large intestine as an ongoing cramping.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to completely and unlimited express myself as what is best for myself (and so in consideration of the effect being best for all).

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I cannot find the strength in myself to push through, that I do not have it in me anymore.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up in small moments and to not even want to start, at whatever, at very small physical tasks and movements.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to just want to sit and rest but I do not rest in this, as I even more find ‘rest’ inside in a slow and consistent movement of doing what needs to be done.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ‘be tired’ as if I as my being am tired myself, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that I have channeled my being into this experience, into all the emotions and feelings to generate an energetic experience, thinking and believing that these experience are ‘making myself feeling alive’ and so loosing myself as life as ‘beingness’ within this, wherein I am not really lost or gone, but more channeled (by myself) within energy and so wasting or ‘burning the best of me’ so to speak.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be ‘tired of myself’ in a way as a tiredness of what I am doing to myself and by myself on a daily base.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to already want to give up on my self-commitment and experience a fear of ‘not committing’ and so, thinking and believing that I better not write the commitment, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that this is exactly the lack of expression, the incomplete expression within and as myself as a ‘loop’ where in I hold myself constricted, of not starting because of fearing that I will not commit to my own commitments and so instead ‘committing as a ‘holding on’ to a fear of failure.

As a start for myself for coming week:

When and as I see myself lingering in my mind and thinking about all the things that need to be done, I stop and breath. I realize that I generate energy in this as for example an experience of ‘giving up’ and so weakening my physical body and putting pressure on my organs because of the emotional energy that I generate within this on a subtle level and I realize that I accumulate the experience in all these small moments of lingering. I commit myself to ‘catch’ myself in the small moments of not wanting to pick up on things, to stop, to breathe for a moment and then moving myself in the small physical action that needs to be done and so move myself from action to action and within this, accumulate the physical action and satisfaction within and as myself.

A process of self-expression and physical action to be continued.

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Nice post from Kim about self-support in the small moments.

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Dag 705 – The body-being-mind relationship – Who am I ?

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The question ‘who am I’ was being discussed within group-chats that I participate in and at first, this was a bit vague for me. Meaning, I could not really define who I am and this was actually an important basic-point all the time, like, I could rationally understand ‘who I am’ and perfectly give words to it that I have learned and seen as real and common sense over the last few years. However, this does not mean that I as ‘me’, am really understanding and realizing myself as who I am.

Last week I was at my weekly sport-lesson. Standing half in front of a mirrow, doing the excersises within a group on music, I like this kind of work-out. What I noticed were the self-judgements that were automatically coming up within myself. Small and fast thoughts about how I look – positive as well as negative – and within this, as soon as they come up, I feel and notice how I finally diminish myself and actually define myself within and as these judgements. So here, I define myself as ‘who I am’ within and as self-judgement, so in and as the mind. Which is not a very supportive way to exist.

Moving on with the lesson, a realization came up within and as myself: I know and am sure what I stand for, I stand for and as principled living. I have committed myself to this, I am walking this now for several years, I am sure that this is what I want, what I will do and what I stand for and as and I am sure that I will forgive and correct myself when and as I am not living accordingly to the principles that are considering myself as life as a whole.

I can be and am sure of this, because I have extensively studied and applied this, I have walked and am continues walking this as a process that is needed to move myself from consciousness to awareness (where my awareness is present in and as myself within principled living, considering life as a whole). And here, I realized that this will be my platform of ‘who I am’, it’s my integrity and/as the certainty within and as myself, of my commitment and effort to live within principles that are best for myself (as life) and within this, for and as life as a whole and change myself into this on all the levels that I have separated myself in, as separation from this awareness within and as myself.

While realizing this, the small ‘rembling’ self-judgements disappeared/went silent and I have moved beyond this point within myself. Every time that an uncertainty comes up within myself, I remember myself as who I am within principles living. When I see within myself that self-judgements from another dimension keep on going, I know that these are other patterns that I need to look at, to forgive and correct within myself. However these small, rambling, diminishing self-judgements that are going on and on in my and every one’s mind – you know, the ones where everything is judged within self, a look on my face, a posture, actually my physical appearance and how I express myself in every small detail and then comparing myself to another, as being so self-conscious of every movement within and as my mind without doing anything about it – these are not needed, these do not make any sense at all and are of no support for myself, in and as life.

