Dag 751 – It is too much to write it all out – is it?

Here I would like to share how I have walked through the experience of that it is ‘too much’ to let’s say, get more insight on how I participate in my thoughts, feelings and emotions and ‘how much work’ it is to deconstruct the limiting expressions within myself and then reconstruct it in a way that is considering and caring, as how I am in potential able to as a living being.

I do like the writing, as well of the lessons as of the blogs and at the same time, I do experience signs of resistance. So even if I ‘like it’ there is a resistance coming up that can show for example in becoming very tired suddenly, the moment that I am sitting in front of my computer with my lesson opened. Or ‘not knowing what to write about’ for a blog is also a common one; or what I do see coming up within me, are thoughts as ‘it is too simple, everybody knows this already, no one is interested in this’, things like that. I see that it is a part of a self-sabotage but I find this the most difficult one’s to walk through.

However, the writing, I also experience as ‘a lot’ and with every new lesson, I still see myself looking at ‘how long a lesson’ is or ‘how long a mind-construct will be’. (A mind-construct contains the ‘laying out in a structured way of writing’ of a certain pattern that we participate in and that is limiting for ourselves and so within the writing, we can see and learn to understand how we have build up a certain pattern and behaviour where in we take responsibility for it within the application of self-forgiveness and self-corrections).

At a certain moment I had to let this go as an ‘limiting experience’ with my first mind-construct. In the end, the mind-construct did become as long as 200-300 pages in a word-document and it took me three years to write it out and walk through in real time. During this process, I had to let go any hesitations with regards to the length of the writing and I just took it on, week by week writing a piece. I wrote a piece, needed to walk it through in real time and then could move on to the next piece. And so on. This all with the support of a buddy who is reading with me, so in a way, I am walking it by myself but I am not walking it ‘all alone’. Let’s say, there is a ‘witness’ which is an essential and very supportive part of this process.

I find it extremely supportive as within the deconstructing of the mind-patterns in such a structured way, I am able to see into layers that I do normally avoid. In general I am someone who is quite intro-spective through my days but however and of course, I will also avoid looking at certain behavioural patterns within myself. So that is also making clear why the resistance is coming up as such a strong ‘tiredness’ for example when I start writing on a timeline in a mind-construct, where this is pointing out that I am on the ‘right spot’ to open up a limiting pattern.

I did finish the mind-construct and I was so happy with it. This has learned me to not look at the amount of writing that needs to be done or may need to be done and create experiences related to it but instead, to just start writing. We do not know when and if we ‘finish’ it, as when are we finished? The more we go into the depth of ourselves, the more will open up in deeper layers to explore, for ourselves but also to learn to stand as a point of support for others. With the blog-writing it is the same, as we have this ‘7 years’ writing standing as a guide-line; this means 2555 days of writing / blogs. I am now at day 751 and am only writing one blog per week, due to others activities during the week. So, looking forward at ‘when I would be finished’, is not so supportive for myself. Because, I may or may not finish the amount of 2555 blogs in this physical life-time.

However, I did finish a 29 long blog-serie, related to 29 sound cloud records. And this I find supportive and stimulating to move on as well, as when I take it on one by one, I do finish small projects and during the way, I every time and within every blog, notice the self-support in it.

I had a teacher at the art-academy 25 years ago and when I came up with an idea, he several times said to me ‘okay, just start with it’ and here I learned to start what I have as idea to create and then along the way, it becomes visible what it will be. With the writing I see the same. Some projects get stuck and fade away, some projects I will finish but overall, I do keep on writing and walking this process from consciousness to awareness and then learning how to support myself with living words and bring myself back to life so to speak. This will happen ‘along the way’ so while doing and not only ‘at the finish’.

