Dag 705 – The body-being-mind relationship – Who am I ?


The question ‘who am I’ was being discussed within group-chats that I participate in and at first, this was a bit vague for me. Meaning, I could not really define who I am and this was actually an important basic-point all the time, like, I could rationally understand ‘who I am’ and perfectly give words to it that I have learned and seen as real and common sense over the last few years. However, this does not mean that I as ‘me’, am really understanding and realizing myself as who I am.

Last week I was at my weekly sport-lesson. Standing half in front of a mirrow, doing the excersises within a group on music, I like this kind of work-out. What I noticed were the self-judgements that were automatically coming up within myself. Small and fast thoughts about how I look – positive as well as negative – and within this, as soon as they come up, I feel and notice how I finally diminish myself and actually define myself within and as these judgements. So here, I define myself as ‘who I am’ within and as self-judgement, so in and as the mind. Which is not a very supportive way to exist.

Moving on with the lesson, a realization came up within and as myself: I know and am sure what I stand for, I stand for and as principled living. I have committed myself to this, I am walking this now for several years, I am sure that this is what I want, what I will do and what I stand for and as and I am sure that I will forgive and correct myself when and as I am not living accordingly to the principles that are considering myself as life as a whole.

I can be and am sure of this, because I have extensively studied and applied this, I have walked and am continues walking this as a process that is needed to move myself from consciousness to awareness (where my awareness is present in and as myself within principled living, considering life as a whole). And here, I realized that this will be my platform of ‘who I am’, it’s my integrity and/as the certainty within and as myself, of my commitment and effort to live within principles that are best for myself (as life) and within this, for and as life as a whole and change myself into this on all the levels that I have separated myself in, as separation from this awareness within and as myself.

While realizing this, the small ‘rembling’ self-judgements disappeared/went silent and I have moved beyond this point within myself. Every time that an uncertainty comes up within myself, I remember myself as who I am within principles living. When I see within myself that self-judgements from another dimension keep on going, I know that these are other patterns that I need to look at, to forgive and correct within myself. However these small, rambling, diminishing self-judgements that are going on and on in my and every one’s mind – you know, the ones where everything is judged within self, a look on my face, a posture, actually my physical appearance and how I express myself in every small detail and then comparing myself to another, as being so self-conscious of every movement within and as my mind without doing anything about it – these are not needed, these do not make any sense at all and are of no support for myself, in and as life.

Within this moment during the sport, my calves became warmer and the circulation towards the calves, became better. A slight pain that did come back within the top of my left calve the few days before, it went away. One step forward towards earthing myself, one step deeper within my own physical body and finding a reference-point for myself that I can use, that I can live as, when and as I see that I tend to go into diminishing myself with regards to my physical presence and actually, it is a reference-point for myself when and as I tend to go into diminishing myself with regards to any other aspect. Altough here there may be more self-reflection needed, this who I am within principled living is still a reference-point for myself, in any and every moment.

More points to come, as I do feel more area’s that are cold within my physical that I will move myself towards, when and as I realize myself more and more in who I really am within the potential that I can live by and as.

Would you like to learn more about what principled living entails and how we can all start with this, within and as ourselves? There are lot’s of articles, video’s and lessons to find, free on line. To learn and understand where we come from (see ‘articles’ and ‘video’s’) and with practical solutions of how to move forward (see ‘lessons’ and ‘free on line’). For some basic understanding with regards to the terms ‘consciousness and awareness’, see the 3 links in the written text here above.


The body-being-mind relationship – Timeline


This blog does in no way contain a medical advise. With unclarity about a condition – physically or mentally – always contact a practioner/specialist/doctor in the related area to get the support you need and from here, see how you can additionally walk your own process to get to know and support yourself in relation to your own body and mind.

Dag 436 – What is HIT? – training at the gym


This year the grouplesson HIT started at the gym in the place that I live in The Netherlands. HIT means High Intensity Training. When I google it, I see HIIT, with two I’s, where there is the ‘Interval’ added. Well seemingly the let the interval out here in the gym lol; well actually the training is done with some interval.

Here the group-lesson is a little mixed with how the lessons were given before, so it is given on music with some warming up on the rithm of the music, and during time they more and more let out the jumping parts as most of the group-participants (including myself) didnot like the jumping that much. So it is a combination of the low impact aerobic-lessons as how they were given in the past, combined with more high-intensity muscle training where – as the instructor tells us – it is meant that we go a little bit further where the muscles ‘normally’ feel like stopping (without forcing and injuring the muscles ofcourse) and this is applied within interval (so training, short stop, training again etc). the physical exercises are here and there expanded with some light weights and/or other attributes to intensify the training.

I really enjoy this grouplessons given on music and the building of the muscle is supportive for the body to strengthen and relax at the same time; strengthening of the physical muscles and relaxing from the tension build up in/as the mind which gives muscle tension in the body. I like the tonus of the body which is reached with some light muscle training especially because I do not have so much weight and this tonus gives a little bit more ‘body’. I physically experience it as if the muscles are more ‘into place’ into the function of the muscle and I am more present within my body. During my life I have always joined sports within groups and teams and I still like to do this together with others, while in other aereas I enjoy doing things alone. However, during vacations I do some trainings alone where I really have to push myself for this, I really prefer this doing in a group.