Within this moment during the sport, my calves became warmer and the circulation towards the calves, became better. A slight pain that did come back within the top of my left calve the few days before, it went away. One step forward towards earthing myself, one step deeper within my own physical body and finding a reference-point for myself that I can use, that I can live as, when and as I see that I tend to go into diminishing myself with regards to my physical presence and actually, it is a reference-point for myself when and as I tend to go into diminishing myself with regards to any other aspect. Altough here there may be more self-reflection needed, this who I am within principled living is still a reference-point for myself, in any and every moment.

More points to come, as I do feel more area’s that are cold within my physical that I will move myself towards, when and as I realize myself more and more in who I really am within the potential that I can live by and as.

Would you like to learn more about what principled living entails and how we can all start with this, within and as ourselves? There are lot’s of articles, video’s and lessons to find, free on line. To learn and understand where we come from (see ‘articles’ and ‘video’s’) and with practical solutions of how to move forward (see ‘lessons’ and ‘free on line’). For some basic understanding with regards to the terms ‘consciousness and awareness’, see the 3 links in the written text here above.

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Dag 672 – My body-being-mind awareness speaking

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I have asked for an individualised interview through the Portal with my physical body and especially with my large intestine, so that I can understand more what is going on within my physical body and use symptoms as support for myself to walk through certain patterns within the mind consciousness system in/as myself.

“My large intestine is speaking in the fore-ground but my whole mind-being-body awareness on a very deep level comes through to explain how this interrelated connection is set up within/as me. All my organs are under pressure in different ways and this has been so for most of my life because of the emotional suppressed transferences.”

“Each time I access an emotion or feeling this gets discharged, channeled, layered, stored in the physical body. Within most people, the emotional and feeling energy gets channeled through the ‘muscle energy highways’ through the muscles and through the veins of the physical body. So for most people the mind consciousness energy moves through the muscles. This is so because the muscle tissue is strong and more absorbant, detailed and specific in its structure and geomatry to absorb, channel, discharge, layer, move the mind-consciousness energy as one access it in real time moments. Like networks and train-tracks in the muscle tissue group of the physical body.”

“Within my physical body, my mind did not set up my emotional and feeling energy bodies movements and channeling and networking and absorbtion through the muscle groups but through the organs. The heart, intestines, stomach, bladder, kidneys, liver are doing the work that the rest of my body should actually be doing. It is a generational thing, meaning that there are some people within my past generations who have also had this problem. It is not life threathening and it allowed me to on an early age have an awareness of my emotional and feeling energy and where in I do get emotional but not allow myself to be too much overwhelmed or pulled into emotions and feelings, but am quickly able to slow myself down and look at things with clarity.  So this one could call a ‘gift in disguise’.”

“The physical consequense of this ‘set up’ is that my organs have been most of my life a bit under pressure –  but throughout my life, my body reasonably adapted; it strengthened my intestines, heart, organs. As explained has my muscle tissue not been used as a ‘muscle energy highway’ and because of not being used for this, the muscle tissue deteriorated to some degree; this because a lot of muscle development has been preprogrammed to be in line with the development and evolution of the mind where the muscles are normally be used by the mind consciousness system (and so ‘strengthening’ in a way). This is causing for the rest of my muscles and physical body to be and feel more ‘weak’ or less strong.”

This first part of the interview is clarifying a lot of what I am walking from about the age of 16 (I am 42, almost 43 at the moment). I have taken on everything I could to investigate and support my organs, all related within the area of natural medicine and I am still working in this environment. I did not know of this set up as how it is described within the interview. But I did notice that ‘something was not as how it should be’ when I looked at my physical condition and this in relation to my life in general. I did find out pretty early that certain organ manifestations were related to emotional experiences and I noticed in some degree the suppression there of within myself; I also found out later in life that feeling experiences influenced me physically very much so I could not allow myself to really dive into feelings as for example are coming up in a so called ‘love relationship’ as I could phycically not handle the energy within my body for let’s say more than a week. So I often was within situations where I or the other stopped this relationship-process somehow. Which in itself I saw as a pattern and that bothered me a lot, because I did not really nor completely understand how I could support myself through.