In many situations, I see that my mind is working with terms as ‘finish’ and within this, I am mostly projecting an experience of fear, as a ‘finishing of the energetic existance and experience’ that I have participated in for so long. It is simply all that I have known so far. But this does not mean that I as a living being, will ‘finish to exist’ when and as the energy runs out. However, this can only become visible…….. when and as the energy runs out. So it is a nice catch in itself. No proof on forehand but only a self-proof while walking and applying.

There are several courses and paths available as self-support, as well as many interviews to listen


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Dag 739 – My process with sleeping – back then and now

 

Let’s take a moment to look at some changes that I have walked during the last 6 years in the time that I am walking with others, together in a group named Desteni. It is an individual process from consciousness to awareness, yet it is a process that I cannot walk alone, as I need others who are walking in the same principle, as support and point of cross-reference but also first and foremost, to receive the ungoing ‘information’ that I do not have access to by myself, simply because we each have our own path and specific access to certain area’s. – as for example the information that is given via the Portal that I then can use and investigate for and within myself.

Within this I realize every day that what I am walking now, I would not be able to do in this way without this group. It is like I could see the potential within myself but I was not able to bring it into application and so, it was more an idea of what ‘could be possible’ but where I at the same time, could not comprehend that I really could do it and actually do it.

I will start with a very small example that is practical, visible and open for investigation and application for everyone. This example is….the hours of sleep every night.

Before 2011, I was sleeping about 9 hours each night. For several years, I did not feel so well physically and with this amount of sleeping, I was able to keep myself up and running for the responsibility of taking care of myself and the house and going to work to have an amount of money to live from. At some point in spring 2011, when I already had investigated articles that Desteni is providing, I decided to bring this amount of sleep back to first 7,5 hours. So I stood up early in the morning and allowed myself to have 1 extra cup of coffee (with a maximum of total 3 small cups a day, where before I had 2 each day – here to note that I do well on some coffee, related to my bloodgroup A, however when I drink more than 3 a day, it makes me restless and uncomfortable).

For three days, I felt dull and sleepy. But I just sit through and after a few days, this went away and here, I was able to sleep 7,5 hours each night.

This was the easy step; after this I have been walking several years to bring this back to be able to sleep 6 hours a night, however I still notice that I tend to sleep a little longer, but not longer than 7-7,5 hours. This is interesting already in itself, as it shows that this 9 hours was not needed at all, not even in a period where I did not feel well physically.

In this years after 2011, I felt myself many times ‘struggling’ with this sleep. I experienced the influence when I slept too long, where I find myself ‘too much in my mind’, feeling dull, not able to direct myself and struggling with this waking up moment every morning, where the struggles mostly existed out of self-judgements about this point.

After a few years, I decided to buy an alarm that wakes up with first some ‘daylight’ coming up and then some sounds of nature. This supported me to make it a more ‘organic’ process and here, I actually started to really support and embrace myself in this, instead of keeping on judging myself about things that I was not yet applying.

I also noticed – when I was in South-Africa for a month, living in nature at the farm, together with other members of Desteni – that I could do with 5,5 hours of sleep. A site-note here is that at 21.00 in the evening, I then had difficulty to stay awake during a group-chat for example but as far as I can see, this is something that I could train myself in as well.

What I do notice when I am here in The Netherlands, is that I do naturally wake up after 5,5-6,5 hours sleep and I feel most relaxed when I have 6,5-7 hours in bed so that I do not start ‘worrying’ about not ‘having enough time to sleep’. However I am more flexible, where I sometimes sleep less. I am then tired but still able to do my tasks and then next night, I sleep 6-7 hours again.

I also notice that I still tend to stay in bed longer than my body really needs, however I am not so much making a problem of it anymore and actually waking up every morning between 6.00 and 6.30.

I very rarely tested to sleep a lot also for example during the day, in a moment that I was walking through a difficult point within myself, however here I do notice that I physically and mentally, start feeling more and more dull and slow and ‘waking up’ then really hurts, where it is as if I then first need to push through my mind-systems before I am ‘here’ in my physical and this process is then repeating when falling back to sleep, waking up, going through this painfull experience etc until I stand up again.

