Dag 297 – Expressie en de Darm – The Inner Test

I had a chat with my buddy from the dip-pro course yesterday; I said I was irritated and my intestines feel cramped and irritated, and he asked:  Irritated intestines. So what is the inner test?

The Inner Test. This makes the irritated intestine more tangible.

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Problem:

I still sleep too long, and in relation to sleep I have created and build up several, well many limitations for and about myself. One of them is fear of tiredness. Not just fear of the experience – which I experience physical, as it is not really physical in source but it manifested in a physical experience – but also fear that if I do not listen to this tiredness and push through, I will ‘break down’ something in the physical and do harm to the physical.

Which of course is vice versa, the information I turned around in/as the mind, as by over sleeping and generating energy within this and judging myself for this, I actually harm the body, as the participating in/as the mind is what is doing harm to the body and not the pushing through lol.

Solution:

To write out the related topics to sleep and the patterns and fears that I created around sleep; investigate them, forgive myself the patterns and correct myself in this where in I create the ability for myself to stand up in this patterns and fears related to sleep within the support of myself.

Reward:

Having no more sleep than 6 hours and within this having more time to write and do the other daily tasks in combination with the job outside the house, and within this being satsified with myself in pushing myself to do as much as possible and so to push myself slowly but surely to the utmost potential of what I am capable of, which is the real inner test.

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Let’s make a general start:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the physical experience of being tired, where in all my muscles feel so heavy and powerless, where in my eyes just want to close, where in I experience my whole body as just wanting to lay down and go back to sleep, where in I experience myself as unable to stand up, to put aside the blankets, to experience the cold, to sit down on the side of the bed, to breathe, to drink some water, to stand up and go to the bathroom.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wake up in the morning after 5.5 – 6 hours sleep, just before the alarm goes off, and not wanting to stand up, altough in that moment I do not feel tired.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to start creating a thought after the alarm goes off, and from this thought see the moment where I make the decision to stand up immediately or to lay down for a while and wait again for the snooze-function of the alarm which is 10 minutes later, believing that I only will lay down 10 minutes, but every morning repeating this pattern from in between time of 20 minutes till 1 hour, and so within this spend up to 1 hour more in bed, after which I stand up, already irritated by myself that I did it again.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to every night make the resolve to stand up immediately when the alarm goes off next morning, and really feeling like ‘this time I am really doing it’, and next morning again make the decision to procrastinate the standing up and using the snooze function of the alarm, for a short or a longer time, but snoozing is snoozing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make myself believe – although I know I lie to myself –  that short snoozing like 10 or 20 minutes is okay, and only long snoozing is not okay, not using the common sense in this that there is no ‘in between’ in making a decision, and as long as I am standing in between, I allow myself to fall.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to act as an addict every morning with regards to the decision of standing up immediately after the alarm goes off, in which I use excuses that are really no different of the excuses that a drug-or alcohol addict uses every time, every day with regards to the decision to stop drinking and/or doing drugs.

To be continued

De serie Expressie en de Darm begint bij Dag 232  – (inclusief Disclaimer)

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Dag 186 – Atlascorrection – aligning the physical

Yesterday I went for a treatment to Breda. It is called Atlascorrection. It is a treatment of correcting the first cervical vertebra, called the atlas. This vertebra is a little bit more broad than alle the other vertebras laying under it. In 99% of the human the atlas is not laying straight. Meaning, it has two small points which fit exactly in two little holes, but it is not laying in this holes. This has an effect on the whole spine, the hips and pelvis and on the legs, and on different organ- functions because through the hole in the middle of the atlas there are a lot of nerve-paths that do not have enough space if the atlas is laying wry/on one side.

The atlas is having this wry position because of manipulations during birth, other manipulations during life or manipulations because of defensemechanism which triggered a reflective movement within the upper muscles of the neck later in life. Interesting is that it also can be that this atlas is not laying on the right place from birth and that if it is corrected within the woman, there are children born with who it is laying on the right place. They connect it within this with something in the DNA. And after asking some more the woman who treat me says that there is ‘a theory’ that it is programmed like this – the atlas laying wry – by the Annunaki? I am not familiar with the terms they use and which theory is behind this race within other information than through the portal within desteni.

Before going to SA I decided to go to a treatment like this because of different physical complaints that can be related to dysbalance within the atlas and because of my hips that are twisted and getting worse. I saw this treatment, read something about this atlas not straight from birth, and my first impression was, this has something to do with the programming of the mind.

Well I went there, and although it is a woman who is working with terms of Light in her other treatments, she was very straight, clear and practical in her way of speaking and acting and of course only speaking about this atlascorrection because that is what I was coming for. She explained that they give a deep massage to the muscles around the atlas, the muscles can relax and within this the atlas go to the right place, within the small holes, by itself. No manipulation of the vertebras. She also checked first how the atlas is standing and showed me how it was not standing straight with different physical signs that she cross-referenced with each other. Yes it was not straight and yes, this I noticed already for a long time.

The massage is giving with a small machine which goes deep into the muscles, and it hurts! Especially when the muscle is very tight because of the incorrect stand of the atlas, trying to correct the body within this. By me, it always hurts on this place, this is one of the reasons why I knew I had to go there for a treatment. The treatment is short, a few minutes, and she is holding the head with her other arm which gives support in the painfull massage. After the massage she checked again with me and the turning of the head was alligned, the legs where laying in the right possition, I am standing directly more straight and stable in my legs and in more aware in my pelvic, standing more straight on earth. I was a little overwhelmed because of the pain, which afterwards is actually gone besides some sensitivity left of the treated area. My experience is that it is finally standing straight, and not only the spine, but something within my whole body which I was correcting all the time but not able to do so. But of course doing all the things possible to find a balance. I also noticed when I was outside again traveling home, that it seems like I am looking more to the right side, which is actually straight ahead, but because before I looked more to the left, it seems now like I am looking a little to the right. it’s like I suddenly see and want to see the right side.

There can be reactions and corrections within the body for up to a year because the body has to correct itself within this new standing, which can be supported with other treatments, and ofcourse by applying self-forgiveness and self-corrections to align the mind with the physical within this process. Most of time it is a permanent correction of the atlas, as it lays on the right position it stays there.

Let’s see how it goes.

Next day I was listening to the interview of The Consciousness of the Butterfly 1. The Butterfly is speaking about DNA. About how the body was within the sound-symbols within the DNA not meant to cooperate in its full potential, to devellop physical communication in the most potential,  but that it is programmed with the purpose to generate the most energy possible for consciousness to survive. This is exactly how it is with the atlas not standing straight and what I noticed within myself related to this: I was generating energy all the time by trying to correct myself in/as the physical in all possible ways and creating frustrations/sadness and more by experiencing not being able to do so. The investigations about this atlascorrection show that correction of the position of the atlas corrects something – the sound-symbols? – within the DNA as some children that are born (not all) by woman from who the atlas is corrected, are born with a straight position of the atlas.

It is not really clear to me if the the atlas is already wry when the baby is coming out of the womb, or that it is manifested later in life. The influence of the program as consciousness, as what they here call a defense mechanism which triggers a reflective movement,  is part of this position of the atlas, and as far as I can see it is depending on different factors, from mother, child, pregnancy, DNA  and devellopment and eventual accidents during lifetime on earth, in which way it manifests and where it starts.

It is a treatment that I can really recommend as a support to align yourself within the physical, where in the physical and mind can function together, supporting each other as Equals, as Life.

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