With the natural medicine and food alignments I have through the years found ways to support, strengthen and stabilize my organs more or less (where in my physical condition and some organs had been weakened pretty much in my late twenties and begin thirties) but during this I noticed that there was a mind-influence that I could not get a hold on and so, the physical support is only ‘working’ to some degree. I did see a direct relation with symptoms within my organs and what I did not understood, is how I could have so much physical influence of my mind and others not, while of course I have my emotional patterns as everyone else, but I did not see them as so much more extensive than others, but sometimes started to believe that they are in someway. So this is all creating extra energy again of reacting to what happens within my body without really understanding how it works. Which is influencing my organs again, etc.

I do see now why I saw the mind-body relationship direclty within myself. I did not understand how it could not be recognized by many others because within myself, it was obvious existing. I do now understand how this can be set up differently. Standing up and finding solutions for what we sense in a way, is however another story. I can describe it now as that I need my own beingness-direction here and I can only find myself within and while walking through the mind and learn how I have manifested this within my physical body. We all have things within ourselves that we do ‘sense’ but cannot see completely by ourself alone. The information given within this interview is one example of this. I do need support in this and so has everyone points where support from others is needed.

When I started walking the Desteni I Process, I noticed to have finally found a structure and support to really get to know and support myself within this trinity of the mind-being-body relationship and I continue walking this until it is done, for myself and others. But only now with the information of my mind-being-body awareness itself on a very deep level through the Portal, I do understand why I physically experience myself as how I do. It supports me to accept the physical consequenses and I do no longer need to ‘blame’ myself for it – something that I could not really forgive myself for because I did not really understand the set up within my body and how it is related to my physical condition and mind patterns.

So, I have a new starting-point to walk from now within this mind-being-body interconnectedness; things that I could not really place into context are opening up and I am grateful for this – where in my organs will be of support to walk through different personality systems. In the second part of the interview, the large intestine is giving more detailed information of personality systems related to this organ, which is something that I need to take on at the moment. I will not expand on this here as it is something that I first need to investigate, forgive and walk through for myself.

At the same time I will move on with the physical support and alignment as how I have learned myself to do throughout the years as a physical basic-platform. I do no longer need to worry about why my muscles are not really building up but will see if I can keep them stable and in form as they are and how I am already doing, to keep on walking my life and process in/as the physical on earth.

So for whomever is having questions that you would like to see clarified as a support to understand (and so forgive) yourself and your physical body, I can really suggest an individualised or private interview through the Portal. This combined with walking the Desteni I Process as self-support to start walking with and through your mind, into the physical body. As a way to start walking towards and standing up in oneness and equality with and as Life as a whole.

And to learn that we are able to support ourselves and each other within this, that we are able to change within and as ourselves to what is best for all, slowly, together yet alone, alone yet together, if we are willing to do so. The ones who are reading this blog, are most likely belonging to the group of people that do have the possibility to already start, this with regards to our position in this world and related to money and basic needs providence.

I find it the greatest gift to learn how to support myself and stand together with others within this. Will it be challenging? Yes. For sure. For myself I can say, it is as challenging as what I had to walk before, alone with myself and only a few others and it is only getting better while I understand more and more of myself and because of walking with already many others around the world who have made the same decission to do so. Within this I am an example that one is able to face oneself within one’s emotions without getting lost in it. I have faced pretty much of it and still need to open up all the things I have suppressed. A process that my organs will support me with.

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Dag 665 – Kijken doe je met de oogjes

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Naar aanleiding van de interviews van de Reptilians stel ik mezelf de vraag: “Waar ben ik?”