From here, my next challenge is to be able to sleep when there is not so much silence around me, while for example sleeping with someone else next to me. The sleeping-process is still something for me to have attention for and find a balance in. I do need a quiet rest every night/most of the nights, to keep myself physically stable and so, there is still some panic coming up if I notice that this may be disturbed, especially if it is for more than one night. After a ‘broken’ night, I do not function so well through the day and I am not so much able to enjoy myself, but then only ‘pushing through the day until I can go to sleep’.

So this sleeping-process, it can be quite something to take on as it has many aspects/dimensions related to it to consider and investigate. However, a 9 hours night-rest, it is not needed, and so is not the 8 hours each night in most cases (where I leave out the specific situations of for example illnesses, extreme heavy physical labour and exhaution, as these can be conditions that need a different and individual approach).

I have lived this proof for myself now for many years and as I have showed in the beginning of this blog; if there is one ‘person’ who was ‘convinced that I need my sleep’, then it was me!

Interesting to already shortly mention that my physical well-being and condition did improve as well through the last 6 years, where I will in time to come, write more about and what I also already did write a lot about in several blogs here. The ‘long sleeping’ was more a way to keep myself surviving, because of a lack of effective tools to support myself within the suppressive effect of my mind consciousness system on my physical well-being. So I did both: bringing back the amount of sleep and bringing in the self-support that I received (and am receiving) via Desteni.

To be continued. Thanks.

Questions and Perspectives: Sleeping (only 4-6 hours required):

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Sleeping is also pre-programmed within and as the mind consciousness system within human beings – when you ‘sleep’ this is when the mind consciousness system ‘regenerates’ and ‘rejuvenates’ itself in preparation for ‘another day’ when you’ll be ‘actively participating’ as a mind consciousness system within this world as the unified consciousness field – thus the mind consciousness system will ‘while you’re asleep’ ‘dig into’ and ‘submerge’ itself into the subconscious and unconscious mind to allocate memory banks, thoughts, past experiences etc. – to merge / rise / install within your conscious mind, so when you participate within your daily ‘life experience’ you’ll have a ‘new fresh set of thoughts / thoughts patterns’ to pre-occupy you with.

Thus – the ‘sleep stages’ are actually where you submerge you within yourself, while your mind submerges you and takes you ‘with it’ from the conscious mind, into the subconscious mind straight through to the unconscious mind – (your deep sleep), see the mind takes you with it, because it cannot exist without you – and the mind can only take you on this journey through the mind stages to rejuvenate and regenerate when you’re ‘asleep’ so you don’t actually know this is really happening.

Thus – ‘sleeping’ is an automated constructed system within and as your mind consciousness system – to ‘keep it going’ – to ‘keep you going’ as a mind consciousness system. Thus – this is where dreaming takes places – dreams were the diversion for human beings to not actually see/experience/un­derstand what really happens when they dream in any way whatsoever. You ‘think’ you’re dreaming – but your mind system is actually taking you on its journey through the mind stages into the unconscious mind – to ‘dig’ and ‘search’ for thought patterns / behaviours / system alignments from the ‘global unconscious as the unified consciousness field’ – to install within you, to ‘implant’ within you – to ‘pre-occupy’ you through another day – and so this continues every evening you sleep – this is the procedure that takes place.

Then when you wake up all ‘groggy’ it’s you together with the mind as the mind – rising up from within the unconscious to the subconscious to the conscious – when you’re ‘awake’ – you’re fully / completely within and as the conscious mind.

The reason why the world says 8 – 9 hours sleep – is because the entire procedure takes 8 – 9 hours for full completion – installation and implantation of unconscious mind manifestations to be infused within and as your own mind consciousness system.