With the support of this relatively ‘light’ training I have been able to strengthen my shouldermuscles, which were pretty much injured around the tendons due to overburden in the past. The muscle-tissue was very much diminished within the shoulders because I was not aware of how to physically support myself within this injury of the tendons and so actually it became worse and worse. Until I went to a good fysiotherapist who had also a gym, and he coached me from the very beginning in how to built up the muscle-tissue again, how far I could go, how much pain I could have and when it was too much, as within this injury every movement hurted all the time and I had no idea anymore what I could do and what not. I started this training about 7 years ago and slowly it went better and I became able to join in group-lessons again.

I say again, because I actually also hurted myself within the aerobic-lessons in the past. I was pretty fanatic in this, joined at least 2-3 times a week and also had a physical job which I could not take a break of because of the payments. I am speaking about almost 20 years ago now in the years where I worked, studied, was going out, had a more busy social life and was also doing trainings. The problem with an injury at the tendons is that in the beginning it only becomes painful afterwards the exertion and it’s not that intens, it’s more a little nagging pain. If I would have back then supported myself physically as how I know and do now it would not have become that bad as it did, as I would have kept the muscle tissue build up and kept strength during the revalidation. But I ignored this pain for too long and I was not really aware of the ability of the coaching of a physiotherapist, so it took a long time to recover. I am still not the strongest person as I am still busy with the origin of the injury, which is ofcourse not only simply an overburden but has mind-patterns within and behind it which affect the physical body intensively when they are not directed effectively.

I stept out of the physical job, find new jobs where eventually I worked behind the computer, which I also left as I could not do the computerwork all day. Well, I work in a store now where there is only some additional computerwork and I am back again behind the laptop during hometime where I work more than I could have imagined during that days of the injury as is visible within the writings. I always keep an eye on the balance and pain-symptoms but know much better what I can do and where I need to stop and within this I am busy investigating the deep-physical tension in/as the mindstructures that influences my physical body.

Personal Sports Club

Back to the gym during these days.

Some points that I find during the lessons to apply self-forgiveness on:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to irritate myself when there is put on some music that is very very old and not aligned with the trainings as they said in the beginning that HIT-lessons are not supposed to do on music.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to irritate myself that this not aligning with the music is taken on as ‘a rule’ while the instructor is able to direct this point and integrate and combine this with ones own experience of grouplessons on music.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to irritate myself with my own rules in/as the mind about how exercises should be aligned with the ritm of the music and about what good music is and what not and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project my irritation as not being satisfied within my preference in/as the mind on the instructor.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let my physical performance being influenced by irritation in/as the mind about music and so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let myself activate and de-activate myself in/as the mind by the music that is played or not played.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think “it could be so much more fun and supportive if this training is aligned with the music”.

When and as I see myself going into irritation about the music I stop and breathe. I realize that I influence myself in/as the mind by my reactions on the music and that the music in itself has no power to influence me and/or my performance where in I determine the influence by my own reations as judgements as thoughts in/as the mind. I realize I can make a suggestion but for the rest it is up to the instructor of how to direct the lesson where in I am able to direct myself within myself in stopping my reactions and staying in breath while doing the exercises.  I commit myself to, when and as some reactions some up inside myself, to stop, to apply a short self-forgiveness inside myself and to breathe through, where in I flag-point what is coming up as a thought to investigate further within myself later on at home.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to need the music as support for training and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I cannot use the music as a support for the training because this should mean that I am stimulating myself in/as the mind with music, where in I realize that I can use and enjoy the music as a support while staying in/as breath during the exercises and let the music go through myself without reaction on it whether I like it or not, where in I use my own breath as the support that I need to do the exercises most effectively within my physical potential at that moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wish I had some more muscle and strength where in I realize that wishing to be different is pulling myself down in/as the mind in/as memories and comparison with others and/or with myself in the past. I commit myself to, when and as I go into wishing in/as the mind, to stop, to breath and to stay in/as/with myself as who I am at the moment and support myself in what I am physically capable of during these days and apply self-forgiveness on the separation that exist within myself in/as comparison with others and/or myself in the past.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wish I could train more, where in I realize that I have to be realistic due to time and money and physical condition where in I cannot do limitless and everything at the same time so I stay with the balance that I have and walk in patience with/as myself, where in I realize that I can apply some simple, physical exercises at home if I really want to do more in the time that I have and if I am not doing this it is up to me to investigate the point of lazyness and importance of physical appearance (which I do not go into for this blog).


So a short list of what I did and do to support myself to strengthen the muscles and my physical body as a whole:

Training with a physiotherapist who has experience with the specific injury and is able to give a scedule with clear instructions of possibilities and limitations.

Keep on applying light but strenghtening and supportive muscle training.

Rescedule my daily activities in alternation of activity and relaxation for the injured muscles and the physical body as a whole.

Investigating my own physical possibilities and not overburden myself/my body and within this finding and keeping a balance between working in the system to make a living and walking the process of self-realization.

Support myself and body with food and supplements to support, strengthen and bring into a physical balance the muscles, tendons and the body as a whole including organs which are involved.

Walking related mind-patterns within writing and speaking of self-forgiveness and self-corrective statements.

Patience with and acceptance of myself within letting go of past images of how I physically was and at the same time working with the physical potential that is here.


Where in I should mention that I am in the position to do this effectively due to working times and working area and support that I have within this  – I work in a health-store for 10 years now in a small company which have given me a lot of freedom and support to walk this way although the loans are not that high for every one involved but enough to sustain; where in of course I equally put myself in there during working times in/as (self)-responsibility – where during the time 20 years back when I walked into the injury I did not have this position and information to support myself effectively.

It is not that easy anymore in the Netherlands to place yourself in a stable financial position during these days and more and more people are losing jobs.

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