Mijn antwoord op deze vraag was een keer ‘in de geest’ en een keer ‘hier aanwezig’ waarbij hetgeen ik dan waarneem, mijn focus op mijn ademhaling is en ik de omgeving om me heen waarneem. Als ik dieper in deze vraag kijk, zie ik dat ik met name niet hier wil zijn als mijn lichaam oncomfortabel aanvoelt en ik een constante pijnprikkel ervaar in mijn darmen doordat ontlasting die wordt voortgestuwd en tegelijkertijd wordt tegengehouden door verkrampingen in het darmspierweefsel, op deze ‘aangedane’ plekken duwt. Eens zien of ik dit aspect wat kan openen voor mezelf.

Ik vergeef mezelf dat ik mezelf toegestaan en aanvaard heb niet hier te willen zijn in mijn lichaam als het oncomfortabel aanvoelt en ik constant herinnerd word aan het ongemak dat ik ervaar in mijn darm doordat ontlasting die wordt voortgestuwd door de darmperistaltiek, tegelijkertijd wordt tegengehouden door de verkrampingen in het darmspierweefsel en er op deze wijze een constante ‘tegenstrijdigheid’ in mij aanwezig is die zich fysiek uitspeelt.

Ik vergeef mezelf dat ik mezelf toegestaan en aanvaard heb een tegenstrijdigheid in mezelf, fysiek uit te spelen.

Ik vergeef mezelf dat ik mezelf toegestaan en aanvaard heb de ervaring van deze tegenstrijdigheid zo naar te vinden dat ik niet in mijn eigen lichaam aanwezig wil zijn en reageer op deze tegenstrijdigheid in mijzelf, toegestaan en gemanifesteerd in mijn lichaam en zo mezelf terug te trekken in de geest als enige uitweg om heen te gaan.

Ik vergeef mezelf dat ik mezelf toegestaan en aanvaard heb mezelf terug te trekken in de geest, in en als een geloof dat ik niets kan veranderen aan deze fysieke ervaring aangezien het zich al fysiek gemanifesteerd heeft.

Ik vergeef mezelf dat ik mezelf toegestaan en aanvaard heb te denken en geloven dat zodra iets zich fysiek gemanifesteerd heeft, ik er niets meer aan kan veranderen.

Ik vergeef mezelf dat ik mezelf toegestaan en aanvaard heb me terug te trekken in plaats van door te zetten als een patroon, wat fysiek zichtbaar wordt in/als mijn ontlastingspatroon.

Ik vergeef mezelf dat ik mezelf toegestaan en aanvaard heb angst te ervaren om door te zetten.

Ik realiseer me dat ik een beeld heb bij wat ‘doorzetten’ in zou houden, alsof ik er stoer en sterk voor moet zijn en in ‘één keer’ door moet zetten, in plaats van in te zien, realiseren en begrijpen dat doorzetten een proces inhoudt van stap voor stap veranderen in kleine momenten die zich opstapelen en samen een algehele verandering inhouden door de tijd heen.

Ik vergeef mezelf dat ik mezelf toegestaan en aanvaard heb te denken en geloven dat ik niet doorzet en mezelf te veroordelen dat ik niet doorzet, dit vanuit een geloof/idee dat doorzetten één grote stap inhoudt waarin alles verandert.

Als en wanneer ik mezelf waarneem in een terugtrekkende beweging binnenin mezelf, dan stop ik, ik adem.

Ik realiseer me dat dit een vrij algemeen vlagpunt is waarin ik mezelf meer specifiek kan waarnemen door de dag om zo tot een meer specifieke toepassing te komen.

Ik stel mezelf ten doel me gewaar te worden van en mezelf waar te nemen op de momenten waarop ik mezelf terugtrek/neig terug te trekken en van hieruit te zien wat maakt dat ik me terug wil trekken, verantwoordelijkheid te nemen voor mezelf met de toepassing van zelfvergeving op de ervaring in het moment, op hetgeen de ervaring uitlokt en op de onderliggende weerstanden als gedachten en aannames over mezelf.

Als en wanneer ik angst ervaar om door te zetten, dan stop ik, ik adem.