Though – what we have done with regards to dreams is the following – instead of you going within and as your own mind journey through the mind stages – we’ve compressed all three mind stages to one singular point within you as you – where we ‘brought together everything and all of you to one singular point within the mind as all three mind stages’. Thus – when you sleep – you don’t submerge anymore – but is placed within this one singular point – where dreams are inserted which assist and support you within the current point placement of yourself within your process – thus – dreams now assist and support you with regards to where you are in your process currently – the ‘point’ of you within yourself.

That’s why we suggest only 4 – 6 hours sleep – this is all you require – because if you sleep longer than this – you’ll move beyond this point placement of you within you and submerge with your mind into the conscious, subconscious and unconscious mind – thus you giving your mind the opportunity to regenerate and rejuvenate itself – by installing and implanting manifestation within you from other human beings in this world through the unconscious mind unified field connection / interconnection – and have experiences / reactions within you – that’s not even of you – but believe to be you – then the moment you believe it to be you – you make it your own – and thus so ingrain the reactions/beha­viours within and as your own mind consciousness system.

4 – 6 Hours sleep is sufficient – it’s all your human physical body requires – because then it’s not sleep per say – but resting your human physical body for a moment. It will take some diligence to ‘re-set’ yourself to only sleep 4 – 6 hours a day – though each have the will to do this.

Will do the self forgiveness list as well – though – here for the moment – diligence and discipline to only sleep for 4 – 6 hours maximum.

Also read: Jack – Self-Forgiveness – Sleeping

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Dag 650 – The mind-body relationship – It’s a decision

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One of the most supportive realizations I have found as guideline that is given to me by others while walking this process, is within the words  ‘it’s a decision’. Because this is showing that I can decide to live something instead of me ‘waiting for something to feel or happen or understand’, or whatever I am waiting for. It’s an active direction from myself and if I keep on walking and applying myself, there will come a moment where I bring myself to this point of decision-making.

What I have found here is that there is a process before and towards this moment of this decision-making. I have to come to a certain understanding and to clear myself from ideas, related emotions and feelings and I often first need to walk through some physical consequenses to bring the point here within forgiveness/understanding, from where I at a certain moment stand up within the will and ability as a decision to stop the following of a certain program.

I have seen and walked this process for example in some points of physical discomforts. Not so long ago I became very tired, exhausted. I had a turbulent period from more than six months, after this there were changes with additional responsibility again and I noticed physical aspects that I needed to support within myself and this is what I started with. I supported my intestine with some products to strengthen the mucus-barrier, I supplied some basic-mineral nutriënts and I started with the Co enzym Q10 to support within the process of the production of physical energy. During some weeks, I only focussed on the most important area’s in my life at that moment, I went to bed earlier to rest and to relax and enjoy with a book for example, made some changes within my food-scedule and supported myself to keep on going through the days, slowly, step by step, as I knew that it was something that I needed to walk through. I have experienced and manifested quite some periods within my life where I was within a state of exhaustion, where I more than once needed to stay home. I now (and also earlier during walking the Desteni I Process) saw myself able to move on slowly and able to not allow myself to stay home from work for example (which ofcourse I would have done if this would be really necessary) to not step in a program again.

After a while I noticed that my body was busy rebalancing and I became experiencing myself less ‘on the edge of tiredness’. However I still had the experience of exhaustion within myself. I experience this as if every step, every move, every task is an effort that I look up to as towards a mountain and I dragged and needed to push myself through. I also noticed that ‘there was something’ with this experience. It did not completely make sense with regards to my physical state, as for example I noticed that I could suddenly run and take a sprint to catch a bus and that I actually liked to do this, it felt physically good. But I looked up towards doing things – towards almost everything – on forehand.

After this sprinting to catch the bus, I was at home and within myself I noticed a very small movement. And this movement I recognized as the decision to ‘move on’ and not keep hanging within exhaustion. And from here it went better and in a few days, the experiencing of ‘every move and task being an effort’ went away.

