For a while I noticed that Snoo the white female cat, was sometimes leaving one or two drops of urine when she steps out of the box after doing a pee. Where in I made a remark for myself that if we go for a yearly check up, this should be investigated too. However yesterday, she was sitting near to me and looking at me for a long time and I sensed that something was going on. She also did sleep very long the night before and I saw some urine around her vulva, but because she has a lot of longer hair, I was not sure how that was before, but I remembered it as always being clean. The signs were futile but it were signs and additional and more prominent was my sense of something that needed to be taken on, now, today.
I ended up with going three times towards the fet. First I called and they said that I could bring some urine so that they could test it. They have a package with plastic litter for this to put in the box and when the cat pees, one can easily take out the urine with an injection needle (without the needle). So I picked that up first time, back at home I went upstairs to empty the box and directly after I had emptied it, Snoo was next to me and stepped into the box to do a pee.
Okay that went fast lol. I took it in the injection needle and into a pipet and went back to the vet. They would call me with the result. The result was that their was a bladder infection, there was a little blood in the urine. I could come for a medicine, but the vet strongly advised me to bring the cat with me for further investigation because she found the symptoms a bit strange and the cat is very young (almost 3 years). I found something strange about it too and she had a place the same afternoon. So, third time to the vet this day. This time my neighbour was at home and she was willing to drive with me with her car so we did not need to go on bike through the cold weather. That was great.
I was nervous, I did not expect something physical going on already with the cats. I also thought about the money as usual in this kind of situations but decided to not worry about that and to do what needed to be done and find a solution and arrange the payment. (I do have put aside some extra for these cases but with large amounts I will need to arrange a montly payment).
The physical investigation went well and nothing other serious seems to be going on than bladder infection. My worry was that it was related to her uterus, as how the situation was with the female rabbit that died 2 years ago, eventually from a uterus carcinoom but also at an age around 9. Here I learned a lot about the differences between rabbits and cats, which is very cool to know.
Cats do not easily have a uterus infection and seldom carcinoom if they are sterilised, because the ovaria are taken away and so the hormons that can activate this symptoms of uterus infection are not being produced anymore. It is something that is often happening with female rabbits but not with female cats, she ensured me and so the uterus is not recommended to be taken out as how they often recommend with female rabbits.
Her worry (of the vet) was if the urethra was narrowed and she wanted to check this. This is seen more often with male cats but can be so with female cats. So the vet and I had a different motivation to directly investigate. The urethra was not narrowed, her bladder felt normal by size but was sensitive for the cat when she touched it. Also a stone would not be likely as there was only one line of blood in the urine sample and with a stone, there are mostly more and there also was no grind find in the urine.
I also learned that with cats, a bladder infection is not coming from a bacteria as how it is with guinea-pigs or rabbits (I forgat why this is so). It is coming from an irritation of the bladder-wall (inside). Interesting. I am glad that I did not test things out with for example colloidal silverwater, as this is working when there are bacteria involved so it would not have maken any difference.
So. How comes then that she has a bladder-infection?
Stress? asked the vet. Well she seems relaxed, I said, where I directly mentioned that it might seem so. As when I looked back, she came often sitting next to me when for example Basha the male cat was chasing her. Perhaps she was not so relaxed as it seems. It is not a nervous cat so to speak but that doesn’t mean that she is not experiencing ‘stress‘ inside.
So I asked about some alternatives to reduce the stress for her as I prefer to work with that additionally (natural medicine). Very nicely she came up with additional solutions. So what I start with now is the following:
A medicine to cure the infection for 5 days, as first ofcourse (it is not anti-biotics becasue there is no bacteria involved so it is something to treat the infection). Then Feliway, first as spray because I have that already and when it goes well, the evaporator. I can try out Rescue or other flower remedies but what I start with is a tiny bit of Valerian (also the Cat Mint called). Snoo was lately more often chewing on a Valerian root that I in the beginning, had placed on the ground in between all the toys. Let’s see if we can get her to some relaxation also with Basha around.