Ik realiseer me dat ik me bevind in een programma waarin ik denk en geloof dat ik niet verder mag, dat hier ‘de grenzen’ zijn waarin ik me realiseer dat dit de begrenzing/beperking inhoudt van de geest en het geestbewustzijnssysteem, waar we/ik niet geacht word ‘voorbij’ te gaan, oftewel, het Godsprincipe waarin ik mezelf moet blijven onderwerpen aan ‘God’, die vertegenwoordigd is in ieder van ons in en als de geest in ieders eigen gecreëerde controlesysteem in gedachten, gevoelens en emoties, aannames, geloofsovertuigingen en ideeën.

Ik vergeef mezelf dat ik mezelf toegestaan en aanvaard heb wel te mogen ‘kijken’ voorbij de programmering maar dit niet te mogen leven en uitvoeren.

Ik vergeef mezelf dat ik mezelf toegestaan en aanvaard heb te denken en geloven dat ik alleen mag kijken en niet mag ‘uitproberen’ wat me doet denken aan ‘kijken doe je met de oogjes’ zoals vaak tegen kinderen gezegd wordt.

Ik vergeef mezelf dat ik mezelf toegestaan en aanvaard heb te zitten en toe te kijken zonder deel te nemen.

Ik vergeef mezelf dat ik mezelf toegestaan en aanvaard heb angst te hebben gecreëerd om iets fout te doen als ik iets aanraak of uitprobeer en hierin gestopt te zijn met aanraken en uitproberen.

Ik vergeef mezelf dat ik mezelf toegestaan en aanvaard heb te denken en geloven dat ik het in één keer goed moet doen en als dit niet lukt als ik hier niet zeker van ben, te denken het beter niet te kunnen doen.

Ik vergeef mezelf dat ik mezelf toegestaan en aanvaard heb mezelf te beperken door iets niet uit te proberen waar ik niet zeker van ben dat ik het kan en aangezien ik alleen ‘zeker kan zijn van wat ik kan van hetgeen dat binnen mijn programmering valt, aangezien ik dit al geleerd heb in en als de geest’, zal op deze manier niet voorbij mijn programmering bewegen.

Ik vergeef mezelf dat ik mezelf toegestaan en aanvaard heb te denken en geloven dat voorbij een programmering bewegen met veel kabaal en aandacht gebeurt wat ik liever vermijd, in plaats van in te zien, realiseren en begrijpen dat deze zelfbeweging plaatsvindt door middel van kleine veranderingen in mezelf die zich opbouwen tot en als het leven van en als verandering en waarin ik zeker kan zijn/worden door de energetische ladingen als aangehechte emoties en gevoelens aan woorden, patronen en herinneringen, te verwijderen met behulp van de toepassing van zelfvergeving en zo mezelf te gronden in en als mezelf.

Ik stel mezelf ten doel mezelf te gronden door de energetische ladingen als aangehechte emoties en gevoelens, te verwijderen van woorden, patronen en herinneringen met behulp van zelfvergeving waarmee ik mezelf terugbreng bij/als mezelf vanuit de afgescheidenheid in en als de geest, het fysiek in en van hieruit woord voor woord, patroon voor patroon mezelf te corrigeren/veranderen en mezelf in expressie te brengen in woord, daad en aanwezigheid, in overweging van het fysieke leven en de fysieke realiteit.

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Dag 654 – The mind-body relationship – Schussler Salts and Celloid Minerals

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Celloid Minerals from Blackmore are based on the theory of Dr William Schussler from Germany who investigated, that when any living tissue is burned, only mineral ash remains therefor minerals must represent the basic inorganic building blocks and when different organs and tissues of the body are analysed for their natural content, they contain different minerals and different proportions. He concluded that minerals, in their different proportions must therefor be vital to the proper functioning of the body.

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Celloid Mineral Therapy was pioneered by the Australian naturopath Maurice Blackmore in the late 1930’s. Where Dr Schussler gives dilutions  – they call it homeopathic quantity, however there is up until now a discussion if the original Schussler saltz are homeopathic or not, as Schussler himself claimed that his system was unique and bore no relationship to homeopathy – which I subscribe from my investigations from information nowadays. In the Netherlands there is one firm that prepares the Schussler Salts following this original preparation method, they call them Vitazouten (VitaSalts) and do not fall under the Homeopathic legislation. However, the Schussler Salts (1873) contains infinitesimal amounts of mineral substance (about 1:1,000,000)  where the Celloid Mineral Therapy (1938) contains of tablets in physiologically active doses, which are developped in an area in which technical information on physicologically active nutrients was rapidly increasing.