I have had the same ‘movement’ as decision with regards to symptoms of having a could within myself two years ago, where a headache kept on hanging as if a bacteria kept on busy within my body until I decided to stop ‘longing for being ill to take a break, as an excuse to do nothing’. And very lately I also noticed my instable blood-sugar level stabilizing within myself after making the decision that it was not needed anymore. I still need to eat on time (which gives more meals than the ‘normal’ three times a day) but with doing so it is regulating while for about 6-8 weeks, it was as if I kept having low-bloodsugar levels even after having food. (This does not say anything about for example a physical state of diabetic where other, physical aspects are involved that need to be supported physically throughout someone’s live – related blogs are to be found here). So I see a physical aspect and a mind-aspect involved within the physical states and conditions to walk through and stabilize within.

I still need to ‘take it slow’ and support myself a lot physically, as I have to take my physical condition and constitution into consideration and I keep on focussing on the basic-aspects within my live. I am not dragging myself through the day anymore although I do notice this ‘looking up to do things’ as for example with cleaning the house still existing within me so it stays as a point of attention and for further investigation. But I somewhere, very silently within myself, almost as a sight, made this decision to stop participating in this experience of being exhausted all the time. And everytime I make such decision, I notice it is in one moment, very small and silent, almost not noticable but still I am very aware of it and the effect is clear within myself.

In the most challenging times, I know that I need to keep on walking and to not give up, as a ‘walking through’ without in that moment, knowing exactly and directly what I am walking through and this is where in I see my self-trust, in this slowly keeping on walking and not giving up. These processes to walk through, I find them most challenging and at the same time, I experience these decisions and the effect when I have made them, as greatest gifts.

The mind-body relationship – Timeline

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Introduction – Psychological & Physical Disorders

Mind + Virus versus Body – Reptilians

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This blog does in no way contain a medical advise. With unclarity about a condition – physically or mentally – always contact a practioner/specialist/doctor in the related area to get the support you need and from here, see how you can additionally walk your own process to get to know and support yourself in relation to your own body and mind.

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Dag 592 – The mind-body relationship – Sensitivity of the body to thoughts

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I was listening to an interview of Quantum Mind Systemization nr 81 – What your thoughts do when you are unwell. Here in I started realizing how I was in a way, still working from the starting-point as if my body was, or should be in very well condition. And I see how I approached my body like this the last 20-25 years, where in I struggled with several physical conditions that had become chronicle. It are not life-threathning conditions, it is a spastic colon and for a year of 10, I have had/walked through the condition of having chronic injuries and from here, weakness to the tendens of the shoulder muscles. So let’s say, it was in my thirties where it was at worst and at the end of my thirties, I started to find solutions to support myself effectively, every time a bit more. Here in I see an interesting corrolation with fertility, where many of my friends during that time, started to build a family and got children where I could not find my way in this and I was not able to really be self-honest towards this point. This is a subject on itself to write out where interestly, the period that is within the eyes of fertility ‘the best’, I felt physically and mentally/emotionally worst, where I did not walk the general road of starting a family and having children.

I have noticed while walking through this rough physical times, that I needed a lot of quietness and rhythm around me to be able to keep myself on my feet and function in a way to sustain myself financially. This means for example that I was working 3 days and the rest of the days, I needed to stabilize myself and I  was not able to do so much more than being around the house – which supported me immensely as I lived in a very cool nature-environment – and taking care of the house and myself. I was sitting on the couche for hours in the morning, reading a book. I had days where I was ill while I was not working, as a reaction to several natural treatments that I had choosen to support my physical body where for example, a detox reaction took place. I did not make very much appointments as I was never sure if I could be present. So I only made some appointments ‘under conditions’ with some people who were aware of my situation and/or were goig through a similar process and so, there was mutual understanding.