In the evening she was going to sleep and I was sitting next to her, giving some hugs. If I trust my communication with her this is what I picked up: she was trying to hold on but she did not manage to do so, of being this ‘tough’ or brave cat (from what I understand towards Basha and/or to hold her stand as the leader and not let it effect her too much), which may be her survival technic (she comes from the street). In fact she is a (physically) little and very gentle cat. I hold her and embodied that she doesnot need to, she is not on the street anymore and Basha is not really doing something (he is challenging her but not hurting). This morning when she looked at me I noticed this as that she ‘warned’ me as needing support.
She is sleeping a lot and it looks like she is more relaxed, which may also be because of the pain being treated as she may have walked with this already for longer. I keep an eye on Basha and he seems to be more gentle. It can be because Snoo is more relaxed herself, it can be because he senses that he needs to be/is asked to be, it can be momentarial for sure and it can also be because of the Feliway!
I bought another cat’s box (well yeah, another one!) as also discussed to place in another space. Let’s see if she will use that and having some rest here for herself, as here Basha can be chasing her now and then. I tried to remove a box I already had but when we were at the vet, Basha did his poo on the ground where the box was normally standing. Maybe he was nervous too because of this new situation where Snoo went out, maybe because his poo was a bit thin this time, or maybe he just wanted the box to keep standing there. So I put it back. Three boxes on a row and one new extra in a different space. (There are at least three recommended for two cats who are having some issues with each other).
Let’s see how we do from here. I learned a lot about cats and diferences with other animals and treatments which I find very interesting. I share them detailed here so that it can be of support for others as well if/when needed.
I have walked self-forgiveness on reactions coming up within me yesterday, as I went into a slide panic inside that I suppressed when I was going to do the practical things. And I did not want to cry at the vet when she explained that with cats it is most likely not related to the uterus. Which was based on a remembrance with the rabbit and me experiencing some relief.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I have done something wrong because Snoo has ‘already a bladder-infection’ and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty for bringing in Basha and wondering if she might have done better alone here, where I did not prefer her to come in alone because I am long days from home for work half time of the week.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that the first cat that I had choosen to be here with her, might have fit better than Basha but he went ill and could not be placed and so, I looked for another and I liked Basha although I saw that he might be challenging (where the first information was that he was a she, until he arrived from Egypt).
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel heavy as if I have done something wrong by putting two cats together that did not know each other, where it may be causing ‘stress’ that may cause physical consequenses as for example a bladder infection.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame myself for putting the cats into this situation, instead of looking practically at the situation as how it is at this moment, that does not look so bad but that needs some direction.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that if a situation needs direction, that I have done something wrong before.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that ‘challenges’ are something to better prevent from, instead of seeing them as something to learn from and expand and direct into a solution.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame myself when I did not all see through in the beginning/on forehand and then place myself at where I am now physically, back into the beginning in my mind as if I could have forseen how things will go or work out.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel disappointed that in an early stage there are physical things going on with the animals.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that it will cost me a lot or all the money I have available to support them, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that it is a thought projected as fear in the future as a ‘what if…’ situation in/as my mind and so I commit myself to stop participating in this ‘what if...’ situations as thoughts in/as my mind, to breathe and focus on the current situation that I am physically in.
What I do see is that animals are walking their process too, as how Snoo is showing here for example. Which is at the same time reflecting my process, although it is not ‘because of me’ as animals do not carry the ‘load’ of the care-taker since the Portal opened 2006-2007.
I commit myself to, when and as I go into experiences of guilt or blame towards myself, to stop, breathe and bring myself back to the situation as it is and from here, look into the best possible solutions to walk and if and when experiences keep coming up, go back to writing to release some unseen attachements and energy and while doing this, stabilizing myself more and more and so, becoming more and more able to make decisions from a clear starting-point, that will not give a prediction of how things go but that does give an outcome that I can direct within self-trust and self-satisfaction because it will be more and more aligned with who I can and will be in alignment with and as life itself/within awareness.
I commit myself to walk with the animals equally, to receive their support and give it where needed and within my ability and I commit myself to trust myself and investigate my senses in my interaction with animals, as I have proven more than once to myself that I am in the right direction that something is going on, but that I need to go find out what it is exactly so that I can look for practical solutions and physical support.
I realize that there are many consequences that we cannot yet prevent because of already being programmed/designed and developped through time and I commit myself to keep on investigating if there are other things that can cause stress and/or the bladder-infection and to see how to support.
I commit myself to look into my view on death and a fear of death coming up while walking with animals.
Cats and Self Discovery
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