The Schussler Salts are based on the theory that the re-astablishing of the mineral equilibrium can be done with the administration of the ‘homeopathic’ (or diluted) quantity. For example one takes the dilution and from here, the body will be able to absorb the whole mineral from the food again. Now if for example the food is lacking this certain mineral or one is eating different food, this mineral will not be absorbed in the amount that the body may need and so, it may not be enough or one need to take a lot of these diluted tablets. So from my perspective one can say that the Celloid Minerals are more alligned with the time where in we live at the moment and the lack of minerals that is found in our food and in the soil in general, this together with the accumulation of the mind within our body and the compressed processes that we walk through as human beings and ofcourse our busy lifestyles, but also that it depends on the amount of shortcoming that the body is showing, where one can decide to take higher doses (Celloid) to really supply the physical lack, or smaller doses (Schussler) used as a more subtile mind-physical support.

What I find interesting here, coming forward after some years of investigations within the use of mostly the Celloid Minerals but also some Vitazouten, within my own body is that the lack of certain same Minerals are time after time coming back. This can be because of certain body conditions that ask for more of a certain mineral to cure, it can be related to the type of food that I eat and, I am sure that it can also be related to certain thought-patterns and mind-programming that I have developped over years, that are resourcing or ‘consuming’ the same certain minerals from my body as how I have ‘conditioned’ myself and also, how my (mind-physical) constitution is from birth. So here an holistic approach is needed to really stabilize the mineral balance within the body and it might be even necessary to keep taking certain minerals if this is not find in the food anymore or more specific, not in the food that one is eating and it is actually necessary as a physical support, to keep on taking it until the certain/related thought-patterns and mind consciousness system programming are solved and deleted, so forgiven within oneself so that one does not recreate this ‘lack’ again through specific mind-participation.

This last part is an area that is open for investigation as it is not yet that common. It is mentioned within the theory of the Schussler Salts (Vitazouten) that a lack of a certain mineral gives certain emotional or mind conditions and also that an ‘overburdening of the mind’ can be (part of) the cause of the physical lack and so, it is a circle within ourselves as a living organism. This shows how the mind and body are very inter-related and also very integrated and within this, we have our ‘being’ as third part that we need to stand up in and as, as a ‘directing and leading living being’ in consideration of the mind and body that we are integrated and inter-related with, within and as ourselves.

To be continued in blogs to come with some suggestions how we can work with this and how it works as a ‘peeling of the layers’ of the mind-patterns and related physical conditions, where one can see coming up different lacks of minerals and where the intake of these minerals can be of support, for our physical body but also for ourselves to walk through the mind-patterns that we have stored, lived and integrated within and as ourselves. And, the decision to support oneself within, that is an example of where one can see the ‘being’ coming forward, as a direction as awareness within and as oneself, in relation to certain physical conditions and within (related) mind-patterns to walk through.

The mind-body relationship – Timeline

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Dag 650 – The mind-body relationship – It’s a decision

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One of the most supportive realizations I have found as guideline that is given to me by others while walking this process, is within the words  ‘it’s a decision’. Because this is showing that I can decide to live something instead of me ‘waiting for something to feel or happen or understand’, or whatever I am waiting for. It’s an active direction from myself and if I keep on walking and applying myself, there will come a moment where I bring myself to this point of decision-making.

What I have found here is that there is a process before and towards this moment of this decision-making. I have to come to a certain understanding and to clear myself from ideas, related emotions and feelings and I often first need to walk through some physical consequenses to bring the point here within forgiveness/understanding, from where I at a certain moment stand up within the will and ability as a decision to stop the following of a certain program.