Last few years I am really doing better and I have done more than I imagined for myself for a long time. Within this, I started to ‘forget’ that my body had gone through a rough time of chronicle weaknesses and so, it had became sensitive, more than ‘a normal physical body’ is. This is the point in the interview that gave me clarity about this sensitivity. Of course I have noticed this sensitivity already for a long period over years and I have adapted my way of living to it when needed, however I was never really clear about what it exactly contained. Was I a ‘sensitive being’ as how so much is described, let’s say last ten years? Maybe in several aspects (with a side-note that actually any physical being is sensitive in a way). However I could not completely recognice myself within this ‘picture’ as how it is portrayed. I also did not want to limit myself within a definition of my physical conditions within a mind-statement as ‘this is how it is’. I have learned within my study of natural medicine to treat the being/body that can have several conditions and symptoms, because it is out of balance and the conditions are named, however the names are not used to define the being within this condition.

Here I was actually confused of how to approach myself within the situation of chronicle physical conditions and how to take the sensitivity serious, without ‘conditioning’ myself to and as the physical conditions.

In the interview it is mentioned how after a long period of chronic diseases – a condition of being not at ease within my own physical body  as how I see a dis-ease – the physical body becomes more sensitive towards the mind and towards thought-patterns. This explains to me why, in the worst period/years of being not at ease with and as myself, within my own physical body, I could not ‘bare’ any rumour or changes around me. I simply reacted to everything that I was not able to direct and because I did not yet learn how to direct myself in and as reaction, the best and only thing that I could do was keeping my environment as quiet and stable as possible, which easily leads to isolation, as how the mind is actually ‘longing for’, to keep itself alive in this self-created prison.

I have been able to take care of my job where in I was/am lucky that I am working in a supportive work-environment and the other thing that supported me the most to not get isolated was the nature and the animals around me while livig in a very nice house. I have learned to keep my work and house-environment stable as how I have grow up in this and this have been my pilars to keep standing on. Where in it shows how this should be the pilars for every one, to keep ourself stable in and as and from here, learn to expand in an individual process with the ability to self-introspection.

Back to nowadays and the interview that I listened to. After a physical treatment at the beginning of this week with a chiropractor, I became very tired, which I actually already was aware of for some longer time. Last year has been filled with challenges and changes which are going well, however on the end of this ‘rumouring’ period, I noticed that it had an effect on my physical body as within these changes, there were many emotional reactions and thought-patterns triggered. And I need to stabilize myself again, now in more detail within self-responsibility for what is coming up within myself as reactions and thoughts. I am already stabilizing more and more within the emotional reactions and bringing it back to self, which has a stabilizing influence on the whole living situation. From here it is time to be more attentive to the small and subtile thought-patterns that I participate in, especially in relation to the physical condition of a spastic/sensitive colon and the pattern of the stool.

In the interview it is suggested to for a month, support oneself by stopping the participation in the thoughts and walk in real time the self-forgiveness application. Also it is suggested to every night reflect on the day, see what changes there are in the physical body and what thoughts are standing out to stop participating in. Not so much to ‘heal’ the body by this application, but more to give space to the body to release itself from the mind-influences that are interacting with the phyisical functions that are required to stabilize itself as much as possible. When the body is everytime interfeared with me participatig in and as my mind without directing this, it cannot do it’s functions proparly because of this sensitivity towards the mind and thoughts and emotions within.

Through these days, I can see if there are any changes happening as for example, being less tired and more stable over a longer period of time. I have already noticed that I am able to be less tired and more stable within a busy period and so has been my physical body for even months during last year and now I see it as bringing this stability to some ‘deeper’ level within me.

The interviews are of great support to ‘fill in’ the gaps that I am not able to see by/in and as myself and to make sense of what I am not totally understanding.

This within the understanding that: we are not able to walk this process ‘alone’ as there is information missing that we are simply not (yet) able to see and fill in for ourselves, as this is how the mind is set up and how the mind is interfearing. We need to be sure about certain things without any doubt and the interviews are giving a lot of information that is giving this certainty of how the mind is set up and within this, the practical guidelines of how to support oneself within and through. We first need to see who we are in/as the mind and who we are in/as ourselves in self-honesty and from here we will be able to see more and more ‘interdimensionly’ as in all the dimensions that are involved. The interviews are giving this interdimensional information so that we are able to support ourselves, within the dimensions that we do not yet see by/as ourselves. This doing so while walking together as a group, we will have the answers and cross-reference to be sure that the outcome is and will be best for all.

