november | 2019 | Reis van ziel naar Leven

I am going to have a look at the word strength. What does it mean to have strength, inner strength, to be ‘a strong woman’ and to accept this within oneself?

I have no or little guideline or structure in this I notice so let’s see with the writing if I can start creating such platform for myself. I am quite sure I misinterpret the word strength, although I know it is not about physical strength, then still I do have a picture coming up with what ‘a strong woman’ means in my (un- / subconscious) idea.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see a strong woman as a woman who can stand her ground in this world and so, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see the strength here projected outside myself as ‘who I am in this world’ instead of seeing, realizing and understanding strength here as a presence within and as myself to push myself through energetic mind-patterns that I have accepted and allowed to integrate within and as my physical body and then limiting myself within.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not ever considered ‘strength’ as in inner quality that I use for myself to push beyond my limitations, because I actually do not really recognize it as limitations but more as a stated ‘this is who I am’ or stated situation as ‘how it is’ and so, I do not consider moving beyond it; not considering that there is something to move into, in and as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not question certain ‘who I am’ or ‘how it is’ as a limited creation / adaptation from within myself and so here not considering my own strength as well, cause if I do not see that and how I created it myself within acceptance and allowance, I also do not see / recognize my own strength or capacity to create.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not recognize my own capacity to create, may it be in a limited way – the creation is still here but from a mind’s starting-point and so limited, however the mind on itself can not create but only with me within and so, the mind on itself can not be stronger than me, within and as myself, as I am the starting-point and starter of it all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand myself as the staring-point and so as the strength within and as me to move, direct, create, express and change where needed.

I commit myself to, when and as I experience a fear coming up, to breathe, embrace the fear-energy and forgive the fear as me and from here and while doing so, bring the word strength back to myself, as a quality within and as myself, within the starting-point of who I am and can be, to move myself beyond limitations as ideas and experiences that I have created / copied in and as the mind as an outflow of fear – to move myself into the unknown as me as Life itself and with the support of a living word that I look for in the moment – may it be strength itself, may it be another word that is present in and as me.