I have seen and walked this process for example in some points of physical discomforts. Not so long ago I became very tired, exhausted. I had a turbulent period from more than six months, after this there were changes with additional responsibility again and I noticed physical aspects that I needed to support within myself and this is what I started with. I supported my intestine with some products to strengthen the mucus-barrier, I supplied some basic-mineral nutriënts and I started with the Co enzym Q10 to support within the process of the production of physical energy. During some weeks, I only focussed on the most important area’s in my life at that moment, I went to bed earlier to rest and to relax and enjoy with a book for example, made some changes within my food-scedule and supported myself to keep on going through the days, slowly, step by step, as I knew that it was something that I needed to walk through. I have experienced and manifested quite some periods within my life where I was within a state of exhaustion, where I more than once needed to stay home. I now (and also earlier during walking the Desteni I Process) saw myself able to move on slowly and able to not allow myself to stay home from work for example (which ofcourse I would have done if this would be really necessary) to not step in a program again.

After a while I noticed that my body was busy rebalancing and I became experiencing myself less ‘on the edge of tiredness’. However I still had the experience of exhaustion within myself. I experience this as if every step, every move, every task is an effort that I look up to as towards a mountain and I dragged and needed to push myself through. I also noticed that ‘there was something’ with this experience. It did not completely make sense with regards to my physical state, as for example I noticed that I could suddenly run and take a sprint to catch a bus and that I actually liked to do this, it felt physically good. But I looked up towards doing things – towards almost everything – on forehand.

After this sprinting to catch the bus, I was at home and within myself I noticed a very small movement. And this movement I recognized as the decision to ‘move on’ and not keep hanging within exhaustion. And from here it went better and in a few days, the experiencing of ‘every move and task being an effort’ went away.

I have had the same ‘movement’ as decision with regards to symptoms of having a could within myself two years ago, where a headache kept on hanging as if a bacteria kept on busy within my body until I decided to stop ‘longing for being ill to take a break, as an excuse to do nothing’. And very lately I also noticed my instable blood-sugar level stabilizing within myself after making the decision that it was not needed anymore. I still need to eat on time (which gives more meals than the ‘normal’ three times a day) but with doing so it is regulating while for about 6-8 weeks, it was as if I kept having low-bloodsugar levels even after having food. (This does not say anything about for example a physical state of diabetic where other, physical aspects are involved that need to be supported physically throughout someone’s live – related blogs are to be found here). So I see a physical aspect and a mind-aspect involved within the physical states and conditions to walk through and stabilize within.

I still need to ‘take it slow’ and support myself a lot physically, as I have to take my physical condition and constitution into consideration and I keep on focussing on the basic-aspects within my live. I am not dragging myself through the day anymore although I do notice this ‘looking up to do things’ as for example with cleaning the house still existing within me so it stays as a point of attention and for further investigation. But I somewhere, very silently within myself, almost as a sight, made this decision to stop participating in this experience of being exhausted all the time. And everytime I make such decision, I notice it is in one moment, very small and silent, almost not noticable but still I am very aware of it and the effect is clear within myself.

In the most challenging times, I know that I need to keep on walking and to not give up, as a ‘walking through’ without in that moment, knowing exactly and directly what I am walking through and this is where in I see my self-trust, in this slowly keeping on walking and not giving up. These processes to walk through, I find them most challenging and at the same time, I experience these decisions and the effect when I have made them, as greatest gifts.

The mind-body relationship – Timeline

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Introduction – Psychological & Physical Disorders

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Dag 630 – The body-being-mind relationship – Physical effect of self-forgiveness

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The application of self-forgiveness is a tool to use to delete the emotional, feeling and thought patterns that we have believed, manifested and lived throughout our lives. In this manifesting, we even condition our own physical body to a state that is physically reflecting the believes that we have taken for granted, in/as the mind. So, from here, it is in common sense to see that the application of self-forgiveness can be used as well as a support to release the body from the falty patterns that we have made up in/as the mind throughout our lives and that have been lived throughout generations before us.