No one is excluded of this ‘group’ as it is a group that supports life, in and as everyone and everything.

So yesterday, the one months started of this introspection process related to the sensitivity of the body to thoughts.

Multiracial Hands Surrounding the Earth Globe

The mind-body relationship – Timeline

Disclaimer:

This blog does in no way contain a medical advise. With unclarity about a condition – physically or mentally – always contact a practioner/specialist/doctor in the related area to get the support you need and from here, see how you can additionally walk your own process to get to know and support yourself in relation to your own body and mind.

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Dag 297 – Expressie en de Darm – The Inner Test

I had a chat with my buddy from the dip-pro course yesterday; I said I was irritated and my intestines feel cramped and irritated, and he asked:  Irritated intestines. So what is the inner test?

The Inner Test. This makes the irritated intestine more tangible.

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Problem:

I still sleep too long, and in relation to sleep I have created and build up several, well many limitations for and about myself. One of them is fear of tiredness. Not just fear of the experience – which I experience physical, as it is not really physical in source but it manifested in a physical experience – but also fear that if I do not listen to this tiredness and push through, I will ‘break down’ something in the physical and do harm to the physical.

Which of course is vice versa, the information I turned around in/as the mind, as by over sleeping and generating energy within this and judging myself for this, I actually harm the body, as the participating in/as the mind is what is doing harm to the body and not the pushing through lol.

Solution:

To write out the related topics to sleep and the patterns and fears that I created around sleep; investigate them, forgive myself the patterns and correct myself in this where in I create the ability for myself to stand up in this patterns and fears related to sleep within the support of myself.

Reward:

Having no more sleep than 6 hours and within this having more time to write and do the other daily tasks in combination with the job outside the house, and within this being satsified with myself in pushing myself to do as much as possible and so to push myself slowly but surely to the utmost potential of what I am capable of, which is the real inner test.

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Let’s make a general start:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the physical experience of being tired, where in all my muscles feel so heavy and powerless, where in my eyes just want to close, where in I experience my whole body as just wanting to lay down and go back to sleep, where in I experience myself as unable to stand up, to put aside the blankets, to experience the cold, to sit down on the side of the bed, to breathe, to drink some water, to stand up and go to the bathroom.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wake up in the morning after 5.5 – 6 hours sleep, just before the alarm goes off, and not wanting to stand up, altough in that moment I do not feel tired.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to start creating a thought after the alarm goes off, and from this thought see the moment where I make the decision to stand up immediately or to lay down for a while and wait again for the snooze-function of the alarm which is 10 minutes later, believing that I only will lay down 10 minutes, but every morning repeating this pattern from in between time of 20 minutes till 1 hour, and so within this spend up to 1 hour more in bed, after which I stand up, already irritated by myself that I did it again.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to every night make the resolve to stand up immediately when the alarm goes off next morning, and really feeling like ‘this time I am really doing it’, and next morning again make the decision to procrastinate the standing up and using the snooze function of the alarm, for a short or a longer time, but snoozing is snoozing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make myself believe – although I know I lie to myself –  that short snoozing like 10 or 20 minutes is okay, and only long snoozing is not okay, not using the common sense in this that there is no ‘in between’ in making a decision, and as long as I am standing in between, I allow myself to fall.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to act as an addict every morning with regards to the decision of standing up immediately after the alarm goes off, in which I use excuses that are really no different of the excuses that a drug-or alcohol addict uses every time, every day with regards to the decision to stop drinking and/or doing drugs.

To be continued

De serie Expressie en de Darm begint bij Dag 232  – (inclusief Disclaimer)

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