I have created consequenses within my own physical body. Here my own body is a point of cross-reference to see if I am effective in the application of self-forgiveness and to see if I am self-honest in it. Meaning: am I really honest about and towards myself in what I have taken for granted and what I have physically manifested, in how I have spoken, lived and behaved in a way that was not best for myself and so not best for all? So being self-honest means basicely: do I dare to see where I have not taken care of myself and/or another and so, created physical consequenses? Do I dare to face myself in this and admit to myself, okay, I did it wrong, I had no respect, let’s see how to bring forward solutions and better myself here. Self-honesty also means to dare to experience the pain that is caused, towards myself and towards another, from myself and/or from another, by living without respect and care. Here it is to be/become aware to not go into judgements again towards myself and/or another of how I/the other ‘did it all wrong’ and manifested consequenses, but rather see how to support myself within the moment, moving through the experiences and taking responsibility for it in/as myself, as well as for the point of control in it. Step by step, day by day.

Yesterday morning I was having difficulties within my large intestine – as many mornings, which means that I am having cramps within the intestine with the result of not being able to have a releasing stool. Throughout the past weeks, there are emotional reactions coming up while I am walking through points coming up that I see related to a manifested concept of ‘love’ as how it is known in this world and to emotional experiences of ‘neediness‘. This morning I decided to lay down with myself and start speaking self-forgiveness out load.

The moment I started speaking, my intestine started to make noises and I felt movements coming up inside and this kept on going while I was speaking the self-forgiveness. While speaking, emotions were coming up that I released within the words and that I released within an expression of crying. I went on with this until I felt as if a burden had gone, a burden that I was carying with me for already longer. How I do this is actually very simple: I lay down and start with what is coming up within me. I place my hands on places in my body/belly that are tensed or hurted, I push a little when necessary, I speak within a self-forgiveness statement what comes up in me and from here, see what further comes up. This can also be a memory that I have created emotional attachements towards. I do not go into ‘analysing’ what comes up in me but simply release myself from what I experience inside myself. I name it, I forgive myself for it and move on to the next. Here I bring the ‘falty patterns’ within a supportive expression for/as myself. I move myself through the emotional experiences while embracing myself in acceptance, towards and within understanding myself.

An hour or something more later, after this session of self-forgiveness I took a second cup of coffee (I have two in the morning) and I was able to go to the toilet again and release myself from the waste. Here I saw the movement direct related to how I released myself from the emotional burdens that I was holding on to within myself. They often say, when the large intestine is having difficulties to release, one is having difficulties to ‘let go’. Well, that I do recognize myself in for sure. However, how am I able to ‘let go’? As simply saying ‘okay, you have to let go’ is not enough, it has to be more practicle.

The application of self-forgiveness is the tool that I find most supportive in ‘letting go’. Self-forgiveness in itself, means ‘letting go’ of what I am holding on to in/as my mind, within thoughts and beliefs, within emotions, within feelings and within holding on to how I have defined myself in these thoughts, beliefs, emotions and feelings in/as my mind. So if we see how much we participate in thoughts, emotions and feelings during a day, during a week, during a lifetime until now, it is to see with common sense that it is not a solution to say ‘oh you are having difficulties with letting go so you have to let go’. This is not giving a specific tool of How to let go. It is not taken the mind consciousness system into consideration and it is not showing an awareness of how we specificely have created ourselves within and as this mind consciousness system; a system that we have accepted and allowed to manifest within and without ourselves. We have accepted and allowed to manipulate Life, within ourselves and without in this world by participating extensively within the mind consciousness system. So much that we even do not see, realize and understand how we did this, how we have accepted and allowed this and how we are responsible for this, within ourselves and without in this world.

So here I am walking through my own manifested consequenses, within my own body that I mainly experience within a disfunctional large intestine and emotional experiences coming up. The sounding of self-forgiveness is having an effect on this disfunctional pattern, the sounding of self-forgiveness is supporting in releasing the disfunctional beliefs and emotional experiences that I have physically manifested. In doing so, it is giving more room to my physical body to function properly.

The disfunctional pattern has manifested throughout the years during my life and so it’s not done in a moment and it is not the whole solution. After the letting go of the old, I have to create a new, healty script and live this script for/as myself and of course the body needs to be supported physically with for example suitable food and additional supplements. It’s an ongoing process of self-support. The application of (sounding) self-forgiveness is definitely a part of this support and it is a practical tool that entails a ‘letting go’.

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